My name is Mo Xiang, madam said when she found me I was only a little baby wailing in a basket, there was a letter in it, it was also the last thing from my mother, the letter said she had prayed for a son but unfortunately gave birth to another daughter, the family couldn't bear the burden so could only abandon me, she hopes a good person will take me in, as a slave or servant it'll be good if I can eat.
That's how madam raised me by hers side, she said I could be a companion for the young lady, because the madam liked calligraphy and painting, my name became Mo Xiang.
When I was three years old, the young lady was born, I always remember, the moment I sprawled over the cradle reaching out a finger to touch the young lady's hand, the young lady smiled at me, it was also at that moment, I found my life's purpose.
When I was five years old I brought the young lady everywhere to play, the madam really liked me, I also really liked the young lady, the young lady however liked to cook, she always made fun of the four books and five classics of Confucianism the madam taught her.
I always thought, the madam, young lady and I would always live a happy and simple life, but suddenly one day, everything changed...
When the young lady was three years old, the master took madam Feng as a concubine, the same year madam Feng gave birth to a daughter, she was the second young lady Ji Yu Qing, the second young lady had a very sweet mouth which made the master happy, she had to fight the young lady over everything, the young lady hated the four books and five classics of Confucianism the most, the second young lady could recite it at three years old.
Once the young lady and I were catching fishes at the pond for fun, the second young lady came over with others to ridicule the young lady as an untamed girl, the young lady couldn't stand it and argued with her, unexpectedly the second young lady pushed the young lady, I pushed the second young lady out of anxiety.
The second young lady fell into the water then reported it to the master, the master picked up a whip and beat me, fortunately the madam and young lady looked after me, I didn't suffer much.
Only this lead the madam and master to have a complete falling out...
At that time the madam was pregnant with the young master, the master however was indifferent towards her, madam had a stubborn personality, since that time the madam ignored the master, everyday she was depressed, after the madam gave birth to the young master, the master didn't even say anything.
The reason was because madam Feng was also pregnant, madam Feng hired a fortune-teller from somewhere, after the divination it was discovered madam Feng was pregnant with a boy, that's why madam Feng was even more pampered.
Madam was so angry about this that she didn't eat for a few days, she also grew frail, before the day madam Feng gave birth, madam Feng had a miscarriage, madam Feng cried pitifully to the master, the master was even more distressed for her, no matter how hard madam Feng tried she couldn't fall pregnant, that's when she started plotting, poisoning the eldest young lady, the madam found out about this, she sent the young master to her maternal family's academy, that's how she guaranteed the young master's safety.
Only when the madam went to find madam Feng with the poison, madam Feng denied it flatly, and said madam was accusing her, that day the usually gentle madam and madam Feng fought, the master helped madam Feng slap madam in the face, that slap turned the madam's heart cold, since then the madam didn't see the master, she passed away because of an illness when the young lady was eight years old.
The master made madam Feng into the mistress of the Ji residence, the young lady couldn't escape from her poisonous hands, everyday she was locked up as deranged by the master, if the young lady hadn't been bestowed a marriage with prince Chen by the empress dowager, the master would have sent the young lady to a countryside estate.
From that day onward, the young lady was hidden away, the second young lady Yu Qing appeared at social gatherings like the rightful first daughter of the Ji residence, and often ridiculed my young lady, the jewellery left behind by my madam for the young lady were also taken by her, the most annoying thing was, prince Chen came to Ji residence wanting to see my young lady, Ji Yu Qing however had no shame running to seduce the prince.
Even later when my young lady reached marriageable age and married into prince Chen's residence, I thought the young lady would have escaped from suffering, however she entered another, at first prince Chen didn't marry the young lady out of love, only because of young lady's identity, and her mother's background, as well as the empress dowager.
After the wedding night the prince never came to see my young lady, and hadn't even lifted my lady's veil, the young lady didn't care, I however was very sad for her, summoning my courage I went to find the prince, I didn't expect the prince turned me away.
Again later, the second young lady also married into prince Chens' residence, that night, I couldn't find my young lady, I looked everywhere in the residence, I looked from morning to night, but I didn't think the young lady would suddenly go crazy and crash the prince's wedding night, and after this, the young lady had become well.
