“Ha…”
White thighs were exposed through the torn dress, and were promiscuously crossed with legs in the pants of a suit.
As we kissed, I stroked Rixus’ broad back and his hair countless times.
It was the first time I wanted him in this way.
Perhaps that fact stimulated Rixus; his breathing and touches were wild and rough, and his eyes were dark.
“Ah.”
His firm hands passed, and red handprints appeared on my thighs.
Kisses that made us anxious because we couldn’t stick even closer to each other anymore…
Crash!
A wine glass fell from the side table we bumped into and it shattered to pieces.
I blinked twice as if a little startled, and he licked my lips and whispered in a low, raspy voice.
“Don’t mind it.”
My heart pounded at that voice.
My attention, which had been scattered for a moment, was completely refocused on him.
He had been sucking my lips, sticking out his tongue and licking, then sucking some more and kissing deeply and thrillingly.
The answer I was going to give was… It became a faint moan and melted between our lips.
‘I’m out of breath. But it’s good.’
A sweet and masculine body scent filled my lungs.
My mind became dizzy.
As I received the hot kisses, he skillfully laid me down on the bed without me noticing.
Suddenly, a red light flashed in my head.
“…Rixus, wait a minute.”
I laid languidly on the bed and put a hand on his taut forearm.
His rough hand, trying to pull off the promiscuously ripped dress, stopped.
“…I don’t want to take it off.”
Rixus’s eyes narrowed strangely.
I put my hand on his shirt and whispered.
“Only you take it off. Because today is the day I have you…”
A mischievous smile appeared in his blue-purple eyes.
“Where did you learn how to say that?”
“Why, don’t you like it?”
“I’m going crazy.”
His whispers, along with his eyes that stared down at me, were so captivating that my heart clenched as if it was going to explode.
Rixus clasped my hand with his large one.
Slowly, his hands moved and pulled the closures of his clothes.
Each time the shirt opened bit by bit, I looked straight into his eyes.
We gazed at each other and suppressed our desire to swallow each other right away.
Soon, under the moonlight…
Sturdy shoulders and delicate muscles like a beast’s were revealed.
Just by looking at it, it was a sultry body that gave off an erotic feeling.
My heart warmed even more because I had experienced how intense the pleasure that body gave me was.
“…….”
Rixus still held my hand, and made me stroke his bare chest with the palm of my hand.
His heart was also beating like it was about to explode.
I could feel it in my grasp.
“Ha…”
In the end, I swallowed the exhaled breath and faced him without hesitation.
Our wet tongues, lips, and body heat could be felt all over.
The sensations and body scents that Rixus gave me were mixed; they shook my head completely.
I moaned passionately as I tangled my fingers through his hair.
Compared to our last night, he was much rougher as he knew my body well.
It was a little different from that time when I, too, held my breath in shame.
‘…Rixus, it’s okay to want you now.’
I reacted positively to the pleasure he gave me, and I kept making eye contact with him.
I wanted to see the eyes of the man I loved.
It felt as if my heart was on fire every time I met the blue-purple eyes that shone intensely from those half-lidded eyes.
I felt loved all over.
My heart pounded so much that I wondered if it was okay.
‘Now that I’ve found a way to be together, Rixus.’
How much heartache did I suffer to come this far?
The day that the blue roses, which I was sure would never bloom, crawled out.
The frustration I felt was still burning in my chest.
No, at that time, the experiences of going through the miserable times that ended with seven deaths piled up in my mind and heart.
But now I was sure.
That God only allowed me to be happy in this life.
That I could stay by Rixus’s side.
That I didn’t have to leave the man I loved.
That fact alone warmed my heart as if all the suffering had been compensated for.
I wanted him so much. To be happy with him…
“…Berylia.”
I slowly grabbed his shoulder and laid him down.
The languid eyes looking up at me while holding my waist were alluring.
I swallowed him slowly.
We felt each other’s inner body temperature in an instant, and we reacted sensitively.
Exclamations came out of my mouth and my heart was trembling.
“Rixus…”
Rixus looked up at his wife, feeling a bit confused.
Today, for sure, she was somewhat different.
She was a really enigmatic wife.
As soon as they had their first night, she distanced herself from her husband and made him turn away… But she was approaching him like crazy today.
Rixus bit his lips as he supported her as she moved.
His adam’s apple vibrated precariously as he swallowed saliva.
