Chapter 98
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Ninety-eight:
Lin Anlan unconsciously wrapped up his coat, but suddenly felt as if he had touched something. He looked down and found that he was still wearing a ring given to him by Cheng Yu.
The ring is not big. It's a small one. The tulip on it is exquisitely carved, low-key and luxurious, just like Cheng Yu, who is affectionate and patient.
Lin Anlan quietly looked for a long time, put his hand into the pocket, did not take off the ring.
Cheng Yu is right. He can like him.
Their beginning was a mistake. It was Cheng Yu's mistake to deceive him, but in this mistake, his love for Cheng Yu was true.
He likes him.
But it's because I like it that I feel worse.
Lin Anlan clenched his hand with the ring and looked at the heavy night outside the window in a complicated mood.
When the taxi stopped again, it was very late.
Lin Anlan stood in his house, strange and familiar.
For half a year, he almost lived in Cheng Yu's family. The house he used to live in has become a familiar but strange residence.
Like, some people in the address book.
Lin Anlan rolled up his sleeves and cleaned the room for a long time. Until he was tired, he changed the sheets and put in the quilt.
He had several dreams. The dreams were very complicated. He dreamed of Cheng Yu and asked him, "don't you love me anymore?"? I also dream that I once told myself that you didn't love him at all.
Lin Anlan didn't sleep very well and woke up at more than 7 a.m.
He sat in bed for a while, got out of bed, and then went on with his cleaning work last night.
When the house was bright and clean and there was nothing to clean, he sat on the sofa again and ordered a take out for himself.
This is when Jiang Xu's message came.
He received a call like that from Lin Anlan yesterday. How could he forget it? After a night's hesitation, he still chose to send a text message to Lin Anlan.
Jiang Xu: [Xiaolan, how are you? Are you still at Cheng Yu's? Shall I see you
Lin Anlan thought about it and said to him, "I'm in my house. Come here."
He wants to ask Jiang Xu some questions and confirm some things with him.
Jiang Xu came very quickly and was obviously familiar with the address.
Lin Anlan just finished eating, sitting on the sofa eating fruit.
Jiang Xu didn't expect that happiness would come so soon. It was only a few days before the new year. Lin Anlan saw through Cheng Yu's true face. It was really gratifying.
"Xiaolan." He sat in front of Lin Anlan, indignant, "I said Cheng Yu is not a good thing, he is a liar, he has been cheating you."
Lin Anlan took a sip of tea and looked at him, "did you forget what you said before?"
Jiang Xu some Zheng, "ah?"
"What you said, you will never speak ill of him in front of me again. You admit that you are wrong, and you should be ashamed of him."
Jiang Xu
"He lied to you, how can you still speak for him?" Jiang Xu complained discontentedly.
Lin Anlan is very calm, "one yard to one yard, he may be sorry for me, but he has nothing sorry for you, you have no right to say what he is."
"Why didn't he apologize to me? If he didn't say it in front of you, how could you be angry with me?"
"Am I angry with you because of him?" Lin Anlan looked directly at Jiang Xu, "you say again, I and you angry because of what?"
Jiang Xu
"Say it." Lin Anlan asked him, "before you said you knew you were wrong, but now you tell me where you are wrong?"
After a moment's silence, Jiang Xu bowed his head and admitted, "it's because of me. I went to see Cheng Feng behind your back. I don't feel guilty about Cheng Yu. Cheng Yu is not wrong. It's me who is wrong."
"What else?" Lin Anlan looks at him.
"What else?" Jiang Xu doubts.
"As you said before, I went to Cheng Yu's side for you. You want me to go home with him to see my parents. Isn't that the point I'm angry with?"
Jiang Xu was stunned when he heard the speech.
Lin Anlan thought of this sentence yesterday. He didn't quite understand why he lost his memory, and he didn't quite understand why he went to find Cheng Yu and mistakenly took Cheng Yu as his boyfriend. But if this sentence is true, then he has an unusual but reasonable explanation.
He stared at Jiang Xu and asked him word by word, "did you really say that to me? Do you really want me to do this? "
Jiang Xu wanted to deny it, but he couldn't say anything.
He didn't deceive Lin Anlan in language and concealed that he went to see Cheng Feng. He just concealed that Lin Anlan didn't ask him if you had ever seen Cheng Feng behind my back, so he didn't answer this question, so naturally he didn't deceive him.
He looked at Lin Anlan and wrote everything in his eyes.
Lin an LAN sighed, he asked, "Jiang Xu, what do you regard me as?"
He thinks he really can't understand Jiang Xu. He thought Jiang Xu didn't care about him, so he secretly went to see Cheng Feng behind his back.
