Chapter 200: Love and Fear
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Chapter 200: Love and Fear
"You like it? I'm happy." The Chrysalis nodded to herself energetically. "I
didn't like how cold that place below was. So I wanted to make this place as
warm as possible."
"Cold, hm? That place below, if you didn't make it, do you know who did?" said
Aldrich.
"The Shadows did," said the Chrysalis. The more I built, the more they built
with me. I thought they were making fun of me."
"I see." Aldrich did not exactly know what this meant. What were the Shadows?
If they were a part of his soul from the beginning as the Chrysalis had said, then
were they just some other aspect of him? Perhaps his 'colder' side?
But then why did he lack control over it? Why was it separate to begin with?
Questions, and more questions. He would consult the Death Lord later, once he
nished whatever trial he had left in here.
Speaking of, what exactly was the trial here? Was it just to witness this room? If
so, it was something far less dramatic than what the Death Lord claimed the
experience of encountering a Boundary core for the rst time would be.
"I like it," said Aldrich. He stood up. "But I need to go."
"Go?" The Chrysalis cast her eyes downward, saddened. "Already? You don't
want to stay here? Where it's warm?"
"I do," said Aldrich. He looked around at the familiar room around him, at all
the warm memories they represented that he had lost. "But this is still the past.
I have other people out there that need me who live in the present."
"Then...then can I come with you?" The Chrysalis looked up at Aldrich with
wide, pleading eyes.
"Don't you need to stay here to maintain all this?" said Aldrich.
The Chrysalis shook her head. "No. Once I make it, you're the one that keeps it
all going."
"Alright then, I don't seen an issue with you coming with me," said Aldrich.
"Yay," said the Chrysalis. She hopped o the couch and looked at Aldrich.
"Where do we go now?"
"I was hoping you would tell me," said Aldrich. "I thought you knew a way out
of here."
"Me? No?" The Chrysalis cocked her head, clueless.
"Hm?" Aldrich raised a brow, now concerned. Was he trapped here? There must
have been a way to leave a Boundary. He had simply thought it would have been
automatic as a process. And if it was not, he thought the Death Lord would tell
him the manual way to leave.
The fact that she did not made Aldrich entertain the suspicion that she wanted
to trap him here. It was a rather low probability suspicion, but he did not
discard it.
Aldrich heard a sudden loud crackling of static from across the room.
The Chrysalis, startled, rushed to Aldrich's leg, hugging it like a pillar of
support.
A wide telescreen at the other end of the room ashed alive. At rst, there was
just pure static. From the reaction of the Chrysalis, Aldrich could tell she had
not turned it on.
The warm lights in the room ickered on and o rapidly before dimming o
completely, letting darkness take a hold of the room. And with that darkness,
an eerie chill permeated through the air. The plants in vases started to wilt. The
paintings started to chip away. The books started to crumple.
Decay started to leech in everywhere. The place started to look more and more
like the depressingly empty training ground that Aldrich had turned it into.
"No-," Aldrich reached out a hand, trying to preserve everything he saw fading
away. He could not let that happen, not again, and yet, there were too many
things to try and save.
The telescreen's static faded away, revealing a split screen. One half was an
angry red. The other half a deep, dark blue. Twin voices radiated out from each
half of the screen. From the red, his father's voice. From the blue, his mother's.
Their voices were not kind. They were not welcoming. They were not warm.
"Son...what happened to you?" said his father.
"Wh-what is all that behind you?" said his mother's horried voice.
Aldrich looked behind himself. Instead of seeing his family portrait, he instead
saw a canvas of darkness. The darkness shaped into a host of shifting faces
twisted in expressions of pain and agony. Faces he recognized. Faces he had
killed.
"My god...what have you done?" said his father. "What-what made you do
this?"
"No, no, no. You can't be our son," said his mother. "Not that sweet child who
always smiled, even when we knew you were hurting inside. You always
thought of others, just the way we taught you to. You can't be like this, like...
like a monster."
A monster.
If anyone else had called Aldrich a monster, he would not have cared. He would
even have agreed. But hearing it from his parents - the word pierced through
him. It felt like a blade jammed through his heart.
Those voices that had shown nothing but love and support, those voices he had
always looked up to - reducing him down to nothing but a monster. The sheer
horror in their voice, that sense of pure otherness, like they were talking not to
their son but something to shun and curse - it hit Aldrich harder than any blow
he had felt.
Aldrich felt nauseous, and he put a hand to the side of his head. This was not
physical nausea. It was purely mental. It reminded him of the rst year
following his parents' death, when even a small memento of them would send a
wave of nausea through his body.
"We told you that when someone is down-," said his father.
