Chapter 68
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Her daughter's words rang in Lu Zhiqiao's ears like a thunderbolt. She froze suddenly, her slender eyelashes trembled, and her face changed drastically. She subconsciously blurted out: "How do you know?"
After finishing speaking, she suddenly realized that this was tantamount to a disguised admission. She regretted deeply, and wished she could bite her own tongue.
How are they in a relationship?
It's just that--
It's just ambiguous.
Tonight, she decided to establish a relationship with Qi Yan, but she didn't expect her daughter to give her a blow to the head, blowing away the courage she had worked up so hard. Before she could welcome the sweet joy, she was forced to face the cruel reality.
"It's obvious" Lu Wei murmured, seeing her mother's complexion, she shrank her neck and muttered softly, "You and Teacher Qi are like the hero and heroine of a TV series..."
Lu Zhiqiao frowned,and avoided her daughter's gaze with a guilty heart.
Looking back on the moments she spent with Qi Yan, she was extremely cautious and avoided her daughter as much as possible. Even if she couldn't avoid her, there would be no excessive intimacy. How can a child aged twelve or thirteen understand same-sex love? She will only think that her mother and teacher have a good relationship, right? She thought so.
For tonight, she did a whole week of mental work for herself, listing all possible situations and thinking of countermeasures, but she didn't expect her daughter to do this to her. Of course, she has thought about how to explain to her daughter. The best way is to wait until the child is older, while Qi Yan and her will maintain a "friendship" status in front of the child. It's just that she didn't expect the child to know about it long ago, and she didn't give her the slightest chance to prepare.
Obviously, she underestimated the precocity of her daughter.
What to do?
What will her child think of her? Will she think her mom is a pervert? Not only perverted but also has no bottom line, getting together with her teacher? Has her image in her daughter's mind been completely ruined?
Lu Zhiqiao's face turned pale, her fingers clenched her nightgown tightly, and her mind turned in a mess.
She suddenly remembered her daughter's reading adult comics. At that time, she was very worried that her child's early exposure to homosexual works would inevitably lead to imaginative thinking, and one day she would associate it with her and Qi Yan. It was because she was too confident, thinking that she would always keep a certain distance from Qi Yan, and she depended on her luck.
Her daughter said that she and Qi Yan are like the characters in a TV series, which means that there is no conclusive evidence, as long as she bites her tongue and refuse to admit it...
So tonight is a travesty.
Lu Zhiqiao raised her eyelids, and her gaze fell on the three-tiered cake—the candles hadn't been lit, the gifts hadn't been delivered yet, and it was too late to express her heart.
Not admitting it is tantamount to giving up Qi Yan.
Lu Zhiqiao's eyes turned red, she lowered her head, her nails pinched her palms, her nightgown was crumpled. She blinked, forcing back the tears, and made a choice at that moment.
"Girl... " She raised her head, her complexion returned to normal, and took her daughter's hand and said with a smile.
Listen to mom, it's not what you think. Teacher Qi and I are both women, how could we possibly fall in love? You're young and you should watch fewer love TV dramas.
Every word spoken was like a knife, which pierced into her heart, twitching and hurting.
As cowardly as she is, she is not worthy of Qi Yan, and she is just dazzled by the momentary joy, forgetting that she cannot enjoy the life of ordinary people. The reality slapped her hard on the face.
Lu Wei stared at her mother's face and said nonchalantly, "But I've been watching you for a long time, and it's obviously a relationship."
Lu Zhiqiao was stunned.
"And Teacher Qi is so kind to you. If you don't admit it now, you're like the scumbag in the TV series. You've abandoned her. She will be heartbroken when she finds out." The little girl said seriously.
That's strange.
Mom didn't admit it?
The two of them had a passionate kiss that night, so it couldn't be because of her sleepwalking and dizziness, right? She wouldn't be that close with her best friend. The world of adults is really confusing. If you are in love, you are in love. There is nothing to hide.Teacher Qi is not a bad person.
Although she felt a little awkward when she first found out, compared to her father whom she had never met, Teacher Qi who was right in front of her is obviously better. Teacher Qi is beautiful, gentle and considerate, and loves her, gives her a little favor, helps her cover up. Other students in the class are not treated like this. Mom doesn't want Teacher Qi, but she wants her.
Lu Zhiqiao panicked when her daughter pointed out her thoughts, and lightly reprimanded: "Don't talk nonsense!"
"I'm not talking nonsense." Lu Wei pouted, "Why didn't you tell me..."
The well-behaved and obedient child suddenly became difficult to fool. Lu Zhiqiao was in chaos. Seeing that the situation was out of control, she was a little annoyed, and shouted: "Go back to sleep."
"No, I want cake."
"Go back!"
She straightened her face, with anger in her eyes, the little girl was terrified, felt aggrieved, curled her lips, took off the paper crown, threw it away, put on her shoes and left sullenly.
As the door closed, the music had just finished playing, and the clear piano sound in the speakers stopped abruptly, and the room became eerily quiet.
Lu Zhiqiao slumped on the sofa and closed her eyes.
What her daughter said was right, she chose to abandon Qi Yan, she was not only cowardly, but also scum. In terms of emotional matters, she has no choice but to be led by the nose. At this moment, she is like a small boat in the vast ocean, alone and helpless.
It would be great if Qi Yan was here.
The person she "abandoned" is also the person she most wants to see now.
Near 8:30, the sound of the elevator door opening came from the corridor, Lu Zhiqiao sat up suddenly, and turned to look at the door. A few seconds later, the door opened, and Qi Yan's slender figure stepped into the room.
