Chapter 486: Yan Nuo, Save Me
Translator: Atlas Studios Editor: Atlas Studios
Yan Nuo wiped his mouth and asked Ji Yinbing, “Where do you like? We’ll go wherever you like.” After a pause, he said, “China won’t do. It’s not easy to get a permanent residence permit.” It was even more difficult for someone like him.
Ji Yinbing understood the deeper meaning in his words.
He was clinging onto her.
He would follow her wherever she went.
Ji Yinbing sighed and stood up. “Let’s go take a look outside the city.”
At three in the afternoon, the two of them finally arrived under the oak tree.
The oak tree grew on the highest point of a grassy slope. The scenery here was a little like the place in the Shawshank Redemption where the Shawshank hid the money and envelopes for Reed. It was the same huge oak, the same slope of grass, and the same picturesque and charming scenery.
The two of them placed their bike by the side of the road.
Ji Yinbing walked in front while Yan Nuo followed behind. They didn’t speak along the way.
Six to seven minutes later, the two of them walked to the tree.
Ji Yinbing saw a small tombstone with the words—
Yan Xiaobao’s grave.
Ji Yinbing stared at the name Yan Xiaobao and she started to tear up. Behind her, Yan Nuo’s expression became helpless.
He had disagreed with Ji Yinbing coming here because he was afraid that she would see this.
Ji Yinbing’s back was facing Yan Nuo as she squatted down in front of the small tombstone. She touched the words Yan Xiaobao and asked, “What’s inside?”
His Adam’s apple moved with difficulty for a long time before Yan Nuo said, “It’s the clothes I bought for him.”
Ji Yinbing felt a pain in her chest.
She said, “You’re so considerate.” She knew that the child was gone within a few days. She did not even have time to buy clothes for the child. Ji Yinbing simply sat down and said to the tombstone, “Xiao Bao, Mommy has let you down.”
Yan Nuo said softly, “Yinbing, don’t say that.”
“I let him down. I was careless. I was caught off guard. I didn’t protect him well.”
Her words were like knives that pierced Yan Nuo’s heart.
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He knelt behind Ji Yinbing and hugged her shoulders from behind. He leaned his head on Ji Yinbing’s shoulder and said, “It’s my fault. Yinbing, it’s all my fault. I’ve let you down. I’ve let the child down.”
He had wanted to say this for a long time, but Ji Yinbing never gave him a chance. She didn’t even allow him to mention this child.
During this period of time, other than that night, Yan Nuo tried his best to avoid talking about that child.
Ji Yinbing did not reply.
After a moment of sorrow, Ji Yinbing stood up. She looked up at the oak tree above her. The sunlight was hiding behind the leaves, and sunlight escaped playfully in the gaps. She said, “That year, I confessed to you. I thought that it’s okay. It doesn’t matter even if he rejects me. If he rejects me, I can continue to like him without disturbing him.”
Yan Nuo listened to her self-explanation and could not bear to interrupt.
“At that time, I liked that your thoughts were very pure. I only thought that if you could accept me, I would be very happy. If you didn’t accept me, I wouldn’t be very sad either. At most, I would be sad for a day. If you agree, I would like you for the rest of my life and not be tired.”
She sighed and smiled. “I was so innocent back then. I was so fearless when I liked you.”
“But I overestimated myself.” Ji Yinbing turned around and looked up at Yan Nuo. She said, “I forgot that people are greedy creatures.”
“Before you liked me, I only thought that I would be satisfied if you could accept me. When you accepted me, I thought that it would be good if you could fall in love with me. When you fell in love with me, I thought that it would be good if you only loved me. After that, you really only loved me. I thought that it would be good if we could get married and have our own child…”
“Just like that, I, who originally just liked you and looked up to you, started to be unsatisfied and greedy. My motive for liking you is no longer pure. My desires are too great, so after what happened with Vera, my disappointment in you became greater.”
The woman sighed softly.
Ji Yinbing smiled bitterly when she thought of how she had loved Yan Nuo wholeheartedly.
She sighed. “If I were still me at that time, I would definitely be able to forgive you easily.”
“But I’ve already grown up and have the greed of an adult.”
“Yan Nuo.”
“…Yeah.”
“Tell me, what must I do to make love to you again, as I used to?”
Yan Nuo looked at her with a complicated gaze.
There was no answer to this question.
He didn’t know the answer, and neither did Ji Yinbing.
