Title: Silent Lover
Author: Qiang Tang
Translated by norigiri
Edited by Nata & Asaki
“It seems that you have something to ask me. “
Shen Yu looked at Zhen Bei Wang, hope resurfaced in Shen Yu’s lifeless eyes and he handed Zhen Bei Wang a note that he had finished writing last month. It was as if the note had the weight of a thousand jin. After handing it over, it was as if a weight had been lifted off his shoulders.
“Has my lord ever liked me? “
His way of writing is not common, but it was born from Zhen Bei Wang’s handwriting, beautiful and refined, equipped with his personal style.
Shen Yu looked at Zhen Bei Wang seriously, he was afraid to miss any pity expressed on his face, yet the expression he made was as if nothing mattered to him.
“Of course I liked you, why would I have made you Concubine Yin if I hadn’t?”
Zhen Bei Wang admits indifferently, the women he liked were uncountable.
This was not the answer that Shen Yu wanted.
“What about — love? “
Shen Yu gestured eagerly, he knew that he shouldn’t have asked more questions regarding that matter. Zhen Bei Wang isn’t someone to be obsessed with love, yet this was something that was bothering him and he had to know.
As expected, Zhen Bei Wang made an impatient expression, and then he said: “Never did.“
It was as if Shen Yu’s world was completely silent, even the flames in the furnace stopped moving. He could only get his answer from the shape of the movement of Zhen Bei Wang’s mouth.
“I thank my lord for fulfilling my wishes.”
Shen Yu kowtowed three times once again. He had never completed his marriage ritual with Zhen Bei Wan and now he is completing the ritual all together.
Memory of his first night of marriage flashed through his mind, Zhen Bei Wang was hugging him while holding a cup of wine and said this was their wedding ceremony. Shen Yu thought that to be true. Maybe that was just normal wine to Zhen Bei Wang, maybe he had already told many people the same thing that he would long forget about, but it has now turned into an obsession for Shen Yu.
Shen Yu knows… that the joy Zhen Bei Wang had felt when he was with him during that time was real, the hate and the feeling of being sick of him now was also real.
Now, the ritual is complete…
Seeing that Shen Yu was neither crying or troubled about it, Zhen Bei Wang was suddenly irritated, it feels as if something was getting out of his control, and was flying far away.
“What else do you want to say?”
Shen Yu carefully grabbed a notebook from his bag and handed it to Zhen Bei Wang, although it was tumbled in this bag, it was still clean and neat, every page was without curves, but the ink on the pages were slightly spread because water was splashed on it.
“Thanks to my lord’s care, I have been a servant in the residence for half a year. I received food and drink without paying for some time, and had my Lord pay a lot of money for medicine. Even if I give out all my salary, I still wouldn’t be able to repay my Lord, but I am alone, I can only take the money without shame so I can settle down after I leave the residence, I hope that my Lord will let me.”
Shen Yu’s words made Zhen Bei Wang slightly uncomfortable, he snorted.
“Become a servant? I remember that you had not done any servant chores from the beginning when you entered the residence, it seems that you are not to be called a servant.”
Shen Yu did a few hand signs: “I know that very well, that was why I was scared. A month ago, I filled up all the gaps of work where I was lazy, my lord will understand once you see that notebook.”
Zhen Bei Wang took a deep breath and continue to see what was written, it was crammed with what chores Shen Yu had done over the past month, chopping wood, moving water from one place to another, feeding the horses, washing the clothes, sweeping the snow, moving feces away, there was nothing he didn’t do!
Without knowing why, Zhen Bei Wang thought that the notebook was blinding! The words were like ghosts trying to get even with him, the vision of Shen Yu’s frail body gritting his teeth doing such dirty chores appeared in his mind.
“That’s enough!”
Zhen Bei Wang roared angrily, ripped the notebook to shreds and threw it in front of Shen Yu,
“How dare you settle the account with me! How dare you settle the account with me?!” Zhen Bei Wang was infuriated, he hollered saying, “It’s fine, you want to be a lowly servant, then please count everything carefully, how much I should pay you.”