The room was filled with soft light, and the huge living room was decorated like a dreamy secret place. The golden words "happy birthday" came into view. Qi Yan paused at the door, and her first reaction was that she had gone to the wrong house. She lowered her head and looked at the key in her hand then at the door.
It's 902, her home, that's right.
How...
Qi Yan was stunned for two seconds, then her gaze turned and saw Lu Zhiqiao sitting on the sofa in her nightgown. Before she could be pleasantly surprised, she was startled by those red eyes and quickly took off her shoes and ran barefoot. "What's the matter?"
She hugged Lu Zhiqiao, feeling silky and soft in her arms.
Smelling the familiar scent of shampoo, as if grabbing a life-saving rope, Lu Zhiqiao sniffed lightly, collapsed, wrapped her arms tightly around Qi Yan's neck, and buried her face in her hair.
"... Niu Niu knows about our relationship." Her voice choked up a little.
Her nightgown was just past her knees, and when she raised her arm, the hem of the clothes also lifted and climbed up, uncovering the secrets underneath.
Qi Yan stared at it, swallowed, and suddenly came back to her senses, "We...what relationship?"
"She said we were in a relationship."
Lu Zhiqiao moved her arms subconsciously, but the hem of her clothes climbed up a little bit. The scenery was faintly visible, making someone daydream. But Qi Yan no longer had the desire to spy. As if she was struck by lightning, and said in a daze, "How could Niu Niu know?"
The first thing she thought of was the night at the Songshan Hotel. Could it be that when she was in Lu Zhiqiao's bed in the middle of the night, Niu Niu saw them?
Thinking about it, their contact was cautious and careful, completely avoiding the child. The only time they were seen hugging each other on the sofa has already passed more than half a year. If the child found out then, she should have said it long ago.
How can that be possible?
She thought of the manhua. Judging from her experience, most of the people who read BL manhuas are straight girls and they don't read Lily at all, let alone associate them to people around them.
Qi Yan was a little flustered.
She was more worried about Lu Zhiqiao's negative reaction than her daughter knowing about the relationship between the two of them. They have come step by step, they have gone through so much, and faced life and death difficulties head on. There is finally a glimmer of hope that the clouds will open and the moon will shine. She is not willing to be killed like this.
She knows how much Qiao Qiao cares about her daughter.
"Niu Niu said that she has observed us for a long time, and she said that we are like the hero and heroine in the TV series..." Lu Zhiqiao sobbed in a low voice, repeating what her daughter said just now.
The more she recalled, the more chaotic her heart became and the more hopeless she felt.
There is also a little guilt.
Although Qi Yan was worried, she was still calm, thinking quickly in her mind, and asked, "What's Niu Niu's reaction when she said that? Her expression?"
Lu Zhiqiao paused: "No reaction, no expression, it's like...not strange at all." After speaking, she pulled away from Qi Yan's arms and grabbed the woman's hand, "What should I do? How can I explain this to the child?"
"It's okay, Qiao Qiao. Listen to me, Niu Niu's lack of reaction indicates that the situation is not as serious as you think. Don't panic, let's face it together, and honestly explain it to the child, she—"
"No way!" Lu Zhiqiao interrupted, shaking her head like a rattle, "You can't confess to Niu Niu, it will bring her bad. She is still young and doesn't understand these things at all. What if she thinks it's new and fun, and learns from us? Qi Yan, let's separate for a while..."
She grabbed Qi Yan's arm, her black eyes showed fear, as if there was an invisible hand behind her, dragging her back into the abyss.
"Bring bad?" Qi Yan looked at her own face in her eyes, and it became cold little by little, dark and gloomy.
"Do you think liking the same sex is 'bad'?"
The last sentence chilled her heart even more.
Although she knew how much Lu Zhiqiao cared about her daughter and was mentally prepared, she didn't expect Lu Zhiqiao to speak so simply and without thinking. A light sentence of "bringing bad" and "separating" wipes out all the affection between two people.
"Besides, what separation? Have we ever been together?" Qi Yan twitched the corner of her mouth.
Lu Zhiqiao choked on her throat, and a dense pain spread in her heart. She slowly loosened Qi Yan's arm, moved to the side, lowered her head, and casually pulled her nightgown to cover her knees, without saying a word.
The romantic melody flows from the speaker, the piano sound is clear and full, and the music is melodious.
The wind blows in from outside the window, and the meteor bead curtain on the ceiling sways and collides gently, reflecting the soft and warm light, and making a sound like a silver bell. Lu Zhiqiao sat motionless, with her hanging hair covering her profile, looking lonely and aloof.
A tear pattered down and splashed onto the nightgown, very light, and the transparent water stain slowly fainted and spread.
Tonight's plan cannot be put into action by any means. They have not yet established a relationship and they were already seen through by their daughter. If it is established and there is substantial development, it is unclear what the child will think.
Qi Yan watched from the side, her half-cold heart pricked with pain. She couldn't bear it in the end, she moved over and hugged her gently, "Qiao Qiao... I know what you are worried about, but things are still very vague now. Don’t scare yourself. If it’s not convenient for you to talk about it, I’ll go talk to Niu Niu, ask her what she thinks, and explain to her.”
"Don't look for Niu Niu." Lu Zhiqiao sniffed, tears rolled down, "Let her forget about this, as long as I insist on denying it, she won't think too much about it."
"Why deny it? Escaping won't solve the problem, be brave, can't we face it together?" Qi Yan frowned, reaching out to wipe away her tears, but the more she wipes, the more tears flow.
"You keep saying you trust me, but now you are really in trouble, do you really trust me?"
Lu Zhiqiao raised her head, and panic flashed in her red and teary eyes, "It's not that I don't trust you, I just don't trust myself..."