From then the young lady acted against the prince in everything, even though I knew why the young lady didn't like the prince, she had been neglected for so many years, naturally she wasn't happy, but I was worried young lady would really fall out with the prince and make him unhappy, I was afraid they would once again follow the tragedy of the madam and master, I had promised the madam to look after the young lady, naturally I had to do my best to ensure the young lady's happiness.
Fortunately the prince didn't notice the young lady's thoughts, rather he began to like the young lady, the young lady had now changed a lot, and was becoming more and more self-reliant, earning money with her own hands to support herself, seeing the prince and young lady in love, I was also very happy.
I thought our lives would be simple and peaceful like this, however I saw the person I never wanted to meet in my life...
That day I went to buy groceries , a married woman followed me all the way, at first I thought she a spy, I didn't think she would be the mother who gave birth to me but abandoned her responsibilities.
Mother spoke to me about the past, she even said what I looked like when I was born, then she told me she was now working in the palace for the empress, she asked me to help her.
Madam treated me so well, how could I betray my young lady with a few words from my mother, I refused, and told her clearly we had our own masters, our own jobs, she might have given birth to me, but she never raised me, I couldn't forgive her.
I had already walked for ten mi, I could still hear her cursing me as an ingrate behind me, wasted giving birth to me, I laughed in my heart, when she abandoned me, did she also think this?
Much later, I calmly observed as the prince and imperial uncle fight and the prince won, the prince used a thunderous method to force an abdication, seizing the throne, killing the imperial uncle and empress.
When my young lady returned to the palace to begin her new life, I once again came across my mother in the palace, she wasn't forced out of the palace, instead she was sent to work in the most inferior position of washing clothes and other crude jobs.
Once again coming across my mother, she pulled me into a corner, severely criticising me, she then told me her plan and asked me to cooperate.
Even if I wasn't a good fit it didn't matter, the plan still progressed, but when she got caught she still tried to take me down with her, who could blame her since I had her blood running through my veins.
Dongqi wanted a peace marriage with Dayan, princess Ling Long was the partner for the peace marriage, I was sent to accompany her by my young lady, some times, I really envied princess Ling Long, she was born in nobility, she could marry the person she liked, when she married she also had a ten li dowry from the emperor.
Ling Long however said she envied my young lady and the prince's mutual love, envy the prince for getting rid of all her troubles, seizing the throne in anger for her, having no concubines in the harem for her, if she met a man who loved her like this, even if she died she would have no regrets.
I however watched my young lady take this path, she had to go through so much suffering and grievance to reach where she's at today.
The day Ling Long and Ru Ge got married, I personally groomed and dressed her myself, seeing her phoenix crowned self in the mirror, I thought, when would I wear my wedding gown and marry a man I like?
As I thought I couldn't help give a bitter laugh, in this lifetime I served my young lady, I still wanted to marry someone, what would happen to the young lady?
Watching Ling Long and Ru Ge enter the wedding chamber, I felt my eyes heat up for no reason, a tear fell from my eye, why was I crying?
I thought about it, it ought to be from envy.
The next day, I said my farewell to Ru Ge, my young lady's labour day was drawing closer, as well as mother's plan, I was very worried day and night, but princess Ling Long wouldn't let me go, she said she wouldn't until she learned how to cook from me, since I came to Dayan how could I just stay for a few days then leave.
Kindness was hard to refuse so I stayed for another two days, I again mentioned leaving, princess Ling Long didn't stop me, with a red face she said to me, your empress's gift is really considerate.
I suddenly remembered, when princess Ling Long left to get married, my young lady had given her a small box a gift, saying that she could only open it when she got to Dayan.
The day she arrived in Dayan was the wedding night, I could vaguely guess what it was, but pretended not to know, Ru Ge made me bring some local specialities back for the young lady, then sent two guards to escort me.
We hastened through day and night, finally returning to Dongqi, I made it back before the young lady's due date, mother hadn't made a move, this made me more relieved.