In the past Shen Yu was also incredibly afraid of Zhen Bei Wang getting angry, even one frown would leave him extremely uneasy, this time he seems to not be afraid…
“A lowly servant gets 2 silvers every month, in total I would get 1.2 money… As for serving my lord, I don’t remember. I specially asked Hong Lian for this, the cheapest prostitute is paid 10 wen qian for one night. I am not good in math, it seems that I would have to bother my Lord to help do the calculations…”
10 wen qian?
Zhen Bei Wang was so angry he started to laugh: “Good, good, I have no spare change with me right now, I’ll bestow you this, is this enough?“
A giant piece of silver ingot rolled in front of Shen Yu. He carefully tucked it in the middle of his clothes in his bag.
“Once I change it into small changes, I will return the extra money to you.”
Zhen Bei Wang said darkly: “ No need for that, according to how you look, you would be worth a lot more in Qin Huai Tower. In addition, your body is tender and your waist is soft. I am very satisfied with your ability in serving men! You worked as a lowly slave and even as a sex slave, you have done much hard work! If I don’t give you more money, I will feel bad!“
Shen Yu thought that he could calmly take the insults, but hearing Zhen Bei Wang’s way of saying it, he couldn’t stop his heart from feeling the pain.
“It’s good as long as my Lord is satisfied.”
Zhen Bei Wang stood up and left, passing by Shen Yu without saying another word.
Shen Yu lost his final energy and knelt on the floor emptily, dangling his limbs, he was thinking, that night while Zhen Bei Wang and Hong Lian were having sex, did Zhen Bei Wang truly not know that he was right outside, could it be that he intentionally wanted to let him hear his words?
Whatever, it doesn’t matter anymore, what difference would it make?
If Zhen Bei Wang had been slightly reluctant and looked back, he would definitely have seen the look on Shen Yu’s face, it was the face of a person who had lost all hope
Title: Silent Lover
Author: Qiang Tang
Translated by norigiri
Edited by Nata & Asaki
“It seems that you have something to ask me. “
Shen Yu looked at Zhen Bei Wang, hope resurfaced in Shen Yu’s lifeless eyes and he handed Zhen Bei Wang a note that he had finished writing last month. It was as if the note had the weight of a thousand jin. After handing it over, it was as if a weight had been lifted off his shoulders.
“Has my lord ever liked me? “
His way of writing is not common, but it was born from Zhen Bei Wang’s handwriting, beautiful and refined, equipped with his personal style.
Shen Yu looked at Zhen Bei Wang seriously, he was afraid to miss any pity expressed on his face, yet the expression he made was as if nothing mattered to him.
“Of course I liked you, why would I have made you Concubine Yin if I hadn’t?”
Zhen Bei Wang admits indifferently, the women he liked were uncountable.
This was not the answer that Shen Yu wanted.
“What about — love? “
Shen Yu gestured eagerly, he knew that he shouldn’t have asked more questions regarding that matter. Zhen Bei Wang isn’t someone to be obsessed with love, yet this was something that was bothering him and he had to know.
As expected, Zhen Bei Wang made an impatient expression, and then he said: “Never did.“
It was as if Shen Yu’s world was completely silent, even the flames in the furnace stopped moving. He could only get his answer from the shape of the movement of Zhen Bei Wang’s mouth.
“I thank my lord for fulfilling my wishes.”
Shen Yu kowtowed three times once again. He had never completed his marriage ritual with Zhen Bei Wan and now he is completing the ritual all together.
Memory of his first night of marriage flashed through his mind, Zhen Bei Wang was hugging him while holding a cup of wine and said this was their wedding ceremony. Shen Yu thought that to be true. Maybe that was just normal wine to Zhen Bei Wang, maybe he had already told many people the same thing that he would long forget about, but it has now turned into an obsession for Shen Yu.
