LUO YAN shook his head and decided not to think of that for the time being. He answered Shen Ji Yun's question instead.
"Don't worry, I don't think he would go around and tell everyone about us."
"How can you be so sure?"
Luo Yan scratched his cheek. Should he say that it's because Huang Wen apparently liked him that way so he probably wouldn't do anything that would inadvertently hurt Luo Yan's reputation? No, if he told that to Shen Ji Yun, this guy would definitely have more reason to deal with Huang Wen.
Besides, that wasn't the only reason why he believed that Huang Wen wouldn't tattle what he saw and heard today to just anyone. Even though the both of them started in a bad note, the other wasn't really a bad person. Just a teenager who didn't know how to handle his own emotions.
That last 'sorry' was enough evidence that he didn't mean what he said about them.
"He's not a bad kid. Maybe just a bit misunderstood, but definitely not a lost cause."
Shen Ji Yun frowned when he heard that. He didn't like that Luo Yan was defending that guy. It almost felt like he knew something about the other and he didn't want to tell it to him.
"The nonsense he was spouting earlier, I don't think that was just simple misunderstanding."
"I assure you, he probably didn't even mean any of it."
The other probably didn't even know what he's saying when he said those things. – Luo Yan thought. Huang Wen was most likely overcome with emotions that he just said whatever that came to his mind without thinking twice.
Shen Ji Yun crossed his arms and the frowned on his face became even deeper. "Why does it feel like you're defending that guy?"
Seeing Shen Ji Yun's sudden sullen expression, Luo Yan wanted to laugh for no reason. How could he not when the other was being too cute?
He hugged Shen Ji Yun's waist. "Are you eating vinegar again? Don't worry, in my eyes and in my heart, there's only Brother Ji Yun. So, don't be angry, hmm?"
Shen Ji Yun gazed down at him and then reluctantly said, "Fine."
"Shall we finish our tour of the island?" Luo Yan quickly changed the subject before the other mentioned Huang Wen again. "We only have about two hours left before the island closed for this year. Let's not waste time and go make more precious memories. What do you say?"
Those words seemed to have calmed Shen Ji Yun because a small helpless smile finally crossed his lips. "Okay, let's go."
Luo Yan hugged the other's arm and they both started walking back to the direction where their sled was parked. As they walked, he decided to talk to Huang Wen tomorrow at school. Not just about the things that transpired here but also to end whatever feelings that other might have had for him before it could turn into something much deeper.
When he thought of that, he also couldn't help but think of Ying Chen.
He knew that the other had feelings for Huang Wen. So, he must have been really hurt hearing him say all those things earlier. But the one that probably hurt most was knowing the fact that the person he liked was interested in someone else.
The expression he showed earlier, it was obvious that he had also noticed that Huang Wen harbored some kind of crush for Luo Yan. That must have been really painful. If Luo Yan was in his shoes, he might have already punched Huang Wen a thousand times just for being that oblivious.
He couldn't help but be thankful that he and Shen Ji Yun weren't in the same situation. Just imagining it could actually easily bring him to tears.
Anyway, should he help Ying Chen?
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Ying Chen removed the VR helmet and almost threw it on the floor. It's a good thing that he quickly came back to his senses and managed to stop himself. He put the VR helmet on the table before he changed his mind and used it to ease the anger he's feeling.
He burrowed his face on his pillow. No, more than anger, the sadness prevailed more. To see Huang Wen acting like that because of another person, it felt like hundreds of knives were stabbing his heart all at the same time.
He wanted to shout, 'why him and not me?'. He wanted to rush up to Huang Wen and ask him why he couldn't see the love that he's harboring? Was it because his blind? Or was it simply because he was never in his radar to begin with?
Either way, the pain Ying Chen felt would still be the same. Because it would all just come down to the simple fact that Huang Wen had never liked him in that way. And probably never would.
It was something he knew from long before. He just simply refused to accept it. From the moment that he realized his feelings for Huang Wen, he decided that he would do everything to make the other fall for him. That he would fight for his feelings for him. Which was crazy. Because there was a tall mountain that firmly separated the two of them – their gender.
Ying Chen could show how much he liked Huang Wen. But at the end, it would be for nothing as long as the other never considered a boy as a love interest. Still, he did not give up and persisted. Because he firmly believed that, with his dedication, Huang Wen would also look his way one day.
But before that day could even come, someone appeared who did what he couldn't do for five years.
And that hurt like hell.
Ying Chen felt the tears that he had been suppressing started to fall down his cheeks. His little sobs slowly turned into a loud cry. He wanted to pour out all the pain and sadness he's feeling. But it felt like it wouldn't be enough even if he cried a river.
[Should I just give up?]