That night, the young lady's stomach began to hurt, she was going to give birth, I won't speak much of the difficulties of the labour, seeing her in pain, I wished I could take the pain for her, sadly, I couldn't.
Mother's plan was to assassinate the emperor while the young lady was in labour, but she couldn't fulfil her plans, in the end the two assassins came and took the newly born little princess, this was the flesh and blood the young lady worked so hard to give birth to, I couldn't let anyone hurt her.
I gave chase, I only had one thought in my mind, safely return the little princess, I saw my mother, she poisoned the little princess, she manically laughed, she couldn't poison Xiao Yi Chen to revenge her mistress, then she'll poison this little brat so Xiao Yi Chen would be in so much pain he wants to die.
I stepped forward to stop her, but I was too late, I grabbed the little princess using my mouth to suck out the poison in her body, in my ears I could still hear my mother cursing me for being an idiot, I knew even if I used my mouth, it wouldn't clear the poison...
This was a poison created by my mother with no antidote, my death ought to make my mother become more clear-headed, it was worth it if she stopped doing stupid things.
Sadly...I couldn't apologise to my young lady before my death, this is the thing I regret the most...
The sun was almost up, I tightly held the little princess lying on the ground, seeing the sky brighten above my head little by little, the sunrise was so beautiful, sadly this would be the last time I saw it, the poison in my body began to act up, I felt my five viscera and six bowels begin to ache, first it was like being pricked by pins, slowly that pain became an indescribable torrent, I felt something wet at the corner of my mouth, it was the blood flowing out.
In my haze I saw someone in a white robe walk towards me, the breeze picked up his gown, he confidently walked towards me, like a calm cloud, the closer he got, I gradually saw his face, it wasn't Ru Ge, Ru Ge was a newlywed in Dayan, filled with happiness.
Bai Mo took the little princess from my arms, my mission had finally come to an end, Bai Mo placed his fingers against my wrist, he shook his head, I knew my life was coming to an end, even the miracle doctor would struggle to take me from the King of Hell.
Emperor, empress, I only wish for your happiness and safety, if in the next life, we can see each other again...
My name is Mo Xiang, madam said when she found me I was only a little baby wailing in a basket, there was a letter in it, it was also the last thing from my mother, the letter said she had prayed for a son but unfortunately gave birth to another daughter, the family couldn't bear the burden so could only abandon me, she hopes a good person will take me in, as a slave or servant it'll be good if I can eat.
That's how madam raised me by hers side, she said I could be a companion for the young lady, because the madam liked calligraphy and painting, my name became Mo Xiang.
When I was three years old, the young lady was born, I always remember, the moment I sprawled over the cradle reaching out a finger to touch the young lady's hand, the young lady smiled at me, it was also at that moment, I found my life's purpose.
When I was five years old I brought the young lady everywhere to play, the madam really liked me, I also really liked the young lady, the young lady however liked to cook, she always made fun of the four books and five classics of Confucianism the madam taught her.
I always thought, the madam, young lady and I would always live a happy and simple life, but suddenly one day, everything changed...
When the young lady was three years old, the master took madam Feng as a concubine, the same year madam Feng gave birth to a daughter, she was the second young lady Ji Yu Qing, the second young lady had a very sweet mouth which made the master happy, she had to fight the young lady over everything, the young lady hated the four books and five classics of Confucianism the most, the second young lady could recite it at three years old.
Once the young lady and I were catching fishes at the pond for fun, the second young lady came over with others to ridicule the young lady as an untamed girl, the young lady couldn't stand it and argued with her, unexpectedly the second young lady pushed the young lady, I pushed the second young lady out of anxiety.
The second young lady fell into the water then reported it to the master, the master picked up a whip and beat me, fortunately the madam and young lady looked after me, I didn't suffer much.
Only this lead the madam and master to have a complete falling out...
At that time the madam was pregnant with the young master, the master however was indifferent towards her, madam had a stubborn personality, since that time the madam ignored the master, everyday she was depressed, after the madam gave birth to the young master, the master didn't even say anything.
The reason was because madam Feng was also pregnant, madam Feng hired a fortune-teller from somewhere, after the divination it was discovered madam Feng was pregnant with a boy, that's why madam Feng was even more pampered.