Shen Yu knows… that the joy Zhen Bei Wang had felt when he was with him during that time was real, the hate and the feeling of being sick of him now was also real.
Now, the ritual is complete…
Seeing that Shen Yu was neither crying or troubled about it, Zhen Bei Wang was suddenly irritated, it feels as if something was getting out of his control, and was flying far away.
“What else do you want to say?”
Shen Yu carefully grabbed a notebook from his bag and handed it to Zhen Bei Wang, although it was tumbled in this bag, it was still clean and neat, every page was without curves, but the ink on the pages were slightly spread because water was splashed on it.
“Thanks to my lord’s care, I have been a servant in the residence for half a year. I received food and drink without paying for some time, and had my Lord pay a lot of money for medicine. Even if I give out all my salary, I still wouldn’t be able to repay my Lord, but I am alone, I can only take the money without shame so I can settle down after I leave the residence, I hope that my Lord will let me.”
Shen Yu’s words made Zhen Bei Wang slightly uncomfortable, he snorted.
“Become a servant? I remember that you had not done any servant chores from the beginning when you entered the residence, it seems that you are not to be called a servant.”
Shen Yu did a few hand signs: “I know that very well, that was why I was scared. A month ago, I filled up all the gaps of work where I was lazy, my lord will understand once you see that notebook.”
Zhen Bei Wang took a deep breath and continue to see what was written, it was crammed with what chores Shen Yu had done over the past month, chopping wood, moving water from one place to another, feeding the horses, washing the clothes, sweeping the snow, moving feces away, there was nothing he didn’t do!
Without knowing why, Zhen Bei Wang thought that the notebook was blinding! The words were like ghosts trying to get even with him, the vision of Shen Yu’s frail body gritting his teeth doing such dirty chores appeared in his mind.
“That’s enough!”
Zhen Bei Wang roared angrily, ripped the notebook to shreds and threw it in front of Shen Yu,
“How dare you settle the account with me! How dare you settle the account with me?!” Zhen Bei Wang was infuriated, he hollered saying, “It’s fine, you want to be a lowly servant, then please count everything carefully, how much I should pay you.”
In the past Shen Yu was also incredibly afraid of Zhen Bei Wang getting angry, even one frown would leave him extremely uneasy, this time he seems to not be afraid…
“A lowly servant gets 2 silvers every month, in total I would get 1.2 money… As for serving my lord, I don’t remember. I specially asked Hong Lian for this, the cheapest prostitute is paid 10 wen qian for one night. I am not good in math, it seems that I would have to bother my Lord to help do the calculations…”
10 wen qian?
Zhen Bei Wang was so angry he started to laugh: “Good, good, I have no spare change with me right now, I’ll bestow you this, is this enough?“
A giant piece of silver ingot rolled in front of Shen Yu. He carefully tucked it in the middle of his clothes in his bag.
“Once I change it into small changes, I will return the extra money to you.”
Zhen Bei Wang said darkly: “ No need for that, according to how you look, you would be worth a lot more in Qin Huai Tower. In addition, your body is tender and your waist is soft. I am very satisfied with your ability in serving men! You worked as a lowly slave and even as a sex slave, you have done much hard work! If I don’t give you more money, I will feel bad!“
Shen Yu thought that he could calmly take the insults, but hearing Zhen Bei Wang’s way of saying it, he couldn’t stop his heart from feeling the pain.
“It’s good as long as my Lord is satisfied.”
Zhen Bei Wang stood up and left, passing by Shen Yu without saying another word.
Shen Yu lost his final energy and knelt on the floor emptily, dangling his limbs, he was thinking, that night while Zhen Bei Wang and Hong Lian were having sex, did Zhen Bei Wang truly not know that he was right outside, could it be that he intentionally wanted to let him hear his words?
Whatever, it doesn’t matter anymore, what difference would it make?
If Zhen Bei Wang had been slightly reluctant and looked back, he would definitely have seen the look on Shen Yu’s face, it was the face of a person who had lost all hope