But when he told Jiang Xu that he would not see him again, Jiang Xu did not hesitate to cut off the contact with Cheng Feng, kept pestering him, and even waited at his door on New Year's Eve, hoping that they could spend the new year together.
He thinks that Jiang Xu should also care about him. After all, they have been friends for so many years. They have known each other for so many years. How can they have feelings.
But Jiang Xu can think of letting him be Cheng Yu's fake boyfriend, so as to annoy Cheng Feng and seek benefits for himself.
Lin Anlan thinks that he can't understand Jiang Xu. He doesn't know whether Jiang Xu cares about him or not.
It seems to care, but it doesn't seem to care at all.
"Don't you stop me from contacting Cheng Yu at this time? It was you who didn't let me make friends with Cheng Yu at the beginning. Now it's you who pushed me to him and let me be his boyfriend. Do you want me to contact Cheng Yu or not? "
Lin Anlan was puzzled, "if according to your hope, a few days or months ago, I didn't achieve what you wanted perfectly, except that I didn't see his parents with him, but I did it on his boyfriend, didn't I? Even if it is very successful, why do you put on a posture that I hurt you and ask why I don't want you anymore? "
"Isn't that what you want? Shouldn't you be content and be happy? "
"It's my fault, Xiaolan. I'm sorry for you. I was confused for a moment, so I said this kind of bastard words. I already know it's wrong. You've already scolded me. I know it's wrong, too. Really."
Lin Anlan thinks that what he has heard most recently is "I'm sorry" and "it's my fault". Jiang Xu says so to him, and Cheng Yu also says so to him. Everyone says sorry to him, but he has never done so to them.
Is he not good enough to Jiang Xu? He has made great efforts to hope that Jiang Xu can get rid of the predicament of his identity and grow up healthily.
Is he not good enough to Cheng Yu? Although he didn't fall in love with Cheng Yu before he lost his memory, he didn't give Cheng Yu any hope. He kept a distance with him all the time, and there was no ambiguity. He was once lost.
Then why did they all turn around and apologize to him?
Lin Anlan felt tired. He took a cup of tea and said to Jiang Xu, "you go."
"Xiaolan..."
"You said I scolded you before, but I'm still the same now. Although I don't know what happened at that time, I still want to scold you as long as I think you said this to me. So you go, I don't want to see you now, and I'm not in the mood to be perfunctory. "
"Xiaolan..." Jiang Xu begged to look at him.
"Let's go." Lin Anlan said calmly, "let me calm down for a while. I'll be alone."
"Will you forgive me?" Jiang Xu fragile mouth asked him, "will be willing to give me a chance to correct?"
Lin Anlan didn't answer him. He didn't know. How could he know? He didn't even know what the specific situation was and how serious the situation was. How could he know if he would forgive Jiang Xu?
Those memories forgotten by him must be painful and irritable, so he will forget, and he will not panic after forgetting.
That itself is not a pleasant memory, itself, perhaps he does not want to remember.
Jiang Xu left, Lin Anlan walked on the sofa, quietly drinking tea, looking at the post.
The room was warm, his heart was quiet, he was tired of watching, so he lay on the sofa and slept for a while.
At night, Lin Anlan wakes up in a daze.
He doesn't want to move very much. He shouts "Xiaohua" to let Cheng Yu carry him back to his room.
His voice is very light, with unconscious dependence and attachment. He opens his eyes after shouting and sees clearly the furnishings in front of him. He vaguely reflects that he is not at Cheng Yu's home, he has gone back to his own home.
Cheng Yu cheated him, so he left, he returned to his home, his side, no Cheng Yu.
Lin Anlan seems to be stuck in general, no action, quiet sitting on the sofa.
It was a long time before he came down from the sofa.
He got up and went back to his bedroom. The window of the bedroom was not closed, and the wind came in, which made the room cold.
Lin Anlan went to the window and closed the window. Then he saw a vast expanse of white in the courtyard, shining brightly under the street lamp.
It's snowing, he thought. It must be very cold this year.
Lin Anlan drew the curtain, got into his bed and fell asleep.
Cheng Yu was lying in bed with his eyes closed when he received the call from sun Meng.
He had not slept for a day and a night. Reason told him that he should sleep, but he couldn't sleep. He closed his eyes and saw Lin Anlan crying in his mind.
He said, "you lied to me."
Cheng Yu opens his eyes. The room is dark. He turns over, but he can't see the people lying beside him.
He lay silent, without a trace of strength.
The mobile phone on the bedside table is still ringing. It's not a special ring for Lin Anlan, so he doesn't want to answer it.
