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Published at 10th of February 2023 05:57:35 AM


Chapter 197: 193 When I don't have time, I have to make a big decision

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Organizations are powerful, even though they can sometimes seem confusing and cumbersome.

What would have taken a lot of time to prepare individually can be reduced to a fraction of the time.

The supervisor has been sending me reports of Amelia's movements, one by one, and he told me this morning that it's time to move.

And then I'll have to make a decision.

And then? Have you decided on the answer?

The gathering of the party members again, except for Amelia.

You could see the tension on the faces of the assembled men.

It couldn't be helped.

For a short time, only two days had passed since Amelia had crossed into the other world.

I didn't think that a young man living in Japan, a land of peace, would be prepared to go to the battlefield of life and death during that time.

I'm in, that I am.

You can go to ...... and say, "Well, okay.

"Leader, haven't you been treating me badly lately?

"You don't seem to think, but you do. I trust your ability to organize your mind and make decisions.

It's ....... It's a bit embarrassing to be evaluated in such a straightforward manner, that I can't face the leader, that I am.

Exceptions seem to exist unexpectedly.

The first of the exceptions, Minami, has been answering the question without hesitation and without regard to the tense atmosphere of the party room, as if to say, "Why now?

You will be able to find a lot of people who will be able to help you out.

However, in a sense, thanks to Minami, the atmosphere of the place has been set up.

It's true that everyone is nervous to be the first to speak, it's no big deal if you're used to it, but it's also true that it's easier to talk if there's someone to start the conversation.

You will be thankful to Minami for creating such an atmosphere, and you will be able to tighten your mouth as it seems to loosen up.

I look at the faces of the rest of us.

Now the members to rescue Amelia are me, Himikku, and Minami.

To be honest, we've got the bare minimum of members.

But there's still some concern if we think about what might happen.

Taking care not to show my concern, I quietly look at the others.

Kaido chuckles at Minami's actions, Kitamiya keeps a serious expression on his face, and Masaru seems to be still in doubt.

......

I'm not going to say, "What do I do here?

These questions are more compelling than expected.

You may be tempted to take the first answer as your own.

This time I want you to take responsibility for your own decision and answer the question.

So I shut up and wait for the other members to answer.

"I'm coming with you.

"......

It was Kitamiya who came next.

I'm sure he was lost for answers and asked himself many times.

But it's working.

She nodded her head and said it was fine.

She nodded and said she was going, and her face held a firm resolve and resolve.

It wasn't her decision to act on her emotions on the first day she heard about Amelia, but Kitamiya's decision to take a step of her own accord.

''I understand. I'll rely on your strength.

"Yes. You do that, and I'll do what I can.

You'll be able to find out the answer to that question and nod your head.

"It's annoying that you're so serious, unlike me, that I'm not.

You're annoying. I'm a serious person, unlike you. Not with a gag like you.

"I told you so, that I did! You said something true but not to say, that you shouldn't have!

You were aware.

I've started a skirmish with South .

Why can't our party continue to be serious, I wondered.

I was wondering what the remaining two would do.

Well, our women are strong. Frankly, as an older man, I'm depressed.

It seems like a little late for that, for me, right?

You will find that you will be able to get a good idea of what to expect if you look at Kaido's face as he scratched the back of his head with his right hand and started to speak.

The usual position of Kaido is that of a dependable and unreliable brother.

You can do it, but it is a low profile position that needs to be blasted.

You will be able to find a lot of people who will be able to help you to get the most out of your work, but if you ask them if they care about such a thing now, they will laugh deeply and say that it hurts their ears.

It's a good thing that I'm not. I'm going to go save Amelia.

"Well, good luck with that.

"Senpai! There's a big difference between polite and cursory handling a while ago. I've been thinking hard, you know? Isn't this more like it? That's it, or you've shown me that you're ready.

No.

It's not that Kaido doesn't have worries, isn't too young and doesn't have experience in life.

He understands the risks that will be placed on his life better than anyone else in this party, except me.

You've thought about the effect this event will have on you.

This guy and I haven't been around long enough to know that.

So let me tell you once and for all, Kaido is not happy.

"Welcome to the world of gag characters, that it is, Kaido. Welcome to the world of gag characters.

"NO! I'm not supposed to be from that side of the world!

"There is no use saying anything, that there is no use saying anything. The conversation I just had with the leader is proof that it does not work, that it does. And above all.

"Above all? What is it?

"There is no man who is less serious than my seniors, that I know of!

"What, what?

You guys need to be a little quieter.

I'm being teased by Minami.

Kitamiya chastises them both as if they were dumbfounded.