Qi Yan interrupted: "Is there any difference? This is the matter of the two of us, not of either party."
Lu Zhiqiao pursed her lips.
The hand on her lap was gently wrapped by the other hand.
"Trust me." Qi Yan leaned over, pressed her thin lips against her eyes and lightly kissed away her tears.
The hot and humid liquid tasted salty and astringent, and it stopped dripping after being kissed. Qi Yan's lips rested on the tear mole, sucking wantonly.
Lu Zhiqiao closed her eyes, let out a muffled sob, and nestled softly into Qi Yan's arms, but her chaotic mood was still not calm, and there were no other thoughts in her mind. She took the initiative to hook Qi Yan's neck, "Are you done?"
"Mm."
"...Happy Birthday," she whispered.
Qi Yan paused, the warmth of her lips left in an instant, looked at her, then turned to look at the living room, with surprise in her eyes, "So you are—"
Is this what I think it is?
Happy birthday?
Lu Zhiqiao brushed her hair, looked down at her hands, "Isn't today your birthday?"
"Yes, but how did you know?" Qi Yan could hardly hide the joy on her face, a smile overflowed from the corner of her mouth. Her half-cold heart warmed up again, beating faster and faster.
"That time you sent a courier, I was by the side and saw your ID card."
"..."
Qi Yan's smile froze on her lips.
She thought that Qiao Qiao didn't know her birthday and there was no need to celebrate, so she just focused on her work. She worked overtime today with a nonchalant mindset, thinking that she had already reported to Qiao Qiao and would be back late. However, she didn't expect Qiao Qiao to prepare such a big surprise for her.
And a fright.
If she had come back earlier, she would have had more time to enjoy the surprises, more time to deal with sudden shocks.
Intense regret rose from the bottom of her heart. She had never longed for the world to have a regret pill, wanting to turn back time and start again today.
Why didn't you tell me earlier,I..I thought you didn't know... " Qi Yan smiled and complained, her eyes slightly wet and her words incoherent.
Lu Zhiqiao raised her eyebrows and the black tear mole became lively, "I want to give you a surprise, if I told you about it, there won't be any surprises."
Qi Yan stretched out her hand and scratched her nose, "I almost died from shock."
Lu Zhiqiao tilted her head, with embarrassment flashing across her eyes, she buried her head on Qi Yan's shoulder. The hem of her nightgown climbed up, she pulled it subconsciously, and suddenly thought of the gift she had prepared, so she hurriedly got up again, picked up the box next to the cake and handed it to Qi Yan.
"For you."
"Can I open it now?" Qi Yan raised her brows, saw her nodding, and carefully tore off the wrapping paper.
It's a pair of black bluetooth headphones.
Her eyes widened, and her mouth shrunk into a circle, and then she looked up in surprise: "How did you know I wanted to buy this?"
Lu Zhiqiao smiled shyly, blushing on her cheeks, and whispered, "Last time at the gym, you said that your earphones were uncomfortable, and you wanted to change it, so I bought it, as a birthday present for you."
Qi Yan's heart trembled, and she squeezed the box tightly.
She remembers.
That day, she just casually said that her old earphones are well used but not broken, as long as they are not hung around her neck while running, it isn't a big deal. She planned to change them but not sooner. Who knew that what she said in passing was remembered by Lu Zhiqiao.
Qi Yan blinked, tilted her head and kissed the corner of her mouth, "I like it very much."
Lu Zhiqiao's ears turned slightly hot, and she closed her eyes. Thinking of the other gift, she couldn't help but raise her hand and grab the collar of her nightgown.
Should she still push through with it?
"Qi Yan..."
"Mm?"
"Actually—" her lips moved slightly, "There is another gift."
Qi Yan raised her head with a smile: "What?"
Author's Note:
Pull the lights*, huh? (Don't be too happy too soon.jpg
*turn on/off the lights, in Chinese internet lingo it means, skipping erotic scenes
Please report us if you find any errors so we can fix it asap!
Her daughter's words rang in Lu Zhiqiao's ears like a thunderbolt. She froze suddenly, her slender eyelashes trembled, and her face changed drastically. She subconsciously blurted out: "How do you know?"
After finishing speaking, she suddenly realized that this was tantamount to a disguised admission. She regretted deeply, and wished she could bite her own tongue.
How are they in a relationship?
It's just that--
It's just ambiguous.
Tonight, she decided to establish a relationship with Qi Yan, but she didn't expect her daughter to give her a blow to the head, blowing away the courage she had worked up so hard. Before she could welcome the sweet joy, she was forced to face the cruel reality.
"It's obvious" Lu Wei murmured, seeing her mother's complexion, she shrank her neck and muttered softly, "You and Teacher Qi are like the hero and heroine of a TV series..."
Lu Zhiqiao frowned,and avoided her daughter's gaze with a guilty heart.
Looking back on the moments she spent with Qi Yan, she was extremely cautious and avoided her daughter as much as possible. Even if she couldn't avoid her, there would be no excessive intimacy. How can a child aged twelve or thirteen understand same-sex love? She will only think that her mother and teacher have a good relationship, right? She thought so.
For tonight, she did a whole week of mental work for herself, listing all possible situations and thinking of countermeasures, but she didn't expect her daughter to do this to her. Of course, she has thought about how to explain to her daughter. The best way is to wait until the child is older, while Qi Yan and her will maintain a "friendship" status in front of the child. It's just that she didn't expect the child to know about it long ago, and she didn't give her the slightest chance to prepare.
Obviously, she underestimated the precocity of her daughter.
What to do?
What will her child think of her? Will she think her mom is a pervert? Not only perverted but also has no bottom line, getting together with her teacher? Has her image in her daughter's mind been completely ruined?