But the mobile phone is ringing all the time, and it doesn't mean to hang up. Cheng Yu can't reach the phone and puts it in his ear.
"Your movie will premiere tomorrow. Today I've helped you to send microblog propaganda, tickets have been set for you, specific information has been sent to your wechat, you remember to watch it."
"Good." Cheng Yu whispered.
"Why is it so dumb? Sick? "
"No
"That's good. I know you are busy in the new year, so I won't disturb you. Take care of yourself."
"Well."
Sun Meng finished and hung up.
Cheng Yu looks at his mobile phone, clicks into wechat, and sees sun mengfa's booking information for him.
He is familiar with the cinema, the seats and the private rooms.
Cheng Yu put down his cell phone and closed his eyes again.
He wants to fall asleep. He will not be able to go to the cinema until he falls asleep.
But he couldn't sleep any more. He could only keep opening and closing his eyes, and repeat this action again.
At eight o'clock in the morning, Cheng Yu finally has some sleepiness. He rarely falls asleep. He has a dream. In the dream, the sky is wide and the sea is wide. Lin Anlan holds his hand back to him. He looks at him quietly and does not dare to move forward.
When Cheng Yu woke up, he didn't know whether he had been asleep or not. He looked at his watch and it was already more than 12 o'clock.
That should have been sleeping for a while.
He slowly got out of bed, opened the refrigerator, and saw that Lin Anlan's favorite sandwich was still in the refrigerator.
Cheng Yu didn't move. He took out a bag of bread and went to the tea table, drinking water and eating bread.
If Lin Anlan comes back and finds that the sandwich is gone, he should be depressed. He still likes the sandwich with this flavor.
He thought, finished his bread, put on his coat, and went out.
On the afternoon of the 10th day of the lunar new year, there were not many people in the cinema. Cheng Yu checked the tickets and entered the theater and sat in the middle.
The studio was empty, and he was sitting alone, even more lonely.
Cheng Yu looks at himself in the movie quietly and seriously. He remembers what Lin Anlan said to him before. When the movie comes out, he will accompany him to see it.
But now that the movie is on, Lin Anlan leaves.
They once saw a movie together, and Lin Anlan made it up and asked him, "Xiaohua, do you want to date me?"
He smiles with curved eyebrows. He leans in his arms and kisses him in the movie hall.
They used to be in love, but now, the truth of the story has been revealed, the end of the story, the prince left, he was alone.
After all, he did not see a movie starring him. After all, he could only sit here by himself, just as before, just like every time before.
At the end of the movie, the man turns to say goodbye to the woman. He knows that he is going to die soon. He doesn't want to delay the girl he likes, so he refuses her and walks to a distance.
The girl asked him, "don't you really like me? Don't you like me at all? "
The boy waved and said to her, "I don't like it."
He turned and went to the distance, to the place where the other party could no longer see.
Cheng Yu looks at it silently. In a blink of an eye, something falls down.
He didn't like him. He thought, this is the only thing that can't be forced.
All kinds of things in this world, only feelings, is the most helpless thing.
Cheng Yu stood up and walked out of the cinema at the moment when he heard the song at the end of the film.
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Ninety-eight:
Lin Anlan unconsciously wrapped up his coat, but suddenly felt as if he had touched something. He looked down and found that he was still wearing a ring given to him by Cheng Yu.
The ring is not big. It's a small one. The tulip on it is exquisitely carved, low-key and luxurious, just like Cheng Yu, who is affectionate and patient.
Lin Anlan quietly looked for a long time, put his hand into the pocket, did not take off the ring.
Cheng Yu is right. He can like him.
Their beginning was a mistake. It was Cheng Yu's mistake to deceive him, but in this mistake, his love for Cheng Yu was true.
He likes him.
But it's because I like it that I feel worse.
Lin Anlan clenched his hand with the ring and looked at the heavy night outside the window in a complicated mood.
When the taxi stopped again, it was very late.
Lin Anlan stood in his house, strange and familiar.
For half a year, he almost lived in Cheng Yu's family. The house he used to live in has become a familiar but strange residence.
Like, some people in the address book.
Lin Anlan rolled up his sleeves and cleaned the room for a long time. Until he was tired, he changed the sheets and put in the quilt.
He had several dreams. The dreams were very complicated. He dreamed of Cheng Yu and asked him, "don't you love me anymore?"? I also dream that I once told myself that you didn't love him at all.
Lin Anlan didn't sleep very well and woke up at more than 7 a.m.
He sat in bed for a while, got out of bed, and then went on with his cleaning work last night.