If he made a mistake and lost his reason…
He felt as if he was going to be devoured so terribly that he would not be able to bear it.
He felt like he was going crazy because she came to him without a warning.
She was not at all predictable.
“My wife…”
“Ah!”
He sprang up and hugged her waist.
Then he moved strongly, looked at her face and whispered.
“I like to say things with my body.”
“…Rixus, hah!”
For a brief moment, the body that had been terribly tamed by him reacted starkly to the pleasure.
Berylia wrapped her thin arms around his shoulders and moaned bitterly.
At that moment, Rixus whispered to her, closing the distance with her.
“I don’t understand you.”
“!”
It was like a whine. To his wife, who always kept secrets to herself.
Berylia looked at him with slightly wounded eyes,
She rubbed his cold cheeks and whispered back.
“Why are you saying that now…?”
“It’s very difficult.”
When Rixus, who was originally quite cold in character, said this — Even though they were sharing each other’s body temperature, it felt cold as if he would be left behind.
Berylia clasped his chin as if training a bad dog, looking into his eyes and whispered.
“Then you…”
“……”
“If you’re going to say something like that, you should say it with your body, Rixus.”
The arrogant answer and a little bit of hatred towards each other fueled the excitement even more.
Even though they had already became one, they were thirsty and desire spurted like crazy.
Rixus laid her on her back, hugging her, closing the gap even further, and covering her pretty, bitten lips with his big hands.
Then he whispered harshly.
“Then you just listen.”
“!”
Goosebumps all over Berylia’s body, and her spine shivered.
And the ensuing act blew all doubts cleanly from their heads.
The bed hit the bedside table like it was about to break.
It felt like their hearts were about to burst and they would go black.
The ultimate point of pleasure that seemed to tear the body to pieces came soon.
It was Berylia who bit her finger and cried first.
Rixus kissed her countless times so that she could feel the afterglow of her climax.
The two continued to call each other’s name and whisper love.
The rush of passion swept away…
Then the twilight dawn came.
The one who couldn’t fall asleep easily was Rixus.
He looked down at her face as she laid on his bed.
‘You must have been tired during the day.’
‘Or maybe it was too hard to accept the previous act…’
Berylia was asleep, as if she had fainted.
Looking at her lovely face, Rixus gently stroked her platinum blonde hair and whispered.
“If I didn’t understand, you should have slapped me on the cheek.”
He said if he dared hurt her, she should have scolded him for doing such a thing.
“There was a time when I wished I could see your face even just once… Candy.”
However, he was constantly anxious and greedy because he was next to her.
He was worried and annoyed every time because he was afraid that she wouldn’t be happy by his side.
Rixus felt his heart crumpling when he thought she was alone with secrets he didn’t know.
That was why he said it, it was without realization. He wouldn’t have said it if he could go back to that time.
“You’re nice, so just let it slide…”
‘My good wife.’
In fact, she was the softest woman ever.
He wanted to keep her happy for the rest of her life.
If necessary, even at the cost of his own life.
That thought had not changed since he met her again and brought her to this Aktoum.
Affection spread in his eyes as he looked at Berylia.
Rixus kissed the cheek of his soundly sleeping wife and confessed earnestly.
“I love you, Berylia.”
‘Beyond your imagination.’
* * *
I was being chased.
Behind me, the male protagonist without blood or tears was chasing me.
‘I tried to die calmly…’
Was a calm death impossible in the first place?
‘Death’ had already happened seven times, but I still hadn’t gotten used to it.
My instinct to struggle to survive until the end made me even more miserable.
In a ruined temple, I was running like crazy barefooted, holding up my torn clothes.
But hopelessly… It was a dead end.
I did my best to attack him with my abilities, but it wasn’t very effective because I was already in a state of exhaustion.
It didn’t take long for the male protagonist’s sharp sword to pierce me.
“Ah……!”
Blood gushed out of my mouth. Like broken rose petals.
“….…”
I looked at Rixus with wide open eyes.
I always felt the same way at this moment.
What was worse than the pain of being torn apart…
It was a sense of shame that I could not get out of this damn chain of fate again.
‘Ah.’
‘This boring life is coming to an end again.’
It was also, without fail, by his hand.
Even though I had already died seven times under the hands of Rixus, why did I always have the same question?
“Why, me…”
Followed by the sharp blade that pierced the blue roses in my chest.