Lu Zhiqiao's face turned pale, her fingers clenched her nightgown tightly, and her mind turned in a mess.
She suddenly remembered her daughter's reading adult comics. At that time, she was very worried that her child's early exposure to homosexual works would inevitably lead to imaginative thinking, and one day she would associate it with her and Qi Yan. It was because she was too confident, thinking that she would always keep a certain distance from Qi Yan, and she depended on her luck.
Her daughter said that she and Qi Yan are like the characters in a TV series, which means that there is no conclusive evidence, as long as she bites her tongue and refuse to admit it...
So tonight is a travesty.
Lu Zhiqiao raised her eyelids, and her gaze fell on the three-tiered cake—the candles hadn't been lit, the gifts hadn't been delivered yet, and it was too late to express her heart.
Not admitting it is tantamount to giving up Qi Yan.
Lu Zhiqiao's eyes turned red, she lowered her head, her nails pinched her palms, her nightgown was crumpled. She blinked, forcing back the tears, and made a choice at that moment.
"Girl... " She raised her head, her complexion returned to normal, and took her daughter's hand and said with a smile.
Listen to mom, it's not what you think. Teacher Qi and I are both women, how could we possibly fall in love? You're young and you should watch fewer love TV dramas.
Every word spoken was like a knife, which pierced into her heart, twitching and hurting.
As cowardly as she is, she is not worthy of Qi Yan, and she is just dazzled by the momentary joy, forgetting that she cannot enjoy the life of ordinary people. The reality slapped her hard on the face.
Lu Wei stared at her mother's face and said nonchalantly, "But I've been watching you for a long time, and it's obviously a relationship."
Lu Zhiqiao was stunned.
"And Teacher Qi is so kind to you. If you don't admit it now, you're like the scumbag in the TV series. You've abandoned her. She will be heartbroken when she finds out." The little girl said seriously.
That's strange.
Mom didn't admit it?
The two of them had a passionate kiss that night, so it couldn't be because of her sleepwalking and dizziness, right? She wouldn't be that close with her best friend. The world of adults is really confusing. If you are in love, you are in love. There is nothing to hide.Teacher Qi is not a bad person.
Although she felt a little awkward when she first found out, compared to her father whom she had never met, Teacher Qi who was right in front of her is obviously better. Teacher Qi is beautiful, gentle and considerate, and loves her, gives her a little favor, helps her cover up. Other students in the class are not treated like this. Mom doesn't want Teacher Qi, but she wants her.
Lu Zhiqiao panicked when her daughter pointed out her thoughts, and lightly reprimanded: "Don't talk nonsense!"
"I'm not talking nonsense." Lu Wei pouted, "Why didn't you tell me..."
The well-behaved and obedient child suddenly became difficult to fool. Lu Zhiqiao was in chaos. Seeing that the situation was out of control, she was a little annoyed, and shouted: "Go back to sleep."
"No, I want cake."
"Go back!"
She straightened her face, with anger in her eyes, the little girl was terrified, felt aggrieved, curled her lips, took off the paper crown, threw it away, put on her shoes and left sullenly.
As the door closed, the music had just finished playing, and the clear piano sound in the speakers stopped abruptly, and the room became eerily quiet.
Lu Zhiqiao slumped on the sofa and closed her eyes.
What her daughter said was right, she chose to abandon Qi Yan, she was not only cowardly, but also scum. In terms of emotional matters, she has no choice but to be led by the nose. At this moment, she is like a small boat in the vast ocean, alone and helpless.
It would be great if Qi Yan was here.
The person she "abandoned" is also the person she most wants to see now.
Near 8:30, the sound of the elevator door opening came from the corridor, Lu Zhiqiao sat up suddenly, and turned to look at the door. A few seconds later, the door opened, and Qi Yan's slender figure stepped into the room.
The room was filled with soft light, and the huge living room was decorated like a dreamy secret place. The golden words "happy birthday" came into view. Qi Yan paused at the door, and her first reaction was that she had gone to the wrong house. She lowered her head and looked at the key in her hand then at the door.
It's 902, her home, that's right.
How...
Qi Yan was stunned for two seconds, then her gaze turned and saw Lu Zhiqiao sitting on the sofa in her nightgown. Before she could be pleasantly surprised, she was startled by those red eyes and quickly took off her shoes and ran barefoot. "What's the matter?"
She hugged Lu Zhiqiao, feeling silky and soft in her arms.
Smelling the familiar scent of shampoo, as if grabbing a life-saving rope, Lu Zhiqiao sniffed lightly, collapsed, wrapped her arms tightly around Qi Yan's neck, and buried her face in her hair.
"... Niu Niu knows about our relationship." Her voice choked up a little.
Her nightgown was just past her knees, and when she raised her arm, the hem of the clothes also lifted and climbed up, uncovering the secrets underneath.
Qi Yan stared at it, swallowed, and suddenly came back to her senses, "We...what relationship?"
"She said we were in a relationship."
Lu Zhiqiao moved her arms subconsciously, but the hem of her clothes climbed up a little bit. The scenery was faintly visible, making someone daydream. But Qi Yan no longer had the desire to spy. As if she was struck by lightning, and said in a daze, "How could Niu Niu know?"
The first thing she thought of was the night at the Songshan Hotel. Could it be that when she was in Lu Zhiqiao's bed in the middle of the night, Niu Niu saw them?
Thinking about it, their contact was cautious and careful, completely avoiding the child. The only time they were seen hugging each other on the sofa has already passed more than half a year. If the child found out then, she should have said it long ago.
How can that be possible?