When the house was bright and clean and there was nothing to clean, he sat on the sofa again and ordered a take out for himself.
This is when Jiang Xu's message came.
He received a call like that from Lin Anlan yesterday. How could he forget it? After a night's hesitation, he still chose to send a text message to Lin Anlan.
Jiang Xu: [Xiaolan, how are you? Are you still at Cheng Yu's? Shall I see you
Lin Anlan thought about it and said to him, "I'm in my house. Come here."
He wants to ask Jiang Xu some questions and confirm some things with him.
Jiang Xu came very quickly and was obviously familiar with the address.
Lin Anlan just finished eating, sitting on the sofa eating fruit.
Jiang Xu didn't expect that happiness would come so soon. It was only a few days before the new year. Lin Anlan saw through Cheng Yu's true face. It was really gratifying.
"Xiaolan." He sat in front of Lin Anlan, indignant, "I said Cheng Yu is not a good thing, he is a liar, he has been cheating you."
Lin Anlan took a sip of tea and looked at him, "did you forget what you said before?"
Jiang Xu some Zheng, "ah?"
"What you said, you will never speak ill of him in front of me again. You admit that you are wrong, and you should be ashamed of him."
Jiang Xu
"He lied to you, how can you still speak for him?" Jiang Xu complained discontentedly.
Lin Anlan is very calm, "one yard to one yard, he may be sorry for me, but he has nothing sorry for you, you have no right to say what he is."
"Why didn't he apologize to me? If he didn't say it in front of you, how could you be angry with me?"
"Am I angry with you because of him?" Lin Anlan looked directly at Jiang Xu, "you say again, I and you angry because of what?"
Jiang Xu
"Say it." Lin Anlan asked him, "before you said you knew you were wrong, but now you tell me where you are wrong?"
After a moment's silence, Jiang Xu bowed his head and admitted, "it's because of me. I went to see Cheng Feng behind your back. I don't feel guilty about Cheng Yu. Cheng Yu is not wrong. It's me who is wrong."
"What else?" Lin Anlan looks at him.
"What else?" Jiang Xu doubts.
"As you said before, I went to Cheng Yu's side for you. You want me to go home with him to see my parents. Isn't that the point I'm angry with?"
Jiang Xu was stunned when he heard the speech.
Lin Anlan thought of this sentence yesterday. He didn't quite understand why he lost his memory, and he didn't quite understand why he went to find Cheng Yu and mistakenly took Cheng Yu as his boyfriend. But if this sentence is true, then he has an unusual but reasonable explanation.
He stared at Jiang Xu and asked him word by word, "did you really say that to me? Do you really want me to do this? "
Jiang Xu wanted to deny it, but he couldn't say anything.
He didn't deceive Lin Anlan in language and concealed that he went to see Cheng Feng. He just concealed that Lin Anlan didn't ask him if you had ever seen Cheng Feng behind my back, so he didn't answer this question, so naturally he didn't deceive him.
He looked at Lin Anlan and wrote everything in his eyes.
Lin an LAN sighed, he asked, "Jiang Xu, what do you regard me as?"
He thinks he really can't understand Jiang Xu. He thought Jiang Xu didn't care about him, so he secretly went to see Cheng Feng behind his back.
But when he told Jiang Xu that he would not see him again, Jiang Xu did not hesitate to cut off the contact with Cheng Feng, kept pestering him, and even waited at his door on New Year's Eve, hoping that they could spend the new year together.
He thinks that Jiang Xu should also care about him. After all, they have been friends for so many years. They have known each other for so many years. How can they have feelings.
But Jiang Xu can think of letting him be Cheng Yu's fake boyfriend, so as to annoy Cheng Feng and seek benefits for himself.
Lin Anlan thinks that he can't understand Jiang Xu. He doesn't know whether Jiang Xu cares about him or not.
It seems to care, but it doesn't seem to care at all.
"Don't you stop me from contacting Cheng Yu at this time? It was you who didn't let me make friends with Cheng Yu at the beginning. Now it's you who pushed me to him and let me be his boyfriend. Do you want me to contact Cheng Yu or not? "
Lin Anlan was puzzled, "if according to your hope, a few days or months ago, I didn't achieve what you wanted perfectly, except that I didn't see his parents with him, but I did it on his boyfriend, didn't I? Even if it is very successful, why do you put on a posture that I hurt you and ask why I don't want you anymore? "
"Isn't that what you want? Shouldn't you be content and be happy? "
"It's my fault, Xiaolan. I'm sorry for you. I was confused for a moment, so I said this kind of bastard words. I already know it's wrong. You've already scolded me. I know it's wrong, too. Really."