“I still love you.” Ji Yinbing pointed at her heart. She said, “I’ve always had you here. It’s still beating because of you. One beat at a time, never stopping.” She was very vexed. She frowned and said, “It only knows how to beat for you, but it doesn’t know how to stop for you.”
“Yan Nuo, as long as I can control my heart, I won’t let myself love you like this.” She wanted to cry, but she couldn’t. “Yan Nuo, I feel terrible.” She held her chest and said over and over again, “Yan Nuo, I feel terrible. I really feel terrible…”
Yan Nuo couldn’t help but stride forward and hold Ji Yinbing tightly in his arms.
“Don’t cry.”
This woman’s face was always only suitable for cold arrogance and confidence. Crying did not suit her.
“Yan Nuo, save me…”
“Save me like when I was young.”
Yan Nuo’s heart was in a mess when he heard her pleading.
Yan Nuo knew that the way to save her was actually very simple.
Let her go, let her go far away. Time could always soothe her pain and dull her love for him.
However, Yan Nuo could not accept this outcome.
“Stay by my side. Be good and don’t leave.” Yan Nuo kissed her hair and said as if he was possessed, “Just stay by my side and accompany me…” He was not ordering her, but pleading with her.
He had never thought that the girl who he had casually accepted because of boredom would become the most meaningful and irreplaceable mark in his life.
Ji Yinbing gripped his sleeve tightly and burst into tears.
“Yan Nuo, why are you torturing me like this!”
“You want to know why? Okay, I’ll tell you, because I love you. Even if being together is torture for each other, I’m willing to be tortured.”
Ji Yinbing felt despair.
When they returned, the chauffeur came to pick them up.
Yan Nuo carried Ji Yinbing and saw Yan Yu the moment they entered the manor. She was wearing a black slit dress. When she saw Yan Nuo and Ji Yinbing, she raised her eyebrows and said, “Get ready. We’ll immediately set off for Australia to meet Major General Sha.”
Yan Nuo’s expression turned cold. He asked her, “Have you found that person’s whereabouts?”
“We’re not sure yet. There are three suspicious locations. We have to check them one by one.” Yan Yan zipped up her bag and carried it.. She said to Yan Nuo, “We’ll meet at the airport in fifteen minutes.”
Chapter 486: Yan Nuo, Save Me
Translator: Atlas Studios Editor: Atlas Studios
Yan Nuo wiped his mouth and asked Ji Yinbing, “Where do you like? We’ll go wherever you like.” After a pause, he said, “China won’t do. It’s not easy to get a permanent residence permit.” It was even more difficult for someone like him.
Ji Yinbing understood the deeper meaning in his words.
He was clinging onto her.
He would follow her wherever she went.
Ji Yinbing sighed and stood up. “Let’s go take a look outside the city.”
At three in the afternoon, the two of them finally arrived under the oak tree.
The oak tree grew on the highest point of a grassy slope. The scenery here was a little like the place in the Shawshank Redemption where the Shawshank hid the money and envelopes for Reed. It was the same huge oak, the same slope of grass, and the same picturesque and charming scenery.
The two of them placed their bike by the side of the road.
Ji Yinbing walked in front while Yan Nuo followed behind. They didn’t speak along the way.
Six to seven minutes later, the two of them walked to the tree.
Ji Yinbing saw a small tombstone with the words—
Yan Xiaobao’s grave.
Ji Yinbing stared at the name Yan Xiaobao and she started to tear up. Behind her, Yan Nuo’s expression became helpless.
He had disagreed with Ji Yinbing coming here because he was afraid that she would see this.
Ji Yinbing’s back was facing Yan Nuo as she squatted down in front of the small tombstone. She touched the words Yan Xiaobao and asked, “What’s inside?”
His Adam’s apple moved with difficulty for a long time before Yan Nuo said, “It’s the clothes I bought for him.”
Ji Yinbing felt a pain in her chest.
She said, “You’re so considerate.” She knew that the child was gone within a few days. She did not even have time to buy clothes for the child. Ji Yinbing simply sat down and said to the tombstone, “Xiao Bao, Mommy has let you down.”
Yan Nuo said softly, “Yinbing, don’t say that.”
“I let him down. I was careless. I was caught off guard. I didn’t protect him well.”
Her words were like knives that pierced Yan Nuo’s heart.
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He knelt behind Ji Yinbing and hugged her shoulders from behind. He leaned his head on Ji Yinbing’s shoulder and said, “It’s my fault. Yinbing, it’s all my fault. I’ve let you down. I’ve let the child down.”
