'Who am I?'
It was my first thought when I came into this world. It felt so cold knowing that I am detached from this world, without having any acquaintances nor close friends. my ability of sensing others' malicious intents only made it worse. Every single one of my doubts, I hid it under the guise of playfulness.
'Are everyone like this?' I thought at that time.
Upon meeting that little girl, I found out that not all living beings are averse with me. For reasons unknown, I simply thought that it's like this; that I am unwanted by everyone. Still, this encounter helped me a lot in that time, and my mindset became better due to extremely fortunate circumstances.
Meeting Tomimi's honest-natured tribe and being friends with the chat group members are some of them. Truly, I am very thankful that things went like this... that my decisions led to me accepting myself as a part of this 'world'.
Then that clusterfuck came. What we anticipated as a normal Magical Girl world turned out to be a place under the threat of several entities. I was forced to use my ultimate trump cards, summoning my past selves in turn.
This situation answered most of my questions. For instance, I was rejected by the 'world' at that time due to the fact that I almost destroyed hundreds of them. I am an unwanted threat, the person that usually gets killed for the "greater good".
Of course, I couldn't accept the truths in a short span of time. While I acknowledged my past selves, my subconscious couldn't fully accept them. If I had accepted them completely, I would have to deny a single yet important thing... my current identity.
Most would surely scold me for being so indecisive. My previous selves are simply the paragon of existence! By acknowledging that I am them, I might be able to regain my current powers easily. Furthermore, there are still my extraordinary wives that are awaiting my return.
However... even with all that, I couldn't bring myself to abandon my current self. "I"... I mean my past selves...
...they definitely want me to tackle my own path. The path of the complete "Shiro"...rather, " Sakurai Fukushiro" is something that they had wanted to happen when they knew that they are actually one. Furthermore, there are still unresolved promises waiting to be fulfilled.
Thus, this led me to my own conclusion—my own path.
I will completely accept my past, yet everything else would remain the same.
'A light...'
At this moment, I found myself on an unknown dark road. Looking back, I saw a straight path that converged into two paths. These paths came across together on the place that I am standing now.
Further back is a dimly-lit road.
'I see. That's my beginning..?'
Since I don't have any memories of my very first life, that part of the road remain dimly-lit. I tried to reach over to it, utilizing a portion of [Lord of the Mysteries] to delve deep into it, but to no avail. It's as if something else is protecting it.
Knowing this, I drew some conjunctures inside my mind.
'To protect... Is it to protect the people in my first life..?'
Though, I became slightly confused. If "I" had wanted to protect my pasts from the enemies, why would "I" only lock this portion and not my second life?
Wait a moment... I can't fully recall my second life. I know some of its context from "me", but there are some questions that remain unanswered at this time.
In the end, I realized the true answer myself...
*****
Back in the cave, Shiro saw the overly saturated cave once more. He shook his head and cleared his mind from his thoughts, focusing on the abilities of his that became very active. Instead of the usual vague forms of them, they are akin to shining stars in a dark night.
He could freely manipulate them easily with his [Heaven's Feel], too.
'I'll start.'
With a thought, he reined in his entire being which was transforming into a higher state. It is a fundamental step that surpassed his previous Partial Transformation as he is now stepping in the gates of godhood himself.
He could feel that his mind, body, and soul is converging into a single "self". Moreover, he could feel concepts much easier, as if he's manipulating them with a command.
After a while, Shiro split off a part of his mind using [Parallel Minds]. While the majority of it is taking control of his ascension, the remaining began doing their part. They reached out to the bright spheres of light, forming a connection with them.
Then, he began using his [Heaven's Feel] to let them converge into his "self". To be exact, to the core of his "self", the so-called . Simply put, it is the [Divine Core] of Shiro.
Slowly, Shiro had the sensation of tugging several objects at once. Some of them are heavy while the others are easily pulled—he had the strange feeling of these abilities wanting to be pulled.
[Battle Talent], [The King's Body], [Phenex's Regeneration], [Causality Observer]...