She thought of the manhua. Judging from her experience, most of the people who read BL manhuas are straight girls and they don't read Lily at all, let alone associate them to people around them.
Qi Yan was a little flustered.
She was more worried about Lu Zhiqiao's negative reaction than her daughter knowing about the relationship between the two of them. They have come step by step, they have gone through so much, and faced life and death difficulties head on. There is finally a glimmer of hope that the clouds will open and the moon will shine. She is not willing to be killed like this.
She knows how much Qiao Qiao cares about her daughter.
"Niu Niu said that she has observed us for a long time, and she said that we are like the hero and heroine in the TV series..." Lu Zhiqiao sobbed in a low voice, repeating what her daughter said just now.
The more she recalled, the more chaotic her heart became and the more hopeless she felt.
There is also a little guilt.
Although Qi Yan was worried, she was still calm, thinking quickly in her mind, and asked, "What's Niu Niu's reaction when she said that? Her expression?"
Lu Zhiqiao paused: "No reaction, no expression, it's like...not strange at all." After speaking, she pulled away from Qi Yan's arms and grabbed the woman's hand, "What should I do? How can I explain this to the child?"
"It's okay, Qiao Qiao. Listen to me, Niu Niu's lack of reaction indicates that the situation is not as serious as you think. Don't panic, let's face it together, and honestly explain it to the child, she—"
"No way!" Lu Zhiqiao interrupted, shaking her head like a rattle, "You can't confess to Niu Niu, it will bring her bad. She is still young and doesn't understand these things at all. What if she thinks it's new and fun, and learns from us? Qi Yan, let's separate for a while..."
She grabbed Qi Yan's arm, her black eyes showed fear, as if there was an invisible hand behind her, dragging her back into the abyss.
"Bring bad?" Qi Yan looked at her own face in her eyes, and it became cold little by little, dark and gloomy.
"Do you think liking the same sex is 'bad'?"
The last sentence chilled her heart even more.
Although she knew how much Lu Zhiqiao cared about her daughter and was mentally prepared, she didn't expect Lu Zhiqiao to speak so simply and without thinking. A light sentence of "bringing bad" and "separating" wipes out all the affection between two people.
"Besides, what separation? Have we ever been together?" Qi Yan twitched the corner of her mouth.
Lu Zhiqiao choked on her throat, and a dense pain spread in her heart. She slowly loosened Qi Yan's arm, moved to the side, lowered her head, and casually pulled her nightgown to cover her knees, without saying a word.
The romantic melody flows from the speaker, the piano sound is clear and full, and the music is melodious.
The wind blows in from outside the window, and the meteor bead curtain on the ceiling sways and collides gently, reflecting the soft and warm light, and making a sound like a silver bell. Lu Zhiqiao sat motionless, with her hanging hair covering her profile, looking lonely and aloof.
A tear pattered down and splashed onto the nightgown, very light, and the transparent water stain slowly fainted and spread.
Tonight's plan cannot be put into action by any means. They have not yet established a relationship and they were already seen through by their daughter. If it is established and there is substantial development, it is unclear what the child will think.
Qi Yan watched from the side, her half-cold heart pricked with pain. She couldn't bear it in the end, she moved over and hugged her gently, "Qiao Qiao... I know what you are worried about, but things are still very vague now. Don’t scare yourself. If it’s not convenient for you to talk about it, I’ll go talk to Niu Niu, ask her what she thinks, and explain to her.”
"Don't look for Niu Niu." Lu Zhiqiao sniffed, tears rolled down, "Let her forget about this, as long as I insist on denying it, she won't think too much about it."
"Why deny it? Escaping won't solve the problem, be brave, can't we face it together?" Qi Yan frowned, reaching out to wipe away her tears, but the more she wipes, the more tears flow.
"You keep saying you trust me, but now you are really in trouble, do you really trust me?"
Lu Zhiqiao raised her head, and panic flashed in her red and teary eyes, "It's not that I don't trust you, I just don't trust myself..."
Qi Yan interrupted: "Is there any difference? This is the matter of the two of us, not of either party."
Lu Zhiqiao pursed her lips.
The hand on her lap was gently wrapped by the other hand.
"Trust me." Qi Yan leaned over, pressed her thin lips against her eyes and lightly kissed away her tears.
The hot and humid liquid tasted salty and astringent, and it stopped dripping after being kissed. Qi Yan's lips rested on the tear mole, sucking wantonly.
Lu Zhiqiao closed her eyes, let out a muffled sob, and nestled softly into Qi Yan's arms, but her chaotic mood was still not calm, and there were no other thoughts in her mind. She took the initiative to hook Qi Yan's neck, "Are you done?"
"Mm."
"...Happy Birthday," she whispered.
Qi Yan paused, the warmth of her lips left in an instant, looked at her, then turned to look at the living room, with surprise in her eyes, "So you are—"
Is this what I think it is?
Happy birthday?
Lu Zhiqiao brushed her hair, looked down at her hands, "Isn't today your birthday?"
"Yes, but how did you know?" Qi Yan could hardly hide the joy on her face, a smile overflowed from the corner of her mouth. Her half-cold heart warmed up again, beating faster and faster.
"That time you sent a courier, I was by the side and saw your ID card."
"..."
Qi Yan's smile froze on her lips.
She thought that Qiao Qiao didn't know her birthday and there was no need to celebrate, so she just focused on her work. She worked overtime today with a nonchalant mindset, thinking that she had already reported to Qiao Qiao and would be back late. However, she didn't expect Qiao Qiao to prepare such a big surprise for her.
And a fright.
If she had come back earlier, she would have had more time to enjoy the surprises, more time to deal with sudden shocks.