And speaking of Katsu who turned last.

Are you still troubled?

"Yes.

...... I want to help you, but do you want to kill people to help you? But do you want to kill people to help them?

"...... yes

I have no answers.

Normally, I don't think you should take him if you can't make a decision at this stage.

But while it would be easy to tell you not to follow me, I know that it would cause a strong sense of alienation for Katsu, who is at an impressionable age.

So.

How can you guys make a decision so easily?

It's not easy, though.

I somehow knew this question was going to come up.

Like me, Minami, Kitamiya and Kaido have some differences, but they have built their own criteria for judgment through life experience.

The degree of that construction made the difference in this decision.

From Masaru's point of view, it may seem that we are making a quick and easy decision in a short period of time, but I correct that this is not the case.

"I've had my own troubles, but there are things I'm responsible for and things I don't agree with in this case. I took that into account when I made the decision to go help Amelia. And I wanted to understand what would happen along the way, and if I was willing to take that risk.

You know what? Sheng is a little confused if you ask

I don't know.

I reply.

I chuckle and say, "That's good.

"That's good,

I affirmed that answer.

I smile at Katsu looking at me with a question mark.

"This is a choice that comes from my values. There will be people who will say my actions are wrong from a common sense standpoint.

I talk to Katsu, asking him what I'm trying to say.

That's why people are troubled. Is this really the right thing to do? I wonder if this behavior is right. And that worry creates its own criteria for judgment. Failure and success make us human.

Katsu was not yet equipped with enough criteria to make a decision on this matter, that's all.

No, if this were true, I wouldn't have allowed a high school student to make such a decision about whether or not to stand on the battlefield.

The standards I had built up in my life helped me prepare for it. So I could make the decision.

I don't have it?

Yeah, if you're lost, you must be. But, win. That's not a mistake. There's no shame in not being able to make a decision now. This is a decision you shouldn't have to make if you plan to live normally in Japan. There are plenty of things in the world you can't say no to even if you think you can't, but sometimes you have to say no to them. What and how you decide is your personal value, and how you deal with the situation when it is contrary to your values is an adaptive instinct that is necessary for you to live. In other words, how to live is a lifelong conundrum. Even I have to worry, stop, go forward, and worry again, and again. There is no easy way to decide.

This time, the environment was bad .

There is nothing wrong with the hesitation of victory.

It's too early to let the balance of life's values tilt in the balance.

So you know, it's not wrong that you don't have an answer for this one.

So good, and still unconvinced, Katsura's face seems to imagine what I'm going to say afterwards, and asks me if I'm going to leave you behind.

"I'm sorry, Katsura, but I'll leave you behind this time. Even if you said you would go now, I would not take you.

"......

I'm very clear on that question.

Katsu doesn't ask why.

Katsu is smart.

He knows that being lost will slow me down at this point.

But I can't help feeling that I won't be there to help my colleague, to help Amelia.

Whether it's pettiness or frustration, Katsu is desperately trying to swallow the frustration that's spilling out of him.

Don't look at me like that.

"Ite

I lightly decapitate Katsura's forehead.

"I told you, you're not wrong. No one is going to tell you that you're not on board because you didn't go to help Amelia at this point. And besides, you have an important role to play.

"Role?

Oh, you look unhappy with your important role as an answering machine waiting for you to come home. I'm not stupid enough to be an answering machine.

I think that Katsu's words sounded like he was just saying the right thing in a comforting way, and his brow began to wrinkle even more than usual as I explained with a wry smile.

It's comforting to know that someone is waiting for you to come home. For me it's Suela and Memoria. But it's also a place where you can stand. And if Kaido and the others knew you were waiting for them, it would help dispel the thought of giving up at the last minute.

The word "comforting" is not as foolish as it seems.

A little piece of mind can make the difference.

I've learned through battle that that margin is a lifeline.

Hearing my words, Kaido, Minami and Kitamiya nodded in agreement.

We await the good news, that we do.

I'll show you how senior I am.

Well, if Jiro-san is right and Masaru is waiting for you, you can relax.

That's not a lie.

Acting alone is light, but when someone is waiting for you behind it, it becomes a weight that prompts you to act cautiously.

Understanding this, Masaru closed his eyes once, took a deep breath, and said.

"Okay. I'll wait for you.

He opened his eyes and said as if to blow away his worries.

Oh, I'll take care of it. We'll have a party when we get Amelia home.

I was told to laugh and hope that I did not betray that decision.

Word of the Day

You have to make decisions and decisions in a small amount of time, but I never thought I'd see the day when I'd have to make a decision like this.




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