LUO YAN shook his head and decided not to think of that for the time being. He answered Shen Ji Yun's question instead.
"Don't worry, I don't think he would go around and tell everyone about us."
"How can you be so sure?"
Luo Yan scratched his cheek. Should he say that it's because Huang Wen apparently liked him that way so he probably wouldn't do anything that would inadvertently hurt Luo Yan's reputation? No, if he told that to Shen Ji Yun, this guy would definitely have more reason to deal with Huang Wen.
Besides, that wasn't the only reason why he believed that Huang Wen wouldn't tattle what he saw and heard today to just anyone. Even though the both of them started in a bad note, the other wasn't really a bad person. Just a teenager who didn't know how to handle his own emotions.
That last 'sorry' was enough evidence that he didn't mean what he said about them.
"He's not a bad kid. Maybe just a bit misunderstood, but definitely not a lost cause."
Shen Ji Yun frowned when he heard that. He didn't like that Luo Yan was defending that guy. It almost felt like he knew something about the other and he didn't want to tell it to him.
"The nonsense he was spouting earlier, I don't think that was just simple misunderstanding."
"I assure you, he probably didn't even mean any of it."
The other probably didn't even know what he's saying when he said those things. – Luo Yan thought. Huang Wen was most likely overcome with emotions that he just said whatever that came to his mind without thinking twice.
Shen Ji Yun crossed his arms and the frowned on his face became even deeper. "Why does it feel like you're defending that guy?"
Seeing Shen Ji Yun's sudden sullen expression, Luo Yan wanted to laugh for no reason. How could he not when the other was being too cute?
He hugged Shen Ji Yun's waist. "Are you eating vinegar again? Don't worry, in my eyes and in my heart, there's only Brother Ji Yun. So, don't be angry, hmm?"
Shen Ji Yun gazed down at him and then reluctantly said, "Fine."
"Shall we finish our tour of the island?" Luo Yan quickly changed the subject before the other mentioned Huang Wen again. "We only have about two hours left before the island closed for this year. Let's not waste time and go make more precious memories. What do you say?"
Those words seemed to have calmed Shen Ji Yun because a small helpless smile finally crossed his lips. "Okay, let's go."
Luo Yan hugged the other's arm and they both started walking back to the direction where their sled was parked. As they walked, he decided to talk to Huang Wen tomorrow at school. Not just about the things that transpired here but also to end whatever feelings that other might have had for him before it could turn into something much deeper.
When he thought of that, he also couldn't help but think of Ying Chen.
He knew that the other had feelings for Huang Wen. So, he must have been really hurt hearing him say all those things earlier. But the one that probably hurt most was knowing the fact that the person he liked was interested in someone else.
The expression he showed earlier, it was obvious that he had also noticed that Huang Wen harbored some kind of crush for Luo Yan. That must have been really painful. If Luo Yan was in his shoes, he might have already punched Huang Wen a thousand times just for being that oblivious.
He couldn't help but be thankful that he and Shen Ji Yun weren't in the same situation. Just imagining it could actually easily bring him to tears.
Anyway, should he help Ying Chen?
----------
Ying Chen removed the VR helmet and almost threw it on the floor. It's a good thing that he quickly came back to his senses and managed to stop himself. He put the VR helmet on the table before he changed his mind and used it to ease the anger he's feeling.
He burrowed his face on his pillow. No, more than anger, the sadness prevailed more. To see Huang Wen acting like that because of another person, it felt like hundreds of knives were stabbing his heart all at the same time.
He wanted to shout, 'why him and not me?'. He wanted to rush up to Huang Wen and ask him why he couldn't see the love that he's harboring? Was it because his blind? Or was it simply because he was never in his radar to begin with?
Either way, the pain Ying Chen felt would still be the same. Because it would all just come down to the simple fact that Huang Wen had never liked him in that way. And probably never would.
It was something he knew from long before. He just simply refused to accept it. From the moment that he realized his feelings for Huang Wen, he decided that he would do everything to make the other fall for him. That he would fight for his feelings for him. Which was crazy. Because there was a tall mountain that firmly separated the two of them – their gender.
Ying Chen could show how much he liked Huang Wen. But at the end, it would be for nothing as long as the other never considered a boy as a love interest. Still, he did not give up and persisted. Because he firmly believed that, with his dedication, Huang Wen would also look his way one day.
But before that day could even come, someone appeared who did what he couldn't do for five years.
And that hurt like hell.
Ying Chen felt the tears that he had been suppressing started to fall down his cheeks. His little sobs slowly turned into a loud cry. He wanted to pour out all the pain and sadness he's feeling. But it felt like it wouldn't be enough even if he cried a river.
[Should I just give up?]