Intense regret rose from the bottom of her heart. She had never longed for the world to have a regret pill, wanting to turn back time and start again today.
Why didn't you tell me earlier,I..I thought you didn't know... " Qi Yan smiled and complained, her eyes slightly wet and her words incoherent.
Lu Zhiqiao raised her eyebrows and the black tear mole became lively, "I want to give you a surprise, if I told you about it, there won't be any surprises."
Qi Yan stretched out her hand and scratched her nose, "I almost died from shock."
Lu Zhiqiao tilted her head, with embarrassment flashing across her eyes, she buried her head on Qi Yan's shoulder. The hem of her nightgown climbed up, she pulled it subconsciously, and suddenly thought of the gift she had prepared, so she hurriedly got up again, picked up the box next to the cake and handed it to Qi Yan.
"For you."
"Can I open it now?" Qi Yan raised her brows, saw her nodding, and carefully tore off the wrapping paper.
It's a pair of black bluetooth headphones.
Her eyes widened, and her mouth shrunk into a circle, and then she looked up in surprise: "How did you know I wanted to buy this?"
Lu Zhiqiao smiled shyly, blushing on her cheeks, and whispered, "Last time at the gym, you said that your earphones were uncomfortable, and you wanted to change it, so I bought it, as a birthday present for you."
Qi Yan's heart trembled, and she squeezed the box tightly.
She remembers.
That day, she just casually said that her old earphones are well used but not broken, as long as they are not hung around her neck while running, it isn't a big deal. She planned to change them but not sooner. Who knew that what she said in passing was remembered by Lu Zhiqiao.
Qi Yan blinked, tilted her head and kissed the corner of her mouth, "I like it very much."
Lu Zhiqiao's ears turned slightly hot, and she closed her eyes. Thinking of the other gift, she couldn't help but raise her hand and grab the collar of her nightgown.
Should she still push through with it?
"Qi Yan..."
"Mm?"
"Actually—" her lips moved slightly, "There is another gift."
Qi Yan raised her head with a smile: "What?"
Author's Note:
Pull the lights*, huh? (Don't be too happy too soon.jpg
*turn on/off the lights, in Chinese internet lingo it means, skipping erotic scenes
Her daughter's words rang in Lu Zhiqiao's ears like a thunderbolt. She froze suddenly, her slender eyelashes trembled, and her face changed drastically. She subconsciously blurted out: "How do you know?"After finishing speaking, she suddenly realized that this was tantamount to a disguised admission. She regretted deeply, and wished she could bite her own tongue.How are they in a relationship?It's just that--It's just ambiguous.Tonight, she decided to establish a relationship with Qi Yan, but she didn't expect her daughter to give her a blow to the head, blowing away the courage she had worked up so hard. Before she could welcome the sweet joy, she was forced to face the cruel reality."It's obvious" Lu Wei murmured, seeing her mother's complexion, she shrank her neck and muttered softly, "You and Teacher Qi are like the hero and heroine of a TV series..."Lu Zhiqiao frowned,and avoided her daughter's gaze with a guilty heart.Looking back on the moments she spent with Qi Yan, she was extremely cautious and avoided her daughter as much as possible. Even if she couldn't avoid her, there would be no excessive intimacy. How can a child aged twelve or thirteen understand same-sex love? She will only think that her mother and teacher have a good relationship, right? She thought so.For tonight, she did a whole week of mental work for herself, listing all possible situations and thinking of countermeasures, but she didn't expect her daughter to do this to her. Of course, she has thought about how to explain to her daughter. The best way is to wait until the child is older, while Qi Yan and her will maintain a "friendship" status in front of the child. It's just that she didn't expect the child to know about it long ago, and she didn't give her the slightest chance to prepare.Obviously, she underestimated the precocity of her daughter.What to do?What will her child think of her? Will she think her mom is a pervert? Not only perverted but also has no bottom line, getting together with her teacher?Has her image in her daughter's mind been completely ruined?Lu Zhiqiao's face turned pale, her fingers clenched her nightgown tightly, and her mind turned in a mess.She suddenly remembered her daughter's reading adult comics. At that time, she was very worried that her child's early exposure to homosexual works would inevitably lead to imaginative thinking, and one day she would associate it with her and Qi Yan. It was because she was too confident, thinking that she would always keep a certain distance from Qi Yan, and she depended on her luck.Her daughter said that she and Qi Yan are like the characters in a TV series, which means that there is no conclusive evidence, as long as she bites her tongue and refuse to admit it...So tonight is a travesty.Lu Zhiqiao raised her eyelids, and her gaze fell on the three-tiered cakethe candles hadn't been lit, the gifts hadn't been delivered yet, and it was too late to express her heart.Not admitting it is tantamount to giving up Qi Yan.Lu Zhiqiao's eyes turned red, she lowered her head, her nails pinched her palms, her nightgown was crumpled. She blinked, forcing back the tears, and made a choice at that moment."Girl... " She raised her head, her complexion returned to normal, and took her daughter's hand and said with a smile.Listen to mom, it's not what you think. Teacher Qi and I are both women, how could we possibly fall in love? You're young and you should watch fewer love TV dramas.Every word spoken was like a knife, which pierced into her heart, twitching and hurting.As cowardly as she is, she is not worthy of Qi Yan, and she is just dazzled by the momentary joy, forgetting that she cannot enjoy the life of ordinary people. The reality slapped her hard on the face.Lu Wei stared at her mother's face and said nonchalantly, "But I've been watching you for a long time, and it's obviously a relationship."Lu Zhiqiao was stunned."And Teacher Qi is so kind to you. If you don't admit it now, you're like the scumbag in the