He had wanted to say this for a long time, but Ji Yinbing never gave him a chance. She didn’t even allow him to mention this child.
During this period of time, other than that night, Yan Nuo tried his best to avoid talking about that child.
Ji Yinbing did not reply.
After a moment of sorrow, Ji Yinbing stood up. She looked up at the oak tree above her. The sunlight was hiding behind the leaves, and sunlight escaped playfully in the gaps. She said, “That year, I confessed to you. I thought that it’s okay. It doesn’t matter even if he rejects me. If he rejects me, I can continue to like him without disturbing him.”
Yan Nuo listened to her self-explanation and could not bear to interrupt.
“At that time, I liked that your thoughts were very pure. I only thought that if you could accept me, I would be very happy. If you didn’t accept me, I wouldn’t be very sad either. At most, I would be sad for a day. If you agree, I would like you for the rest of my life and not be tired.”
She sighed and smiled. “I was so innocent back then. I was so fearless when I liked you.”
“But I overestimated myself.” Ji Yinbing turned around and looked up at Yan Nuo. She said, “I forgot that people are greedy creatures.”
“Before you liked me, I only thought that I would be satisfied if you could accept me. When you accepted me, I thought that it would be good if you could fall in love with me. When you fell in love with me, I thought that it would be good if you only loved me. After that, you really only loved me. I thought that it would be good if we could get married and have our own child…”
“Just like that, I, who originally just liked you and looked up to you, started to be unsatisfied and greedy. My motive for liking you is no longer pure. My desires are too great, so after what happened with Vera, my disappointment in you became greater.”
The woman sighed softly.
Ji Yinbing smiled bitterly when she thought of how she had loved Yan Nuo wholeheartedly.
She sighed. “If I were still me at that time, I would definitely be able to forgive you easily.”
“But I’ve already grown up and have the greed of an adult.”
“Yan Nuo.”
“…Yeah.”
“Tell me, what must I do to make love to you again, as I used to?”
Yan Nuo looked at her with a complicated gaze.
There was no answer to this question.
He didn’t know the answer, and neither did Ji Yinbing.
“I still love you.” Ji Yinbing pointed at her heart. She said, “I’ve always had you here. It’s still beating because of you. One beat at a time, never stopping.” She was very vexed. She frowned and said, “It only knows how to beat for you, but it doesn’t know how to stop for you.”
“Yan Nuo, as long as I can control my heart, I won’t let myself love you like this.” She wanted to cry, but she couldn’t. “Yan Nuo, I feel terrible.” She held her chest and said over and over again, “Yan Nuo, I feel terrible. I really feel terrible…”
Yan Nuo couldn’t help but stride forward and hold Ji Yinbing tightly in his arms.
“Don’t cry.”
This woman’s face was always only suitable for cold arrogance and confidence. Crying did not suit her.
“Yan Nuo, save me…”
“Save me like when I was young.”
Yan Nuo’s heart was in a mess when he heard her pleading.
Yan Nuo knew that the way to save her was actually very simple.
Let her go, let her go far away. Time could always soothe her pain and dull her love for him.
However, Yan Nuo could not accept this outcome.
“Stay by my side. Be good and don’t leave.” Yan Nuo kissed her hair and said as if he was possessed, “Just stay by my side and accompany me…” He was not ordering her, but pleading with her.
He had never thought that the girl who he had casually accepted because of boredom would become the most meaningful and irreplaceable mark in his life.
Ji Yinbing gripped his sleeve tightly and burst into tears.
“Yan Nuo, why are you torturing me like this!”
“You want to know why? Okay, I’ll tell you, because I love you. Even if being together is torture for each other, I’m willing to be tortured.”
Ji Yinbing felt despair.
When they returned, the chauffeur came to pick them up.
Yan Nuo carried Ji Yinbing and saw Yan Yu the moment they entered the manor. She was wearing a black slit dress. When she saw Yan Nuo and Ji Yinbing, she raised her eyebrows and said, “Get ready. We’ll immediately set off for Australia to meet Major General Sha.”
Yan Nuo’s expression turned cold. He asked her, “Have you found that person’s whereabouts?”
“We’re not sure yet. There are three suspicious locations. We have to check them one by one.” Yan Yan zipped up her bag and carried it.. She said to Yan Nuo, “We’ll meet at the airport in fifteen minutes.”
