19841218-19 diary
one thousand two hundred and eighteen
Today, I was in a gloomy mood. It seemed that something was pressing on my head, and the atmosphere did not dare to breathe. I felt that everything was becoming clear and meaningless. It seemed that everything was false. I was extremely pessimistic and could no longer be excited. Alas! I don't know why.
The film "death trap", which was made by the League branch, was at 5:20, but we didn't eat until 5:00. We were busy. When we went, we began to put them away. We couldn't find a seat with biqingyuan. It was No. 6 and No. 8 in row 11 upstairs. Later, we knew it was the last row. After we found it, we sat down. Sitting at the last side seemed to have an open eye. We could still watch the film. Only then did we forget our sadness. The past is coming again, alas!
one thousand two hundred and nineteen
Somehow, it seems that I can't help myself and let everything change.
In the afternoon, the League meeting was held, and Secretary Yao gave a report, aiming to be a real League member and play an advanced role. After the meeting, Xu Rui went to Xu Rui's office to borrow his senior one textbook in summer vacation. He put it in the box and suddenly changed his view of him, but it was wrong. He should return it to me (first) to be a friend or a borrower. Of course, I still brought the book. I've wanted it for several times, but I'm afraid of it. It seems that anything can be done successfully.
19841220--21 diary
one thousand two hundred and twenty
At noon, while basking in the sun and reading a book, Wang Feng and I asked each other, feeling that their feelings were very valuable. In the afternoon, the Secretary of the League branch (Hong Xin) said that the league members held a meeting and raised their hands to several students in the class who asked to join the league. But we didn't have a standard. We just raised our hands indiscriminately. What's more, last year, we made a statement for the students who joined the league in grade three of senior high school. Those people hadn't seen it before, and they raised their hands indiscriminately several times. It was really a great form, and it was a great joke in the world.
one thousand two hundred and twenty-one
It's really difficult. Teacher Fei asked me to prepare one issue of "stream", but I didn't have any here. I promised him to hand it in on Saturday, but today it's Friday.
Wang Fei asked for a piece of autumn rhyme, but it was very short. At noon, he suddenly wanted to ask Wang Beiyu again. Sure enough, he had a lot of people, so he asked him to copy them. I also collected a piece of physics teacher yesterday. In this way, I felt a lot easier.
In the afternoon, I went to the lecture in the ladder classroom and felt very unsuccessful.
In the morning, Tai Chenghua sent me a stack of vegetable tickets, which he owed me. That's funny. Two weeks ago, he borrowed one yuan from me, but he never paid it back. He didn't mention it, because his borrowing day was Saturday, and he went back. A few days ago, I realized that he had really forgotten this. Somehow, I felt very bad about it. It seemed that it was too much. After several attempts, he didn't respond. Yesterday, he came home and begged again. He said he didn't meet his mother and had no money. I was afraid and said, "did you forget?" He said, "no," and I said, "nothing?" When he forgot it, he said, "I owe you a dollar, and I won't forget it." no mistake, he won't forget it, but it tortured me. At this time, I hold the food ticket and count it in my pocket.
19841222-31 diary
one thousand two hundred and twenty-two
Somehow, my heart is very heavy. It seems that there is some invisible consciousness pressing me. I can't look up and complain secretly, but I really don't know what to do.
one thousand two hundred and twenty-three
My heart is heavy. Everything is meaningless. I am so bored.
one thousand two hundred and twenty-four
After the evening self-study at night, I felt that my heart was shaking, my legs were shaking, and my waist seemed to be shaking even more, as if I were about to break.
one thousand two hundred and twenty-five
At noon, I was shaking in the canteen.
one thousand two hundred and twenty-six
It's very painful. I can only see that others are happy, but I can't. onlookers are suffering.
one thousand two hundred and twenty-seven
My heart was flustered in physical education class. I was very sad. Fortunately, I passed the exam (7), but I was afraid of doing anything else.
one thousand two hundred and twenty-eight
My heart is still in great pain, and so is biqingyuan at the same table. He thinks he can get rid of it, but he can't end it.
one thousand two hundred and twenty-nine
In the evening, teacher Fei asked me to copy the edition of stream. I went to another place to arrange the edition. Biqingyuan and Li Erqiao copied it and delivered it. He was also called good. He found that there were many books. He sighed bitterly. At night, he thought about an article "father and son and son and father", but he couldn't dream.