TV series. You've abandoned her. She will be heartbroken when she finds out." The little girl said seriously.That's strange.Mom didn't admit it?The two of them had a passionate kiss that night, so it couldn't be because of her sleepwalking and dizziness, right? She wouldn't be that close with her best friend. The world of adults is really confusing. If you are in love, you are in love. There is nothing to hide.Teacher Qi is not a bad person.Although she felt a little awkward when she first found out, compared to her father whom she had never met, Teacher Qi who was right in front of her is obviously better. Teacher Qi is beautiful, gentle and considerate, and loves her, gives her a little favor, helps her cover up. Other students in the class are not treated like this. Mom doesn't want Teacher Qi, but she wants her.Lu Zhiqiao panicked when her daughter pointed out her thoughts, and lightly reprimanded: "Don't talk nonsense!""I'm not talking nonsense." Lu Wei pouted, "Why didn't you tell me..."The well-behaved and obedient child suddenly became difficult to fool. Lu Zhiqiao was in chaos. Seeing that the situation was out of control, she was a little annoyed, and shouted: "Go back to sleep.""No, I want cake.""Go back!"She straightened her face, with anger in her eyes, the little girl was terrified, felt aggrieved, curled her lips, took off the paper crown, threw it away, put on her shoes and left sullenly.As the door closed, the music had just finished playing, and the clear piano sound in the speakers stopped abruptly, and the room became eerily quiet.Lu Zhiqiao slumped on the sofa and closed her eyes.What her daughter said was right, she chose to abandon Qi Yan, she was not only cowardly, but also scum. In terms of emotional matters, she has no choice but to be led by the nose. At this moment, she is like a small boat in the vast ocean, alone and helpless.It would be great if Qi Yan was here.The person she "abandoned" is also the person she most wants to see now.Near 8:30, the sound of the elevator door opening came from the corridor, Lu Zhiqiao sat up suddenly, and turned to look at the door. A few seconds later, the door opened, and Qi Yan's slender figure stepped into the room.The room was filled with soft light, and the huge living room was decorated like a dreamy secret place. The golden words "happy birthday" came into view. Qi Yan paused at the door, and her first reaction was that she had gone to the wrong house. She lowered her head and looked at the key in her hand then at the door.It's 902, her home, that's right.How...Qi Yan was stunned for two seconds, then her gaze turned and saw Lu Zhiqiao sitting on the sofa in her nightgown. Before she could be pleasantly surprised, she was startled by those red eyes and quickly took off her shoes and ran barefoot. "What's the matter?"She hugged Lu Zhiqiao, feeling silky and soft in her arms.Smelling the familiar scent of shampoo, as if grabbing a life-saving rope, Lu Zhiqiao sniffed lightly, collapsed, wrapped her arms tightly around Qi Yan's neck, and buried her face in her hair."... Niu Niu knows about our relationship." Her voice choked up a little.Her nightgown was just past her knees, and when she raised her arm, the hem of the clothes also lifted and climbed up, uncovering the secrets underneath.Qi Yan stared at it, swallowed, and suddenly came back to her senses, "We...what relationship?""She said we were in a relationship."Lu Zhiqiao moved her arms subconsciously, but the hem of her clothes climbed up a little bit. The scenery was faintly visible, making someone daydream. But Qi Yan no longer had the desire to spy. As if she was struck by lightning, and said in a daze, "How could Niu Niu know?"The first thing she thought of was the night at the Songshan Hotel. Could it be that when she was in Lu Zhiqiao's bed in the middle of the night, Niu Niu saw them?Thinking about it, their contact was cautious and careful, completely avoiding the child. The only time they were seen hugging each other on the sofa has already passed more than half a year. If the child found out then, she should have said it long ago.How can that be possible?She thought of the manhua. Judging from her experience, most of the people who read BL manhuas are straight girls and they don't read Lily at all, let alone associate them to people around them.Qi Yan was a little flustered.She was more worried about Lu Zhiqiao's negative reaction than her daughter knowing about the relationship between the two of them. They have come step by step, they have gone through so much, and faced life and death difficulties head on. There is finally a glimmer of hope that the clouds will open and the moon will shine. She is not willing to be killed like this.She knows how much Qiao Qiao cares about her daughter."Niu Niu said that she has observed us for a long time, and she said that we are like the hero and heroine in the TV series..." Lu Zhiqiao sobbed in a low voice, repeating what her daughter said just now.The more she recalled, the more chaotic her heart became and the more hopeless she felt.There is also a little guilt.Although Qi Yan was worried, she was still calm, thinking quickly in her mind, and asked, "What's Niu Niu's reaction when she said that? Her expression?"Lu Zhiqiao paused: "No reaction, no expression, it's like...not strange at all." After speaking, she pulled away from Qi Yan's arms and grabbed the woman's hand, "What should I do? How can I explain this to the child?""It's okay, Qiao Qiao. Listen to me, Niu Niu's lack of reaction indicates that the situation is not as serious as you think. Don't panic, let's face it together, and honestly explain it to the child, she""No way!" Lu Zhiqiao interrupted, shaking her head like a rattle, "You can't confess to Niu Niu, it will bring her bad. She is still young and doesn't understand these things at all. What if she thinks it's new and fun, and learns from us? Qi Yan, let's separate for a while..."She grabbed Qi Yan's arm, her black eyes showed fear, as if there was an invisible hand behind her, dragging her back into the abyss."Bring bad?" Qi Yan looked at her own face in her eyes, and it became cold little by little, dark and gloomy."Do you think liking the same sex is 'bad'?"The last sentence chilled her heart even