"You always pick them up," nished his mother.
"We loved you because you were like us."
"We loved you because you were kind."
"We loved you because we saw so much good in you."
"Where did that all go?
"What did you do?"
"What have you become?"
"We can't love you now."
"Monster."
Aldrich fell down to a knee as he started to breath heavy. The Chrysalis looked
at Aldrich with worry, then tentatively at the red and blue screen. She shivered,
scared at the darkness that ickered around the edges of the screen.
She gently slapped her cheeks to gain courage and stood in front of Aldrich,
opposing the screen.
"Don't say mean things to him," said the Chrysalis.
Aldrich did not hear her. He was absorbed in thought. In fear. Like with Valera,
he never feared ghting and putting his life on the line. He was never scared of
a bullet or eye beam or super strength.
What he was afraid of, always, deep down, at the very depths of his being, was
love.
Fear that he could not love another.
And fear that he did not deserve to be loved by the only people he had loved: his
parents.
He knew they would never have approved of what he had become. But he had
buried that fear because he knew he would never see them again. And yet, here
they were.
The fact that this came right after feeling so many good memories about them
made it even worse, twisting that blade in his heart with a cruel hand.
"He-he ghts hard. He gives up so much to ght. You can't say bad things to
him like that when he tries so hard," said the Chrysalis, visibly nervous but still
standing as tall as she could for Aldrich.
Those words reached Aldrich. It made him think. He had given up so much to be
where he was now. He had given up a happy life. Love and laughter. Even his
humanity. He had become a monster.
But -
"I know," said Aldrich. He stood up, the nausea leaving him. He faced the
screen of red and blue with determination in his green eyes. "I know that I'm
not what you wanted me to be. I know that if you two were actually alive, if you
saw me as I was, learned what I did, who I killed, who I tortured, you would be
horried.
I don't know how real this is, but I've also known deep within myself that you
two, if you saw me as I was now, would not be able to love me. At least, not in
the way you used to when I was a child.
When...when you were still with me."
"How can we love you now? You've become a monster."
"I know. I've always known." Aldrich nodded. "But I am my own monster. I
made these choices. I made these sacrices because I thought they were
necessary.
Were they the right choices?
You wouldn't think so. Plenty of others wouldn't."
Aldrich's esh peeled o in chunks from his arms and chest, baring his
inhuman skeleton.
"But who or what I am now is my choice and mine alone. This path I walk...is it
right? Is it wrong? I sometimes wonder myself. But it doesn't change the fact
that it's the path that I chose, and because I chose it, I will see it through to the
end."
Aldrich stared at the screen, his eyes glowing bright. His magical energy started
to return to him, swirling in an aura around him. In his mind, he remembered
all the happiness he felt from his parents, all those sweet and warm memories.
They owed into him nonstop, almost as if through external force, trying to get
him drown him down in fear and guilt. The blade in his heart twisted even
further, but none of that stopped his next words.
"And the voices of happy memories long dead won't stop me."
The telescreen cracked, the red and blue images instantly shutting o into
darkness. Then, the darkness of the screen expanded outwards, engulng the
room. The Chrysalis cringed as she held on tight to Aldrich's leg as the darkness
swallowed them both up.
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Chapter 200: Love and Fear
"You like it? I'm happy." The Chrysalis nodded to herself energetically. "I
didn't like how cold that place below was. So I wanted to make this place as
warm as possible."
"Cold, hm? That place below, if you didn't make it, do you know who did?" said
Aldrich.
"The Shadows did," said the Chrysalis. The more I built, the more they built
with me. I thought they were making fun of me."
"I see." Aldrich did not exactly know what this meant. What were the Shadows?
If they were a part of his soul from the beginning as the Chrysalis had said, then
were they just some other aspect of him? Perhaps his 'colder' side?
But then why did he lack control over it? Why was it separate to begin with?
Questions, and more questions. He would consult the Death Lord later, once he
nished whatever trial he had left in here.
Speaking of, what exactly was the trial here? Was it just to witness this room? If
so, it was something far less dramatic than what the Death Lord claimed the
experience of encountering a Boundary core for the rst time would be.
"I like it," said Aldrich. He stood up. "But I need to go."
"Go?" The Chrysalis cast her eyes downward, saddened. "Already? You don't
want to stay here? Where it's warm?"
"I do," said Aldrich. He looked around at the familiar room around him, at all
the warm memories they represented that he had lost. "But this is still the past.
I have other people out there that need me who live in the present."
"Then...then can I come with you?" The Chrysalis looked up at Aldrich with
wide, pleading eyes.
"Don't you need to stay here to maintain all this?" said Aldrich.