Lin Anlan thinks that what he has heard most recently is "I'm sorry" and "it's my fault". Jiang Xu says so to him, and Cheng Yu also says so to him. Everyone says sorry to him, but he has never done so to them.
Is he not good enough to Jiang Xu? He has made great efforts to hope that Jiang Xu can get rid of the predicament of his identity and grow up healthily.
Is he not good enough to Cheng Yu? Although he didn't fall in love with Cheng Yu before he lost his memory, he didn't give Cheng Yu any hope. He kept a distance with him all the time, and there was no ambiguity. He was once lost.
Then why did they all turn around and apologize to him?
Lin Anlan felt tired. He took a cup of tea and said to Jiang Xu, "you go."
"Xiaolan..."
"You said I scolded you before, but I'm still the same now. Although I don't know what happened at that time, I still want to scold you as long as I think you said this to me. So you go, I don't want to see you now, and I'm not in the mood to be perfunctory. "
"Xiaolan..." Jiang Xu begged to look at him.
"Let's go." Lin Anlan said calmly, "let me calm down for a while. I'll be alone."
"Will you forgive me?" Jiang Xu fragile mouth asked him, "will be willing to give me a chance to correct?"
Lin Anlan didn't answer him. He didn't know. How could he know? He didn't even know what the specific situation was and how serious the situation was. How could he know if he would forgive Jiang Xu?
Those memories forgotten by him must be painful and irritable, so he will forget, and he will not panic after forgetting.
That itself is not a pleasant memory, itself, perhaps he does not want to remember.
Jiang Xu left, Lin Anlan walked on the sofa, quietly drinking tea, looking at the post.
The room was warm, his heart was quiet, he was tired of watching, so he lay on the sofa and slept for a while.
At night, Lin Anlan wakes up in a daze.
He doesn't want to move very much. He shouts "Xiaohua" to let Cheng Yu carry him back to his room.
His voice is very light, with unconscious dependence and attachment. He opens his eyes after shouting and sees clearly the furnishings in front of him. He vaguely reflects that he is not at Cheng Yu's home, he has gone back to his own home.
Cheng Yu cheated him, so he left, he returned to his home, his side, no Cheng Yu.
Lin Anlan seems to be stuck in general, no action, quiet sitting on the sofa.
It was a long time before he came down from the sofa.
He got up and went back to his bedroom. The window of the bedroom was not closed, and the wind came in, which made the room cold.
Lin Anlan went to the window and closed the window. Then he saw a vast expanse of white in the courtyard, shining brightly under the street lamp.
It's snowing, he thought. It must be very cold this year.
Lin Anlan drew the curtain, got into his bed and fell asleep.
Cheng Yu was lying in bed with his eyes closed when he received the call from sun Meng.
He had not slept for a day and a night. Reason told him that he should sleep, but he couldn't sleep. He closed his eyes and saw Lin Anlan crying in his mind.
He said, "you lied to me."
Cheng Yu opens his eyes. The room is dark. He turns over, but he can't see the people lying beside him.
He lay silent, without a trace of strength.
The mobile phone on the bedside table is still ringing. It's not a special ring for Lin Anlan, so he doesn't want to answer it.
But the mobile phone is ringing all the time, and it doesn't mean to hang up. Cheng Yu can't reach the phone and puts it in his ear.
"Your movie will premiere tomorrow. Today I've helped you to send microblog propaganda, tickets have been set for you, specific information has been sent to your wechat, you remember to watch it."
"Good." Cheng Yu whispered.
"Why is it so dumb? Sick? "
"No
"That's good. I know you are busy in the new year, so I won't disturb you. Take care of yourself."
"Well."
Sun Meng finished and hung up.
Cheng Yu looks at his mobile phone, clicks into wechat, and sees sun mengfa's booking information for him.
He is familiar with the cinema, the seats and the private rooms.
Cheng Yu put down his cell phone and closed his eyes again.
He wants to fall asleep. He will not be able to go to the cinema until he falls asleep.
But he couldn't sleep any more. He could only keep opening and closing his eyes, and repeat this action again.
At eight o'clock in the morning, Cheng Yu finally has some sleepiness. He rarely falls asleep. He has a dream. In the dream, the sky is wide and the sea is wide. Lin Anlan holds his hand back to him. He looks at him quietly and does not dare to move forward.
When Cheng Yu woke up, he didn't know whether he had been asleep or not. He looked at his watch and it was already more than 12 o'clock.
That should have been sleeping for a while.