Madam was so angry about this that she didn't eat for a few days, she also grew frail, before the day madam Feng gave birth, madam Feng had a miscarriage, madam Feng cried pitifully to the master, the master was even more distressed for her, no matter how hard madam Feng tried she couldn't fall pregnant, that's when she started plotting, poisoning the eldest young lady, the madam found out about this, she sent the young master to her maternal family's academy, that's how she guaranteed the young master's safety.
Only when the madam went to find madam Feng with the poison, madam Feng denied it flatly, and said madam was accusing her, that day the usually gentle madam and madam Feng fought, the master helped madam Feng slap madam in the face, that slap turned the madam's heart cold, since then the madam didn't see the master, she passed away because of an illness when the young lady was eight years old.
The master made madam Feng into the mistress of the Ji residence, the young lady couldn't escape from her poisonous hands, everyday she was locked up as deranged by the master, if the young lady hadn't been bestowed a marriage with prince Chen by the empress dowager, the master would have sent the young lady to a countryside estate.
From that day onward, the young lady was hidden away, the second young lady Yu Qing appeared at social gatherings like the rightful first daughter of the Ji residence, and often ridiculed my young lady, the jewellery left behind by my madam for the young lady were also taken by her, the most annoying thing was, prince Chen came to Ji residence wanting to see my young lady, Ji Yu Qing however had no shame running to seduce the prince.
Even later when my young lady reached marriageable age and married into prince Chen's residence, I thought the young lady would have escaped from suffering, however she entered another, at first prince Chen didn't marry the young lady out of love, only because of young lady's identity, and her mother's background, as well as the empress dowager.
After the wedding night the prince never came to see my young lady, and hadn't even lifted my lady's veil, the young lady didn't care, I however was very sad for her, summoning my courage I went to find the prince, I didn't expect the prince turned me away.
Again later, the second young lady also married into prince Chens' residence, that night, I couldn't find my young lady, I looked everywhere in the residence, I looked from morning to night, but I didn't think the young lady would suddenly go crazy and crash the prince's wedding night, and after this, the young lady had become well.
From then the young lady acted against the prince in everything, even though I knew why the young lady didn't like the prince, she had been neglected for so many years, naturally she wasn't happy, but I was worried young lady would really fall out with the prince and make him unhappy, I was afraid they would once again follow the tragedy of the madam and master, I had promised the madam to look after the young lady, naturally I had to do my best to ensure the young lady's happiness.
Fortunately the prince didn't notice the young lady's thoughts, rather he began to like the young lady, the young lady had now changed a lot, and was becoming more and more self-reliant, earning money with her own hands to support herself, seeing the prince and young lady in love, I was also very happy.
I thought our lives would be simple and peaceful like this, however I saw the person I never wanted to meet in my life...
That day I went to buy groceries , a married woman followed me all the way, at first I thought she a spy, I didn't think she would be the mother who gave birth to me but abandoned her responsibilities.
Mother spoke to me about the past, she even said what I looked like when I was born, then she told me she was now working in the palace for the empress, she asked me to help her.
Madam treated me so well, how could I betray my young lady with a few words from my mother, I refused, and told her clearly we had our own masters, our own jobs, she might have given birth to me, but she never raised me, I couldn't forgive her.
I had already walked for ten mi, I could still hear her cursing me as an ingrate behind me, wasted giving birth to me, I laughed in my heart, when she abandoned me, did she also think this?
Much later, I calmly observed as the prince and imperial uncle fight and the prince won, the prince used a thunderous method to force an abdication, seizing the throne, killing the imperial uncle and empress.
When my young lady returned to the palace to begin her new life, I once again came across my mother in the palace, she wasn't forced out of the palace, instead she was sent to work in the most inferior position of washing clothes and other crude jobs.
Once again coming across my mother, she pulled me into a corner, severely criticising me, she then told me her plan and asked me to cooperate.
Even if I wasn't a good fit it didn't matter, the plan still progressed, but when she got caught she still tried to take me down with her, who could blame her since I had her blood running through my veins.