Even at this moment, the emotionless look in Rixus’s eyes made my heart ache for some reason.
It felt like my heart was breaking and my whole body was being torn apart.
It was a strange feeling. I hadn’t felt this before…
My bones ached as if I had been betrayed by him.
I barely asked the question with a trembling jaw.
“Why are you trying to kill me…?”
The cold blue-purple eyes stared at me as if piercingly.
He shook his head relentlessly.
“Because you don’t deserve to live.”
I felt like I was going to stop breathing.
I was so hurt that I started crying.
But he didn’t stop.
“Berylia Spinel, you are the worst human being that shouldn’t have existed in the first place.”
“…….”
“Even if you disappear, no one will be sad.”
‘Okay… That’s who I am. That is my life, Rixus.’
‘But I… also… I want to live worthily.’
I whispered to him as if pleading.
‘If the opportunity comes even just once, I want to live a worthy life too.’
I wanted someone who would mourn me when I died, Rixus.
I wished I had warm people around me.
Just once…
I wanted to laugh comfortably and sleep comfortably.
I couldn’t figure out what Rixus’ last expression meant.
The pain and sorrow of the heart, which seemed to burn the whole body, slowly flew away into the distant consciousness.
And then came darkness.
…That was how I met my 7th death.
After that, it was the same without having to go through it.
I would be born from my mother’s womb, and would be dumped in a swamp.
It was a return to the consciousness of a newborn baby.
The white and dark veil alternately swayed in front of my eyes.
And soon I opened my eyes to a new world.
‘…What?’
Not the damp, soft towels I had every time.
I liked the fact that there were no voices from the servants of the country although the youngest princess was born.
Because they would soon say they would have to kill me.
But even if the feeling was different, it was too different.
Here, the air was wrong, and I saw a ceiling that I had never seen before.
“Berylia. Are you awake?”
And then a languid voice was heard.
‘You just killed me.’
It was that cruel man’s voice.
As if a snake crawled all over my body, I felt goosebumps, and my instincts were activated.
I attacked him with all my might to protect myself.
Chaek–eng!
“!”
Rixus looked at me with wide-open eyes.
Drip—
In an instant, thick blood flowed from his cheek, unable to completely avoid my attack.
“Ha…”
White thighs were exposed through the torn dress, and were promiscuously crossed with legs in the pants of a suit.
As we kissed, I stroked Rixus’ broad back and his hair countless times.
It was the first time I wanted him in this way.
Perhaps that fact stimulated Rixus; his breathing and touches were wild and rough, and his eyes were dark.
“Ah.”
His firm hands passed, and red handprints appeared on my thighs.
Kisses that made us anxious because we couldn’t stick even closer to each other anymore…
Crash!
A wine glass fell from the side table we bumped into and it shattered to pieces.
I blinked twice as if a little startled, and he licked my lips and whispered in a low, raspy voice.
“Don’t mind it.”
My heart pounded at that voice.
My attention, which had been scattered for a moment, was completely refocused on him.
He had been sucking my lips, sticking out his tongue and licking, then sucking some more and kissing deeply and thrillingly.
The answer I was going to give was… It became a faint moan and melted between our lips.
‘I’m out of breath. But it’s good.’
A sweet and masculine body scent filled my lungs.
My mind became dizzy.
As I received the hot kisses, he skillfully laid me down on the bed without me noticing.
Suddenly, a red light flashed in my head.
“…Rixus, wait a minute.”
I laid languidly on the bed and put a hand on his taut forearm.
His rough hand, trying to pull off the promiscuously ripped dress, stopped.
“…I don’t want to take it off.”
Rixus’s eyes narrowed strangely.
I put my hand on his shirt and whispered.
“Only you take it off. Because today is the day I have you…”
A mischievous smile appeared in his blue-purple eyes.
“Where did you learn how to say that?”
“Why, don’t you like it?”
“I’m going crazy.”
His whispers, along with his eyes that stared down at me, were so captivating that my heart clenched as if it was going to explode.
Rixus clasped my hand with his large one.
Slowly, his hands moved and pulled the closures of his clothes.
Each time the shirt opened bit by bit, I looked straight into his eyes.
We gazed at each other and suppressed our desire to swallow each other right away.
Soon, under the moonlight…
Sturdy shoulders and delicate muscles like a beast’s were revealed.
Just by looking at it, it was a sultry body that gave off an erotic feeling.