The Chrysalis shook her head. "No. Once I make it, you're the one that keeps it
all going."
"Alright then, I don't seen an issue with you coming with me," said Aldrich.
"Yay," said the Chrysalis. She hopped o the couch and looked at Aldrich.
"Where do we go now?"
"I was hoping you would tell me," said Aldrich. "I thought you knew a way out
of here."
"Me? No?" The Chrysalis cocked her head, clueless.
"Hm?" Aldrich raised a brow, now concerned. Was he trapped here? There must
have been a way to leave a Boundary. He had simply thought it would have been
automatic as a process. And if it was not, he thought the Death Lord would tell
him the manual way to leave.
The fact that she did not made Aldrich entertain the suspicion that she wanted
to trap him here. It was a rather low probability suspicion, but he did not
discard it.
Aldrich heard a sudden loud crackling of static from across the room.
The Chrysalis, startled, rushed to Aldrich's leg, hugging it like a pillar of
support.
A wide telescreen at the other end of the room ashed alive. At rst, there was
just pure static. From the reaction of the Chrysalis, Aldrich could tell she had
not turned it on.
The warm lights in the room ickered on and o rapidly before dimming o
completely, letting darkness take a hold of the room. And with that darkness,
an eerie chill permeated through the air. The plants in vases started to wilt. The
paintings started to chip away. The books started to crumple.
Decay started to leech in everywhere. The place started to look more and more
like the depressingly empty training ground that Aldrich had turned it into.
"No-," Aldrich reached out a hand, trying to preserve everything he saw fading
away. He could not let that happen, not again, and yet, there were too many
things to try and save.
The telescreen's static faded away, revealing a split screen. One half was an
angry red. The other half a deep, dark blue. Twin voices radiated out from each
half of the screen. From the red, his father's voice. From the blue, his mother's.
Their voices were not kind. They were not welcoming. They were not warm.
"Son...what happened to you?" said his father.
"Wh-what is all that behind you?" said his mother's horried voice.
Aldrich looked behind himself. Instead of seeing his family portrait, he instead
saw a canvas of darkness. The darkness shaped into a host of shifting faces
twisted in expressions of pain and agony. Faces he recognized. Faces he had
killed.
"My god...what have you done?" said his father. "What-what made you do
this?"
"No, no, no. You can't be our son," said his mother. "Not that sweet child who
always smiled, even when we knew you were hurting inside. You always
thought of others, just the way we taught you to. You can't be like this, like...
like a monster."
A monster.
If anyone else had called Aldrich a monster, he would not have cared. He would
even have agreed. But hearing it from his parents - the word pierced through
him. It felt like a blade jammed through his heart.
Those voices that had shown nothing but love and support, those voices he had
always looked up to - reducing him down to nothing but a monster. The sheer
horror in their voice, that sense of pure otherness, like they were talking not to
their son but something to shun and curse - it hit Aldrich harder than any blow
he had felt.
Aldrich felt nauseous, and he put a hand to the side of his head. This was not
physical nausea. It was purely mental. It reminded him of the rst year
following his parents' death, when even a small memento of them would send a
wave of nausea through his body.
"We told you that when someone is down-," said his father.
"You always pick them up," nished his mother.
"We loved you because you were like us."
"We loved you because you were kind."
"We loved you because we saw so much good in you."
"Where did that all go?
"What did you do?"
"What have you become?"
"We can't love you now."
"Monster."
Aldrich fell down to a knee as he started to breath heavy. The Chrysalis looked
at Aldrich with worry, then tentatively at the red and blue screen. She shivered,
scared at the darkness that ickered around the edges of the screen.
She gently slapped her cheeks to gain courage and stood in front of Aldrich,
opposing the screen.
"Don't say mean things to him," said the Chrysalis.
Aldrich did not hear her. He was absorbed in thought. In fear. Like with Valera,
he never feared ghting and putting his life on the line. He was never scared of
a bullet or eye beam or super strength.
What he was afraid of, always, deep down, at the very depths of his being, was
love.
Fear that he could not love another.
And fear that he did not deserve to be loved by the only people he had loved: his
parents.
He knew they would never have approved of what he had become. But he had
buried that fear because he knew he would never see them again. And yet, here
they were.
The fact that this came right after feeling so many good memories about them
made it even worse, twisting that blade in his heart with a cruel hand.
"He-he ghts hard. He gives up so much to ght. You can't say bad things to
him like that when he tries so hard," said the Chrysalis, visibly nervous but still
standing as tall as she could for Aldrich.
Those words reached Aldrich. It made him think. He had given up so much to be
where he was now. He had given up a happy life. Love and laughter. Even his
humanity. He had become a monster.