Dongqi wanted a peace marriage with Dayan, princess Ling Long was the partner for the peace marriage, I was sent to accompany her by my young lady, some times, I really envied princess Ling Long, she was born in nobility, she could marry the person she liked, when she married she also had a ten li dowry from the emperor.
Ling Long however said she envied my young lady and the prince's mutual love, envy the prince for getting rid of all her troubles, seizing the throne in anger for her, having no concubines in the harem for her, if she met a man who loved her like this, even if she died she would have no regrets.
I however watched my young lady take this path, she had to go through so much suffering and grievance to reach where she's at today.
The day Ling Long and Ru Ge got married, I personally groomed and dressed her myself, seeing her phoenix crowned self in the mirror, I thought, when would I wear my wedding gown and marry a man I like?
As I thought I couldn't help give a bitter laugh, in this lifetime I served my young lady, I still wanted to marry someone, what would happen to the young lady?
Watching Ling Long and Ru Ge enter the wedding chamber, I felt my eyes heat up for no reason, a tear fell from my eye, why was I crying?
I thought about it, it ought to be from envy.
The next day, I said my farewell to Ru Ge, my young lady's labour day was drawing closer, as well as mother's plan, I was very worried day and night, but princess Ling Long wouldn't let me go, she said she wouldn't until she learned how to cook from me, since I came to Dayan how could I just stay for a few days then leave.
Kindness was hard to refuse so I stayed for another two days, I again mentioned leaving, princess Ling Long didn't stop me, with a red face she said to me, your empress's gift is really considerate.
I suddenly remembered, when princess Ling Long left to get married, my young lady had given her a small box a gift, saying that she could only open it when she got to Dayan.
The day she arrived in Dayan was the wedding night, I could vaguely guess what it was, but pretended not to know, Ru Ge made me bring some local specialities back for the young lady, then sent two guards to escort me.
We hastened through day and night, finally returning to Dongqi, I made it back before the young lady's due date, mother hadn't made a move, this made me more relieved.
That night, the young lady's stomach began to hurt, she was going to give birth, I won't speak much of the difficulties of the labour, seeing her in pain, I wished I could take the pain for her, sadly, I couldn't.
Mother's plan was to assassinate the emperor while the young lady was in labour, but she couldn't fulfil her plans, in the end the two assassins came and took the newly born little princess, this was the flesh and blood the young lady worked so hard to give birth to, I couldn't let anyone hurt her.
I gave chase, I only had one thought in my mind, safely return the little princess, I saw my mother, she poisoned the little princess, she manically laughed, she couldn't poison Xiao Yi Chen to revenge her mistress, then she'll poison this little brat so Xiao Yi Chen would be in so much pain he wants to die.
I stepped forward to stop her, but I was too late, I grabbed the little princess using my mouth to suck out the poison in her body, in my ears I could still hear my mother cursing me for being an idiot, I knew even if I used my mouth, it wouldn't clear the poison...
This was a poison created by my mother with no antidote, my death ought to make my mother become more clear-headed, it was worth it if she stopped doing stupid things.
Sadly...I couldn't apologise to my young lady before my death, this is the thing I regret the most...
The sun was almost up, I tightly held the little princess lying on the ground, seeing the sky brighten above my head little by little, the sunrise was so beautiful, sadly this would be the last time I saw it, the poison in my body began to act up, I felt my five viscera and six bowels begin to ache, first it was like being pricked by pins, slowly that pain became an indescribable torrent, I felt something wet at the corner of my mouth, it was the blood flowing out.
In my haze I saw someone in a white robe walk towards me, the breeze picked up his gown, he confidently walked towards me, like a calm cloud, the closer he got, I gradually saw his face, it wasn't Ru Ge, Ru Ge was a newlywed in Dayan, filled with happiness.
Bai Mo took the little princess from my arms, my mission had finally come to an end, Bai Mo placed his fingers against my wrist, he shook his head, I knew my life was coming to an end, even the miracle doctor would struggle to take me from the King of Hell.
Emperor, empress, I only wish for your happiness and safety, if in the next life, we can see each other again...