He slowly got out of bed, opened the refrigerator, and saw that Lin Anlan's favorite sandwich was still in the refrigerator.
Cheng Yu didn't move. He took out a bag of bread and went to the tea table, drinking water and eating bread.
If Lin Anlan comes back and finds that the sandwich is gone, he should be depressed. He still likes the sandwich with this flavor.
He thought, finished his bread, put on his coat, and went out.
On the afternoon of the 10th day of the lunar new year, there were not many people in the cinema. Cheng Yu checked the tickets and entered the theater and sat in the middle.
The studio was empty, and he was sitting alone, even more lonely.
Cheng Yu looks at himself in the movie quietly and seriously. He remembers what Lin Anlan said to him before. When the movie comes out, he will accompany him to see it.
But now that the movie is on, Lin Anlan leaves.
They once saw a movie together, and Lin Anlan made it up and asked him, "Xiaohua, do you want to date me?"
He smiles with curved eyebrows. He leans in his arms and kisses him in the movie hall.
They used to be in love, but now, the truth of the story has been revealed, the end of the story, the prince left, he was alone.
After all, he did not see a movie starring him. After all, he could only sit here by himself, just as before, just like every time before.
At the end of the movie, the man turns to say goodbye to the woman. He knows that he is going to die soon. He doesn't want to delay the girl he likes, so he refuses her and walks to a distance.
The girl asked him, "don't you really like me? Don't you like me at all? "
The boy waved and said to her, "I don't like it."
He turned and went to the distance, to the place where the other party could no longer see.
Cheng Yu looks at it silently. In a blink of an eye, something falls down.
He didn't like him. He thought, this is the only thing that can't be forced.
All kinds of things in this world, only feelings, is the most helpless thing.
Cheng Yu stood up and walked out of the cinema at the moment when he heard the song at the end of the film.
Ninety-eight:Lin Anlan unconsciously wrapped up his coat, but suddenly felt as if he had touched something. He looked down and found that he was still wearing a ring given to him by Cheng Yu.The ring is not big. It's a small one. The tulip on it is exquisitely carved, low-key and luxurious, just like Cheng Yu, who is affectionate and patient.Lin Anlan quietly looked for a long time, put his hand into the pocket, did not take off the ring.Cheng Yu is right. He can like him.Their beginning was a mistake. It was Cheng Yu's mistake to deceive him, but in this mistake, his love for Cheng Yu was true.He likes him.But it's because I like it that I feel worse.Lin Anlan clenched his hand with the ring and looked at the heavy night outside the window in a complicated mood.When the taxi stopped again, it was very late.Lin Anlan stood in his house, strange and familiar.For half a year, he almost lived in Cheng Yu's family. The house he used to live in has become a familiar but strange residence.Like, some people in the address book.Lin Anlan rolled up his sleeves and cleaned the room for a long time. Until he was tired, he changed the sheets and put in the quilt.He had several dreams. The dreams were very complicated. He dreamed of Cheng Yu and asked him, "don't you love me anymore?"? I also dream that I once told myself that you didn't love him at all.Lin Anlan didn't sleep very well and woke up at more than 7 a.m.He sat in bed for a while, got out of bed, and then went on with his cleaning work last night.When the house was bright and clean and there was nothing to clean, he sat on the sofa again and ordered a take out for himself.This is when Jiang Xu's message came.He received a call like that from Lin Anlan yesterday. How could he forget it? After a night's hesitation, he still chose to send a text message to Lin Anlan.Jiang Xu: Xiaolan, how are you? Are you still at Cheng Yu's? Shall I see youLin Anlan thought about it and said to him, "I'm in my house. Come here."He wants to ask Jiang Xu some questions and confirm some things with him.Jiang Xu came very quickly and was obviously familiar with the address.Lin Anlan just finished eating, sitting on the sofa eating fruit.Jiang Xu didn't expect that happiness would come so soon. It was only a few days before the new year. Lin Anlan saw through Cheng Yu's true face. It was really gratifying."Xiaolan." He sat in front of Lin Anlan, indignant, "I said Cheng Yu is not a good thing, he is a liar, he has been cheating you."Lin Anlan took a sip of tea and looked at him, "did you forget what you said before?"Jiang Xu some Zheng, "ah?""What you said, you will never speak ill of him in front of me again. You admit that you are wrong, and you should be ashamed of him."Jiang Xu"He lied to you, how can you still speak for him?" Jiang Xu complained discontentedly.Lin Anlan is very calm, "one yard to one yard, he may be sorry for me, but he has nothing sorry for you, you have no right to say