My heart warmed even more because I had experienced how intense the pleasure that body gave me was.
“…….”
Rixus still held my hand, and made me stroke his bare chest with the palm of my hand.
His heart was also beating like it was about to explode.
I could feel it in my grasp.
“Ha…”
In the end, I swallowed the exhaled breath and faced him without hesitation.
Our wet tongues, lips, and body heat could be felt all over.
The sensations and body scents that Rixus gave me were mixed; they shook my head completely.
I moaned passionately as I tangled my fingers through his hair.
Compared to our last night, he was much rougher as he knew my body well.
It was a little different from that time when I, too, held my breath in shame.
‘…Rixus, it’s okay to want you now.’
I reacted positively to the pleasure he gave me, and I kept making eye contact with him.
I wanted to see the eyes of the man I loved.
It felt as if my heart was on fire every time I met the blue-purple eyes that shone intensely from those half-lidded eyes.
I felt loved all over.
My heart pounded so much that I wondered if it was okay.
‘Now that I’ve found a way to be together, Rixus.’
How much heartache did I suffer to come this far?
The day that the blue roses, which I was sure would never bloom, crawled out.
The frustration I felt was still burning in my chest.
No, at that time, the experiences of going through the miserable times that ended with seven deaths piled up in my mind and heart.
But now I was sure.
That God only allowed me to be happy in this life.
That I could stay by Rixus’s side.
That I didn’t have to leave the man I loved.
That fact alone warmed my heart as if all the suffering had been compensated for.
I wanted him so much. To be happy with him…
“…Berylia.”
I slowly grabbed his shoulder and laid him down.
The languid eyes looking up at me while holding my waist were alluring.
I swallowed him slowly.
We felt each other’s inner body temperature in an instant, and we reacted sensitively.
Exclamations came out of my mouth and my heart was trembling.
“Rixus…”
Rixus looked up at his wife, feeling a bit confused.
Today, for sure, she was somewhat different.
She was a really enigmatic wife.
As soon as they had their first night, she distanced herself from her husband and made him turn away… But she was approaching him like crazy today.
Rixus bit his lips as he supported her as she moved.
His adam’s apple vibrated precariously as he swallowed saliva.
If he made a mistake and lost his reason…
He felt as if he was going to be devoured so terribly that he would not be able to bear it.
He felt like he was going crazy because she came to him without a warning.
She was not at all predictable.
“My wife…”
“Ah!”
He sprang up and hugged her waist.
Then he moved strongly, looked at her face and whispered.
“I like to say things with my body.”
“…Rixus, hah!”
For a brief moment, the body that had been terribly tamed by him reacted starkly to the pleasure.
Berylia wrapped her thin arms around his shoulders and moaned bitterly.
At that moment, Rixus whispered to her, closing the distance with her.
“I don’t understand you.”
“!”
It was like a whine. To his wife, who always kept secrets to herself.
Berylia looked at him with slightly wounded eyes,
She rubbed his cold cheeks and whispered back.
“Why are you saying that now…?”
“It’s very difficult.”
When Rixus, who was originally quite cold in character, said this — Even though they were sharing each other’s body temperature, it felt cold as if he would be left behind.
Berylia clasped his chin as if training a bad dog, looking into his eyes and whispered.
“Then you…”
“……”
“If you’re going to say something like that, you should say it with your body, Rixus.”
The arrogant answer and a little bit of hatred towards each other fueled the excitement even more.
Even though they had already became one, they were thirsty and desire spurted like crazy.
Rixus laid her on her back, hugging her, closing the gap even further, and covering her pretty, bitten lips with his big hands.
Then he whispered harshly.
“Then you just listen.”
“!”
Goosebumps all over Berylia’s body, and her spine shivered.
And the ensuing act blew all doubts cleanly from their heads.
The bed hit the bedside table like it was about to break.
It felt like their hearts were about to burst and they would go black.
The ultimate point of pleasure that seemed to tear the body to pieces came soon.
It was Berylia who bit her finger and cried first.
Rixus kissed her countless times so that she could feel the afterglow of her climax.
The two continued to call each other’s name and whisper love.
The rush of passion swept away…
Then the twilight dawn came.
The one who couldn’t fall asleep easily was Rixus.
He looked down at her face as she laid on his bed.
‘You must have been tired during the day.’
‘Or maybe it was too hard to accept the previous act…’
Berylia was asleep, as if she had fainted.