[The Attained Skill [Battle Talent] is being merged into the Godhood!]
[The Attained Skill [The King's Body] is being merged into the Godhood!]
[The Attained Skill...]
Several notices popped up from his vision. It notified his success of merging these abilities into his [Godhood], making him smile in delight. Since these abilities would be completely attached into his "self", he could now use them to their full potential, unlike now when his skills couldn't be utilized perfectly.
Though, there are also other skills that are not easy prey.
[The Exclusive Skill [Counter] is starting to merge with the Godhood. Current Success Rate: 68%]
Seeing this, a frown appeared in his flawless face. If an SSS-rank [Skill] is already like this, what about the EX-ranked/UR-rated ones? He soon got his answer through his system.
[Current Success Rate: 25%]
[Current Success Rate: 19%]
The panels indicated the [Eternal Arms Mastery] and [Paragon Martial God], respectively.
'Damn... I'm going to rely on my luck at this rate..!'
Fortunately, Shiro has his insane luck guarding him. Even though he felt that it wouldn't help him reach a 100% success rate, elevating them into 50%~60% is fine, too.
Bzzzz-!
Bzzzz-!
HUM-!
A loud imaginary hum resounded in his senses. It was also at this moment that he finished pulling the final two abilities over his [Godhead] successfully.
After this, he immediately initiated the final stage of this ascension, which is the complete elevation of my "self" into another level.
Without any suspense, he succeeded. The energies in this cave slowly dissipated, taking along the white light that it had brought. Soon, he could see the [Greater Grail] in this cave as well as the cave walls with crystals embedded in its walls everywhere—the result of his oversaturation during the breakthrough.
Shiro opened his eyes, finding himself standing still in this place. Nothing seems to have changed, but a huge change occurred in him. His detached aura had seemingly been enhanced several times before converging back into him. This made him look like a mortal, yet his appearance became even more godly.
"It's finally over..."He softly mumbled with a tired voice.
This is the day that he became a god...
'Who am I?'
It was my first thought when I came into this world. It felt so cold knowing that I am detached from this world, without having any acquaintances nor close friends. my ability of sensing others' malicious intents only made it worse. Every single one of my doubts, I hid it under the guise of playfulness.
'Are everyone like this?' I thought at that time.
Upon meeting that little girl, I found out that not all living beings are averse with me. For reasons unknown, I simply thought that it's like this; that I am unwanted by everyone. Still, this encounter helped me a lot in that time, and my mindset became better due to extremely fortunate circumstances.
Meeting Tomimi's honest-natured tribe and being friends with the chat group members are some of them. Truly, I am very thankful that things went like this... that my decisions led to me accepting myself as a part of this 'world'.
Then that clusterfuck came. What we anticipated as a normal Magical Girl world turned out to be a place under the threat of several entities. I was forced to use my ultimate trump cards, summoning my past selves in turn.
This situation answered most of my questions. For instance, I was rejected by the 'world' at that time due to the fact that I almost destroyed hundreds of them. I am an unwanted threat, the person that usually gets killed for the "greater good".
Of course, I couldn't accept the truths in a short span of time. While I acknowledged my past selves, my subconscious couldn't fully accept them. If I had accepted them completely, I would have to deny a single yet important thing... my current identity.
Most would surely scold me for being so indecisive. My previous selves are simply the paragon of existence! By acknowledging that I am them, I might be able to regain my current powers easily. Furthermore, there are still my extraordinary wives that are awaiting my return.
However... even with all that, I couldn't bring myself to abandon my current self. "I"... I mean my past selves...
...they definitely want me to tackle my own path. The path of the complete "Shiro"...rather, " Sakurai Fukushiro" is something that they had wanted to happen when they knew that they are actually one. Furthermore, there are still unresolved promises waiting to be fulfilled.
Thus, this led me to my own conclusion—my own path.
I will completely accept my past, yet everything else would remain the same.
'A light...'