what he is.""Why didn't he apologize to me? If he didn't say it in front of you, how could you be angry with me?""Am I angry with you because of him?" Lin Anlan looked directly at Jiang Xu, "you say again, I and you angry because of what?"Jiang Xu"Say it." Lin Anlan asked him, "before you said you knew you were wrong, but now you tell me where you are wrong?"After a moment's silence, Jiang Xu bowed his head and admitted, "it's because of me. I went to see Cheng Feng behind your back. I don't feel guilty about Cheng Yu. Cheng Yu is not wrong. It's me who is wrong.""What else?" Lin Anlan looks at him."What else?" Jiang Xu doubts."As you said before, I went to Cheng Yu's side for you. You want me to go home with him to see my parents. Isn't that the point I'm angry with?"Jiang Xu was stunned when he heard the speech.Lin Anlan thought of this sentence yesterday. He didn't quite understand why he lost his memory, and he didn't quite understand why he went to find Cheng Yu and mistakenly took Cheng Yu as his boyfriend. But if this sentence is true, then he has an unusual but reasonable explanation.He stared at Jiang Xu and asked him word by word, "did you really say that to me? Do you really want me to do this? "Jiang Xu wanted to deny it, but he couldn't say anything.He didn't deceive Lin Anlan in language and concealed that he went to see Cheng Feng. He just concealed that Lin Anlan didn't ask him if you had ever seen Cheng Feng behind my back, so he didn't answer this question, so naturally he didn't deceive him.He looked at Lin Anlan and wrote everything in his eyes.Lin an LAN sighed, he asked, "Jiang Xu, what do you regard me as?"He thinks he really can't understand Jiang Xu. He thought Jiang Xu didn't care about him, so he secretly went to see Cheng Feng behind his back.But when he told Jiang Xu that he would not see him again, Jiang Xu did not hesitate to cut off the contact with Cheng Feng, kept pestering him, and even waited at his door on New Year's Eve, hoping that they could spend the new year together.He thinks that Jiang Xu should also care about him. After all, they have been friends for so many years. They have known each other for so many years. How can they have feelings.But Jiang Xu can think of letting him be Cheng Yu's fake boyfriend, so as to annoy Cheng Feng and seek benefits for himself.Lin Anlan thinks that he can't understand Jiang Xu. He doesn't know whether Jiang Xu cares about him or not.It seems to care, but it doesn't seem to care at all."Don't you stop me from contacting Cheng Yu at this time? It was you who didn't let me make friends with Cheng Yu at the beginning. Now it's you who pushed me to him and let me be his boyfriend. Do you want me to contact Cheng Yu or not? "Lin Anlan was puzzled, "if according to your hope, a few days or months ago, I didn't achieve what you wanted perfectly, except that I didn't see his parents with him, but I did it on his boyfriend, didn't I? Even if it is very successful, why do you put on a posture that I hurt you and ask why I don't want you anymore? ""Isn't that what you want? Shouldn't you be content and be happy? ""It's my fault, Xiaolan. I'm sorry for you. I was confused for a moment, so I said this kind of bastard words. I already know it's wrong. You've already scolded me. I know it's wrong, too. Really."Lin Anlan thinks that what he has heard most recently is "I'm sorry" and "it's my fault". Jiang Xu says so to him, and Cheng Yu also says so to him. Everyone says sorry to him, but he has never done so to them.Is he not good enough to Jiang Xu? He has made great efforts to hope that Jiang Xu can get rid of the predicament of his identity and grow up healthily.Is he not good enough to Cheng Yu? Although he didn't fall in love with Cheng Yu before he lost his memory, he didn't give Cheng Yu any hope. He kept a distance with him all the time, and there was no ambiguity. He was once lost.Then why did they all turn around and apologize to him?Lin Anlan felt tired. He took a cup of tea and said to Jiang Xu, "you go.""Xiaolan...""You said I scolded you before, but I'm still the same now. Although I don't know what happened at that time, I still want to scold you as long as I think you said this to me. So you go, I don't want to see you now, and I'm not in the mood to be perfunctory. ""Xiaolan..." Jiang Xu begged to look at him."Let's go." Lin Anlan said calmly, "let me calm down for a while. I'll be alone.""Will you forgive me?" Jiang Xu fragile mouth asked him, "will be willing to give me a chance to correct?"Lin Anlan didn't answer him. He didn't know. How could he know? He didn't even know what the specific situation was and how serious the situation was. How could he know if he would forgive Jiang Xu?Those memories forgotten by him must be painful and irritable, so he will forget, and he will not panic after forgetting.That itself is not a pleasant memory, itself, perhaps he does not want to remember.Jiang Xu left, Lin Anlan walked on the sofa, quietly drinking tea, looking at the post.The room was warm, his