But -
"I know," said Aldrich. He stood up, the nausea leaving him. He faced the
screen of red and blue with determination in his green eyes. "I know that I'm
not what you wanted me to be. I know that if you two were actually alive, if you
saw me as I was, learned what I did, who I killed, who I tortured, you would be
horried.
I don't know how real this is, but I've also known deep within myself that you
two, if you saw me as I was now, would not be able to love me. At least, not in
the way you used to when I was a child.
When...when you were still with me."
"How can we love you now? You've become a monster."
"I know. I've always known." Aldrich nodded. "But I am my own monster. I
made these choices. I made these sacrices because I thought they were
necessary.
Were they the right choices?
You wouldn't think so. Plenty of others wouldn't."
Aldrich's esh peeled o in chunks from his arms and chest, baring his
inhuman skeleton.
"But who or what I am now is my choice and mine alone. This path I walk...is it
right? Is it wrong? I sometimes wonder myself. But it doesn't change the fact
that it's the path that I chose, and because I chose it, I will see it through to the
end."
Aldrich stared at the screen, his eyes glowing bright. His magical energy started
to return to him, swirling in an aura around him. In his mind, he remembered
all the happiness he felt from his parents, all those sweet and warm memories.
They owed into him nonstop, almost as if through external force, trying to get
him drown him down in fear and guilt. The blade in his heart twisted even
further, but none of that stopped his next words.
"And the voices of happy memories long dead won't stop me."
The telescreen cracked, the red and blue images instantly shutting o into
darkness. Then, the darkness of the screen expanded outwards, engulng the
room. The Chrysalis cringed as she held on tight to Aldrich's leg as the darkness
swallowed them both up.
Chapter 200: Love and Fear "You like it? I'm happy." The Chrysalis nodded to herself energetically. "Ididn't like how cold that place below was. So I wanted to make this place aswarm as possible.""Cold, hm? That place below, if you didn't make it, do you know who did?" saidAldrich."The Shadows did," said the Chrysalis. The more I built, the more they builtwith me. I thought they were making fun of me.""I see." Aldrich did not exactly know what this meant. What were the Shadows?If they were a part of his soul from the beginning as the Chrysalis had said, thenwere they just some other aspect of him? Perhaps his 'colder' side?But then why did he lack control over it? Why was it separate to begin with?Questions, and more questions. He would consult the Death Lord later, once henished whatever trial he had left in here.Speaking of, what exactly was the trial here? Was it just to witness this room? Ifso, it was something far less dramatic than what the Death Lord claimed theexperience of encountering a Boundary core for the rst time would be."I like it," said Aldrich. He stood up. "But I need to go.""Go?" The Chrysalis cast her eyes downward, saddened. "Already? You don'twant to stay here? Where it's warm?""I do," said Aldrich. He looked around at the familiar room around him, at allthe warm memories they represented that he had lost. "But this is still the past.I have other people out there that need me who live in the present.""Then...then can I come with you?" The Chrysalis looked up at Aldrich withwide, pleading eyes."Don't you need to stay here to maintain all this?" said Aldrich.The Chrysalis shook her head. "No. Once I make it, you're the one that keeps itall going.""Alright then, I don't seen an issue with you coming with me," said Aldrich."Yay," said the Chrysalis. She hopped o the couch and looked at Aldrich."Where do we go now?""I was hoping you would tell me," said Aldrich. "I thought you knew a way outof here.""Me? No?" The Chrysalis cocked her head, clueless."Hm?" Aldrich raised a brow, now concerned. Was he trapped here? There musthave been a way to leave a Boundary. He had simply thought it would have beenautomatic as a process. And if it was not, he thought the Death Lord would tellhim the manual way to leave.The fact that she did not made Aldrich entertain the suspicion that she wantedto trap him here. It was a rather low probability suspicion, but he did notdiscard it.Aldrich heard a sudden loud crackling of static from across the room.The Chrysalis, startled, rushed to Aldrich's leg, hugging it like a pillar ofsupport.A wide telescreen at the other end of the room ashed alive. At rst, there wasjust pure static. From the reaction of the Chrysalis, Aldrich could tell she hadnot turned it on.The warm lights in the room ickered on and o rapidly before dimming ocompletely, letting darkness take a hold of the room. And with that darkness,an eerie chill permeated through the air. The plants in vases started to wilt. Thepaintings started to chip away. The books started to crumple.Decay started to leech in everywhere. The place started to look more and morelike the depressingly empty training ground that Aldrich had turned it into."No-," Aldrich reached out a hand, trying to preserve everything he saw fadingaway. He could not let that happen, not again, and yet, there were too manythings to try and save.The telescreen's static faded away, revealing a split screen. One half was anangry