At this moment, I found myself on an unknown dark road. Looking back, I saw a straight path that converged into two paths. These paths came across together on the place that I am standing now.
Further back is a dimly-lit road.
'I see. That's my beginning..?'
Since I don't have any memories of my very first life, that part of the road remain dimly-lit. I tried to reach over to it, utilizing a portion of [Lord of the Mysteries] to delve deep into it, but to no avail. It's as if something else is protecting it.
Knowing this, I drew some conjunctures inside my mind.
'To protect... Is it to protect the people in my first life..?'
Though, I became slightly confused. If "I" had wanted to protect my pasts from the enemies, why would "I" only lock this portion and not my second life?
Wait a moment... I can't fully recall my second life. I know some of its context from "me", but there are some questions that remain unanswered at this time.
In the end, I realized the true answer myself...
*****
Back in the cave, Shiro saw the overly saturated cave once more. He shook his head and cleared his mind from his thoughts, focusing on the abilities of his that became very active. Instead of the usual vague forms of them, they are akin to shining stars in a dark night.
He could freely manipulate them easily with his [Heaven's Feel], too.
'I'll start.'
With a thought, he reined in his entire being which was transforming into a higher state. It is a fundamental step that surpassed his previous Partial Transformation as he is now stepping in the gates of godhood himself.
He could feel that his mind, body, and soul is converging into a single "self". Moreover, he could feel concepts much easier, as if he's manipulating them with a command.
After a while, Shiro split off a part of his mind using [Parallel Minds]. While the majority of it is taking control of his ascension, the remaining began doing their part. They reached out to the bright spheres of light, forming a connection with them.
Then, he began using his [Heaven's Feel] to let them converge into his "self". To be exact, to the core of his "self", the so-called . Simply put, it is the [Divine Core] of Shiro.
Slowly, Shiro had the sensation of tugging several objects at once. Some of them are heavy while the others are easily pulled—he had the strange feeling of these abilities wanting to be pulled.
[Battle Talent], [The King's Body], [Phenex's Regeneration], [Causality Observer]...
[The Attained Skill [Battle Talent] is being merged into the Godhood!]
[The Attained Skill [The King's Body] is being merged into the Godhood!]
[The Attained Skill...]
Several notices popped up from his vision. It notified his success of merging these abilities into his [Godhood], making him smile in delight. Since these abilities would be completely attached into his "self", he could now use them to their full potential, unlike now when his skills couldn't be utilized perfectly.
Though, there are also other skills that are not easy prey.
[The Exclusive Skill [Counter] is starting to merge with the Godhood. Current Success Rate: 68%]
Seeing this, a frown appeared in his flawless face. If an SSS-rank [Skill] is already like this, what about the EX-ranked/UR-rated ones? He soon got his answer through his system.
[Current Success Rate: 25%]
[Current Success Rate: 19%]
The panels indicated the [Eternal Arms Mastery] and [Paragon Martial God], respectively.
'Damn... I'm going to rely on my luck at this rate..!'
Fortunately, Shiro has his insane luck guarding him. Even though he felt that it wouldn't help him reach a 100% success rate, elevating them into 50%~60% is fine, too.
Bzzzz-!
Bzzzz-!
HUM-!
A loud imaginary hum resounded in his senses. It was also at this moment that he finished pulling the final two abilities over his [Godhead] successfully.
After this, he immediately initiated the final stage of this ascension, which is the complete elevation of my "self" into another level.
Without any suspense, he succeeded. The energies in this cave slowly dissipated, taking along the white light that it had brought. Soon, he could see the [Greater Grail] in this cave as well as the cave walls with crystals embedded in its walls everywhere—the result of his oversaturation during the breakthrough.
Shiro opened his eyes, finding himself standing still in this place. Nothing seems to have changed, but a huge change occurred in him. His detached aura had seemingly been enhanced several times before converging back into him. This made him look like a mortal, yet his appearance became even more godly.
"It's finally over..."He softly mumbled with a tired voice.
This is the day that he became a god...