more.Although she knew how much Lu Zhiqiao cared about her daughter and was mentally prepared, she didn't expect Lu Zhiqiao to speak so simply and without thinking. A light sentence of "bringing bad" and "separating" wipes out all the affection between two people."Besides, what separation? Have we ever been together?" Qi Yan twitched the corner of her mouth.Lu Zhiqiao choked on her throat, and a dense pain spread in her heart. She slowly loosened Qi Yan's arm, moved to the side, lowered her head, and casually pulled her nightgown to cover her knees, without saying a word.The romantic melody flows from the speaker, the piano sound is clear and full, and the music is melodious.The wind blows in from outside the window, and the meteor bead curtain on the ceiling sways and collides gently, reflecting the soft and warm light, and making a sound like a silver bell. Lu Zhiqiao sat motionless, with her hanging hair covering her profile, looking lonely and aloof.A tear pattered down and splashed onto the nightgown, very light, and the transparent water stain slowly fainted and spread.Tonight's plan cannot be put into action by any means. They have not yet established a relationship and they were already seen through by their daughter. If it is established and there is substantial development, it is unclear what the child will think.Qi Yan watched from the side, her half-cold heart pricked with pain. She couldn't bear it in the end, she moved over and hugged her gently, "Qiao Qiao... I know what you are worried about, but things are still very vague now. Don't scare yourself. If it's not convenient for you to talk about it, I'll go talk to Niu Niu, ask her what she thinks, and explain to her."Don't look for Niu Niu." Lu Zhiqiao sniffed, tears rolled down, "Let her forget about this, as long as I insist on denying it, she won't think too much about it.""Why deny it? Escaping won't solve the problem, be brave, can't we face it together?" Qi Yan frowned, reaching out to wipe away her tears, but the more she wipes, the more tears flow."You keep saying you trust me, but now you are really in trouble, do you really trust me?"Lu Zhiqiao raised her head, and panic flashed in her red and teary eyes, "It's not that I don't trust you, I just don't trust myself..."Qi Yan interrupted: "Is there any difference? This is the matter of the two of us, not of either party."Lu Zhiqiao pursed her lips.The hand on her lap was gently wrapped by the other hand."Trust me." Qi Yan leaned over, pressed her thin lips against her eyes and lightly kissed away her tears.The hot and humid liquid tasted salty and astringent, and it stopped dripping after being kissed. Qi Yan's lips rested on the tear mole, sucking wantonly.Lu Zhiqiao closed her eyes, let out a muffled sob, and nestled softly into Qi Yan's arms, but her chaotic mood was still not calm, and there were no other thoughts in her mind.She took the initiative to hook Qi Yan's neck, "Are you done?""Mm.""...Happy Birthday," she whispered.Qi Yan paused, the warmth of her lips left in an instant, looked at her, then turned to look at the living room, with surprise in her eyes, "So you are"Is this what I think it is?Happy birthday?Lu Zhiqiao brushed her hair, looked down at her hands, "Isn't today your birthday?""Yes, but how did you know?" Qi Yan could hardly hide the joy on her face, a smile overflowed from the corner of her mouth. Her half-cold heart warmed up again, beating faster and faster."That time you sent a courier, I was by the side and saw your ID card.""..."Qi Yan's smile froze on her lips.She thought that Qiao Qiao didn't know her birthday and there was no need to celebrate, so she just focused on her work. She worked overtime today with a nonchalant mindset, thinking that she had already reported to Qiao Qiao and would be back late. However, she didn't expect Qiao Qiao to prepare such a big surprise for her.And a fright.If she had come back earlier, she would have had more time to enjoy the surprises, more time to deal with sudden shocks.Intense regret rose from the bottom of her heart. She had never longed for the world to have a regret pill, wanting to turn back time and start again today.Why didn't you tell me earlier,I..I thought you didn't know... " Qi Yan smiled and complained, her eyes slightly wet and her words incoherent.Lu Zhiqiao raised her eyebrows and the black tear mole became lively, "I want to give you a surprise, if I told you about it, there won't be any surprises."Qi Yan stretched out her hand and scratched her nose, "I almost died from shock."Lu Zhiqiao tilted her head, with embarrassment flashing across her eyes, she buried her head on Qi Yan's shoulder. The hem of her nightgown climbed up, she pulled it subconsciously, and suddenly thought of the gift she had prepared, so she hurriedly got up again, picked up the box next to the cake and handed it to Qi Yan."For you.""Can I open it now?" Qi Yan raised her brows, saw her nodding, and carefully tore off the wrapping paper.It's a pair of black bluetooth headphones.Her eyes widened, and her mouth shrunk into a circle, and then she looked up in surprise: "How did you know I wanted to buy this?"Lu Zhiqiao smiled shyly, blushing on her cheeks, and whispered, "Last time at the gym, you said that your earphones were uncomfortable, and you wanted to change it, so I bought it, as a birthday present for you."Qi Yan's heart trembled, and she squeezed the box tightly.She remembers.That day, she just casually said that her old earphones are well used but not broken, as long as they are not hung around her neck while running, it isn't a big deal. She planned to change them but not sooner. Who knew that what she said in passing was remembered by Lu Zhiqiao.Qi Yan blinked, tilted her head and kissed the corner of her mouth, "I like it very much."Lu Zhiqiao's ears turned slightly hot, and she closed her eyes. Thinking of the other gift, she couldn't help but raise her hand and grab the collar of her nightgown.Should she still push through with it?"Qi Yan...""Mm?""Actually" her lips moved slightly, "There is another gift."Qi Yan raised her head with a smile: "What?"Author's Note:Pull the lights*, huh? Don't be too happy too soon.jpg*turn on/off the lights, in Chinese internet lingo it means, skipping erotic scenes