Looking at her lovely face, Rixus gently stroked her platinum blonde hair and whispered.
“If I didn’t understand, you should have slapped me on the cheek.”
He said if he dared hurt her, she should have scolded him for doing such a thing.
“There was a time when I wished I could see your face even just once… Candy.”
However, he was constantly anxious and greedy because he was next to her.
He was worried and annoyed every time because he was afraid that she wouldn’t be happy by his side.
Rixus felt his heart crumpling when he thought she was alone with secrets he didn’t know.
That was why he said it, it was without realization. He wouldn’t have said it if he could go back to that time.
“You’re nice, so just let it slide…”
‘My good wife.’
In fact, she was the softest woman ever.
He wanted to keep her happy for the rest of her life.
If necessary, even at the cost of his own life.
That thought had not changed since he met her again and brought her to this Aktoum.
Affection spread in his eyes as he looked at Berylia.
Rixus kissed the cheek of his soundly sleeping wife and confessed earnestly.
“I love you, Berylia.”
‘Beyond your imagination.’
* * *
I was being chased.
Behind me, the male protagonist without blood or tears was chasing me.
‘I tried to die calmly…’
Was a calm death impossible in the first place?
‘Death’ had already happened seven times, but I still hadn’t gotten used to it.
My instinct to struggle to survive until the end made me even more miserable.
In a ruined temple, I was running like crazy barefooted, holding up my torn clothes.
But hopelessly… It was a dead end.
I did my best to attack him with my abilities, but it wasn’t very effective because I was already in a state of exhaustion.
It didn’t take long for the male protagonist’s sharp sword to pierce me.
“Ah……!”
Blood gushed out of my mouth. Like broken rose petals.
“….…”
I looked at Rixus with wide open eyes.
I always felt the same way at this moment.
What was worse than the pain of being torn apart…
It was a sense of shame that I could not get out of this damn chain of fate again.
‘Ah.’
‘This boring life is coming to an end again.’
It was also, without fail, by his hand.
Even though I had already died seven times under the hands of Rixus, why did I always have the same question?
“Why, me…”
Followed by the sharp blade that pierced the blue roses in my chest.
Even at this moment, the emotionless look in Rixus’s eyes made my heart ache for some reason.
It felt like my heart was breaking and my whole body was being torn apart.
It was a strange feeling. I hadn’t felt this before…
My bones ached as if I had been betrayed by him.
I barely asked the question with a trembling jaw.
“Why are you trying to kill me…?”
The cold blue-purple eyes stared at me as if piercingly.
He shook his head relentlessly.
“Because you don’t deserve to live.”
I felt like I was going to stop breathing.
I was so hurt that I started crying.
But he didn’t stop.
“Berylia Spinel, you are the worst human being that shouldn’t have existed in the first place.”
“…….”
“Even if you disappear, no one will be sad.”
‘Okay… That’s who I am. That is my life, Rixus.’
‘But I… also… I want to live worthily.’
I whispered to him as if pleading.
‘If the opportunity comes even just once, I want to live a worthy life too.’
I wanted someone who would mourn me when I died, Rixus.
I wished I had warm people around me.
Just once…
I wanted to laugh comfortably and sleep comfortably.
I couldn’t figure out what Rixus’ last expression meant.
The pain and sorrow of the heart, which seemed to burn the whole body, slowly flew away into the distant consciousness.
And then came darkness.
…That was how I met my 7th death.
After that, it was the same without having to go through it.
I would be born from my mother’s womb, and would be dumped in a swamp.
It was a return to the consciousness of a newborn baby.
The white and dark veil alternately swayed in front of my eyes.
And soon I opened my eyes to a new world.
‘…What?’
Not the damp, soft towels I had every time.
I liked the fact that there were no voices from the servants of the country although the youngest princess was born.
Because they would soon say they would have to kill me.
But even if the feeling was different, it was too different.
Here, the air was wrong, and I saw a ceiling that I had never seen before.
“Berylia. Are you awake?”
And then a languid voice was heard.
‘You just killed me.’
It was that cruel man’s voice.
As if a snake crawled all over my body, I felt goosebumps, and my instincts were activated.
I attacked him with all my might to protect myself.
Chaek–eng!
“!”
Rixus looked at me with wide-open eyes.
Drip—
In an instant, thick blood flowed from his cheek, unable to completely avoid my attack.