19841218-19 diary
one thousand two hundred and eighteen
Today, I was in a gloomy mood. It seemed that something was pressing on my head, and the atmosphere did not dare to breathe. I felt that everything was becoming clear and meaningless. It seemed that everything was false. I was extremely pessimistic and could no longer be excited. Alas! I don't know why.
The film "death trap", which was made by the League branch, was at 5:20, but we didn't eat until 5:00. We were busy. When we went, we began to put them away. We couldn't find a seat with biqingyuan. It was No. 6 and No. 8 in row 11 upstairs. Later, we knew it was the last row. After we found it, we sat down. Sitting at the last side seemed to have an open eye. We could still watch the film. Only then did we forget our sadness. The past is coming again, alas!
one thousand two hundred and nineteen
Somehow, it seems that I can't help myself and let everything change.
In the afternoon, the League meeting was held, and Secretary Yao gave a report, aiming to be a real League member and play an advanced role. After the meeting, Xu Rui went to Xu Rui's office to borrow his senior one textbook in summer vacation. He put it in the box and suddenly changed his view of him, but it was wrong. He should return it to me (first) to be a friend or a borrower. Of course, I still brought the book. I've wanted it for several times, but I'm afraid of it. It seems that anything can be done successfully.
19841220--21 diary
one thousand two hundred and twenty
At noon, while basking in the sun and reading a book, Wang Feng and I asked each other, feeling that their feelings were very valuable. In the afternoon, the Secretary of the League branch (Hong Xin) said that the league members held a meeting and raised their hands to several students in the class who asked to join the league. But we didn't have a standard. We just raised our hands indiscriminately. What's more, last year, we made a statement for the students who joined the league in grade three of senior high school. Those people hadn't seen it before, and they raised their hands indiscriminately several times. It was really a great form, and it was a great joke in the world.
one thousand two hundred and twenty-one
It's really difficult. Teacher Fei asked me to prepare one issue of "stream", but I didn't have any here. I promised him to hand it in on Saturday, but today it's Friday.
Wang Fei asked for a piece of autumn rhyme, but it was very short. At noon, he suddenly wanted to ask Wang Beiyu again. Sure enough, he had a lot of people, so he asked him to copy them. I also collected a piece of physics teacher yesterday. In this way, I felt a lot easier.
In the afternoon, I went to the lecture in the ladder classroom and felt very unsuccessful.
In the morning, Tai Chenghua sent me a stack of vegetable tickets, which he owed me. That's funny. Two weeks ago, he borrowed one yuan from me, but he never paid it back. He didn't mention it, because his borrowing day was Saturday, and he went back. A few days ago, I realized that he had really forgotten this. Somehow, I felt very bad about it. It seemed that it was too much. After several attempts, he didn't respond. Yesterday, he came home and begged again. He said he didn't meet his mother and had no money. I was afraid and said, "did you forget?" He said, "no," and I said, "nothing?" When he forgot it, he said, "I owe you a dollar, and I won't forget it." no mistake, he won't forget it, but it tortured me. At this time, I hold the food ticket and count it in my pocket.
19841222-31 diary
one thousand two hundred and twenty-two
Somehow, my heart is very heavy. It seems that there is some invisible consciousness pressing me. I can't look up and complain secretly, but I really don't know what to do.
one thousand two hundred and twenty-three
My heart is heavy. Everything is meaningless. I am so bored.
one thousand two hundred and twenty-four
After the evening self-study at night, I felt that my heart was shaking, my legs were shaking, and my waist seemed to be shaking even more, as if I were about to break.
one thousand two hundred and twenty-five
At noon, I was shaking in the canteen.
one thousand two hundred and twenty-six
It's very painful. I can only see that others are happy, but I can't. onlookers are suffering.
one thousand two hundred and twenty-seven
My heart was flustered in physical education class. I was very sad. Fortunately, I passed the exam (7), but I was afraid of doing anything else.
one thousand two hundred and twenty-eight
My heart is still in great pain, and so is biqingyuan at the same table. He thinks he can get rid of it, but he can't end it.
one thousand two hundred and twenty-nine
In the evening, teacher Fei asked me to copy the edition of stream. I went to another place to arrange the edition. Biqingyuan and Li Erqiao copied it and delivered it. He was also called good. He found that there were many books. He sighed bitterly. At night, he thought about an article "father and son and son and father", but he couldn't dream.