heart was quiet, he was tired of watching, so he lay on the sofa and slept for a while.At night, Lin Anlan wakes up in a daze.He doesn't want to move very much. He shouts "Xiaohua" to let Cheng Yu carry him back to his room.His voice is very light, with unconscious dependence and attachment. He opens his eyes after shouting and sees clearly the furnishings in front of him. He vaguely reflects that he is not at Cheng Yu's home, he has gone back to his own home.Cheng Yu cheated him, so he left, he returned to his home, his side, no Cheng Yu.Lin Anlan seems to be stuck in general, no action, quiet sitting on the sofa.It was a long time before he came down from the sofa.He got up and went back to his bedroom. The window of the bedroom was not closed, and the wind came in, which made the room cold.Lin Anlan went to the window and closed the window. Then he saw a vast expanse of white in the courtyard, shining brightly under the street lamp.It's snowing, he thought. It must be very cold this year.Lin Anlan drew the curtain, got into his bed and fell asleep.Cheng Yu was lying in bed with his eyes closed when he received the call from sun Meng.He had not slept for a day and a night. Reason told him that he should sleep, but he couldn't sleep. He closed his eyes and saw Lin Anlan crying in his mind.He said, "you lied to me."Cheng Yu opens his eyes. The room is dark. He turns over, but he can't see the people lying beside him.He lay silent, without a trace of strength.The mobile phone on the bedside table is still ringing. It's not a special ring for Lin Anlan, so he doesn't want to answer it.But the mobile phone is ringing all the time, and it doesn't mean to hang up. Cheng Yu can't reach the phone and puts it in his ear."Your movie will premiere tomorrow. Today I've helped you to send microblog propaganda, tickets have been set for you, specific information has been sent to your wechat, you remember to watch it.""Good." Cheng Yu whispered."Why is it so dumb? Sick? ""No"That's good. I know you are busy in the new year, so I won't disturb you. Take care of yourself.""Well."Sun Meng finished and hung up.Cheng Yu looks at his mobile phone, clicks into wechat, and sees sun mengfa's booking information for him.He is familiar with the cinema, the seats and the private rooms.Cheng Yu put down his cell phone and closed his eyes again.He wants to fall asleep. He will not be able to go to the cinema until he falls asleep.But he couldn't sleep any more. He could only keep opening and closing his eyes, and repeat this action again.At eight o'clock in the morning, Cheng Yu finally has some sleepiness. He rarely falls asleep. He has a dream. In the dream, the sky is wide and the sea is wide. Lin Anlan holds his hand back to him. He looks at him quietly and does not dare to move forward.When Cheng Yu woke up, he didn't know whether he had been asleep or not. He looked at his watch and it was already more than 12 o'clock.That should have been sleeping for a while.He slowly got out of bed, opened the refrigerator, and saw that Lin Anlan's favorite sandwich was still in the refrigerator.Cheng Yu didn't move. He took out a bag of bread and went to the tea table, drinking water and eating bread.If Lin Anlan comes back and finds that the sandwich is gone, he should be depressed. He still likes the sandwich with this flavor.He thought, finished his bread, put on his coat, and went out.On the afternoon of the 10th day of the lunar new year, there were not many people in the cinema. Cheng Yu checked the tickets and entered the theater and sat in the middle.The studio was empty, and he was sitting alone, even more lonely.Cheng Yu looks at himself in the movie quietly and seriously. He remembers what Lin Anlan said to him before. When the movie comes out, he will accompany him to see it.But now that the movie is on, Lin Anlan leaves.They once saw a movie together, and Lin Anlan made it up and asked him, "Xiaohua, do you want to date me?"He smiles with curved eyebrows. He leans in his arms and kisses him in the movie hall.They used to be in love, but now, the truth of the story has been revealed, the end of the story, the prince left, he was alone.After all, he did not see a movie starring him. After all, he could only sit here by himself, just as before, just like every time before.At the end of the movie, the man turns to say goodbye to the woman. He knows that he is going to die soon. He doesn't want to delay the girl he likes, so he refuses her and walks to a distance.The girl asked him, "don't you really like me? Don't you like me at all? "The boy waved and said to her, "I don't like it."He turned and went to the distance, to the place where the other party could no longer see.Cheng Yu looks at it silently. In a blink of an eye, something falls down.He didn't like him. He thought, this is the only thing that can't be forced.All kinds of things in this world, only feelings, is the most helpless thing.Cheng Yu stood up and walked out of the cinema at the moment when he heard the song at the end of the film.