red. The other half a deep, dark blue. Twin voices radiated out from eachhalf of the screen. From the red, his father's voice. From the blue, his mother's.Their voices were not kind. They were not welcoming. They were not warm."Son...what happened to you?" said his father."Wh-what is all that behind you?" said his mother's horried voice.Aldrich looked behind himself. Instead of seeing his family portrait, he insteadsaw a canvas of darkness. The darkness shaped into a host of shifting facestwisted in expressions of pain and agony. Faces he recognized. Faces he hadkilled."My god...what have you done?" said his father. "What-what made you dothis?""No, no, no. You can't be our son," said his mother. "Not that sweet child whoalways smiled, even when we knew you were hurting inside. You alwaysthought of others, just the way we taught you to. You can't be like this, like...like a monster."A monster.If anyone else had called Aldrich a monster, he would not have cared. He wouldeven have agreed. But hearing it from his parents - the word pierced throughhim. It felt like a blade jammed through his heart.Those voices that had shown nothing but love and support, those voices he hadalways looked up to - reducing him down to nothing but a monster. The sheerhorror in their voice, that sense of pure otherness, like they were talking not totheir son but something to shun and curse - it hit Aldrich harder than any blowhe had felt.Aldrich felt nauseous, and he put a hand to the side of his head. This was notphysical nausea. It was purely mental. It reminded him of the rst yearfollowing his parents' death, when even a small memento of them would send awave of nausea through his body."We told you that when someone is down-," said his father."You always pick them up," nished his mother."We loved you because you were like us.""We loved you because you were kind.""We loved you because we saw so much good in you.""Where did that all go?"What did you do?""What have you become?""We can't love you now.""Monster."Aldrich fell down to a knee as he started to breath heavy. The Chrysalis lookedat Aldrich with worry, then tentatively at the red and blue screen. She shivered,scared at the darkness that ickered around the edges of the screen.She gently slapped her cheeks to gain courage and stood in front of Aldrich,opposing the screen."Don't say mean things to him," said the Chrysalis.Aldrich did not hear her. He was absorbed in thought. In fear. Like with Valera,he never feared ghting and putting his life on the line. He was never scared ofa bullet or eye beam or super strength.What he was afraid of, always, deep down, at the very depths of his being, waslove.Fear that he could not love another.And fear that he did not deserve to be loved by the only people he had loved: hisparents.He knew they would never have approved of what he had become. But he hadburied that fear because he knew he would never see them again. And yet, herethey were.The fact that this came right after feeling so many good memories about themmade it even worse, twisting that blade in his heart with a cruel hand."He-he ghts hard. He gives up so much to ght. You can't say bad things tohim like that when he tries so hard," said the Chrysalis, visibly nervous but stillstanding as tall as she could for Aldrich.Those words reached Aldrich. It made him think. He had given up so much to bewhere he was now. He had given up a happy life. Love and laughter. Even hishumanity. He had become a monster.But -"I know," said Aldrich. He stood up, the nausea leaving him. He faced thescreen of red and blue with determination in his green eyes. "I know that I'mnot what you wanted me to be. I know that if you two were actually alive, if yousaw me as I was, learned what I did, who I killed, who I tortured, you would behorried.I don't know how real this is, but I've also known deep within myself that youtwo, if you saw me as I was now, would not be able to love me. At least, not inthe way you used to when I was a child.When...when you were still with me.""How can we love you now? You've become a monster.""I know. I've always known." Aldrich nodded. "But I am my own monster. Imade these choices. I made these sacrices because I thought they werenecessary.Were they the right choices?You wouldn't think so. Plenty of others wouldn't."Aldrich's esh peeled o in chunks from his arms and chest, baring hisinhuman skeleton."But who or what I am now is my choice and mine alone. This path I walk...is itright? Is it wrong? I sometimes wonder myself. But it doesn't change the factthat it's the path that I chose, and because I chose it, I will see it through to theend."Aldrich stared at the screen, his eyes glowing bright. His magical energy startedto return to him, swirling in an aura around him. In his mind, he rememberedall the happiness he felt from his parents, all those sweet and warm memories.They owed into him nonstop, almost as if through external force, trying to gethim drown him down in fear and guilt. The blade in his heart twisted evenfurther, but none of that stopped his next words."And the voices of happy memories long dead won't stop me."The telescreen cracked, the red and blue images instantly shutting o intodarkness. Then, the darkness of the screen expanded outwards, engulng theroom. The Chrysalis cringed as she held on tight to Aldrich's leg as the darknessswallowed them both up.
