Our baby was born, but through unconventional means, we were swallowed by an endless darkness. I had not know what happened, and I ended being confused, I couldn't guide myself amidst this endless and sorrowful darkness, and at times I felt sad and depressed that something like this was happening to our child, what could had made it become this endless darkness? Whatever powers it had, it reminded me slightly of Alexander, but instead of just being curious about its internal world, it confined itself inside and even let us pass for some reason, it felt as if it wanted to be helped, but at the same time, it felt shy, insecure, and without the desire to be helped, it was a strange mix of feelings that took over my heart, but thanks to Axitl at my side, I was able to push through my indecisiveness.
We reached the root after investigating through the darkness for a long time, we found lights that created threads that sometimes led to somewhere far away, and other times to nowhere, we called them "paths" and we began to use them to guide us, sometimes we found ourselves in dead ends, but ultimately, we reached an area with many paths converging together beautifully, generating a bright light amidst this endless and encompassing darkness. We reached the culmination of this light, and we found a heart-shaped crystal, inside of it, there was a small baby made… made of darkness.
It was our child, this child of pure obscurity so endless it seemed like glaring at the void itself was there, encompassing itself into the crystal… For a moment, I couldn't understand why it was there… but I quickly ended realizing the reason, the same way Axitl did, she explained to me, it seems that our child had been so lonely this entire time that despite its will to be freed, it also developed an incredible sense of loneliness and… fear, perhaps anxiety? It was a mix of many things, it was afraid of going out, of being unprotected, of not shelling itself inside this crystal.
I felt bad, a sudden guilty struck me, it made me feel destroyed, how could this little baby had gone through so much? Despite having been a giant monster back then, deep down, it was but a mere child that had yet to even develop mentally, if even, the only thing this creature ended developing was fear against everything, and endless senses of insecurity… But this creature was my child now… It metamorphosed into my child, my baby. I couldn't possibly ignore his fears, his feelings, or how it felt. As my child, I had to guide it to a brighter future. I had to hold its little hand and walk at its side, until it could finally walk by itself.
With Axitl, we hugged the crystal for several minutes, we told the child that everything would be okay, that we would be there for him or her… that we were there so it could be happy, so it could develop all the feelings it lacked, so it could experience love and compassion, comfort, and warmth…
Although for a moment, we didn't see any results, it ultimately responded, slowly moving towards us, and breaking the crystal into sparks of light. I felt a sudden happiness that it is very hard to describe, it felt as if I was about to cry tears of happiness… But just how many times have I cried now? Even after having grown and everything, even after having fought, I still had my human emotions, these emotions that drove and inspired my heart to move forward despite all the hardships I've gone through, the burdens I carry with my shoulders, and the terrible sins I've committed…
At the end, I am still a human, the essence of a human are emotions, empathy, love, compassion… I cannot live without them, and they make me as a person, although I often try to suppress them because I know that the worlds I visit are filled with corruption, in such moments like these, I cannot possibly reject them, my heart feels like it is about to explode due to all these feelings compressing themselves in the interior of my own self… Ahh, I wish I could suppress them more, but I cannot. I began to cry as Axitl caught our child, we embraced it with our love, with our compassion, with our warmth, and with our empathy, we told him that everything would be okay, and that we would be there for him… or her.
"Let's go home now…" Said Axitl.
"Come with us, there is a whole world outside waiting for you…" I said.
"Hm, a whole universe…" Said Axitl.
"So, don't be afraid… We'll hold your hand as long as you want, until you feel confident enough to walk by yourself." I said.
And then, I felt as if our connection only grew deeper with our child, as I felt its hear and its emotions, the beautiful emotions it had, which were all caged, but slowly, they all began to come out like a fountain, the baby was made of darkness yet it had a face, it had eyes but we couldn't see them, and these eyes started to cry sorrowfully but also… there was also a hint of happiness, of realization, and perhaps of relief… So many emotions mixed in my heart- no, in our hearts, that it impacted us greatly with the realization of everything.
We decided to slowly move outside, as our child slowly began to absorb all of the darkness into its core, slowly, until we found ourselves outside, as if time had not even passed, Gwendolyn looked at the two of us with surprise, wondering what had just transpired, the egg had disappeared and on Axitl's arms, there was a baby made of darkness. This darkness generated a powerful aura around, it might intimidate others, but it was our baby, so we didn't felt intimidated.
But that darkness began to slowly fade away, showing its truest form.
Our baby was born, but through unconventional means, we were swallowed by an endless darkness. I had not know what happened, and I ended being confused, I couldn't guide myself amidst this endless and sorrowful darkness, and at times I felt sad and depressed that something like this was happening to our child, what could had made it become this endless darkness? Whatever powers it had, it reminded me slightly of Alexander, but instead of just being curious about its internal world, it confined itself inside and even let us pass for some reason, it felt as if it wanted to be helped, but at the same time, it felt shy, insecure, and without the desire to be helped, it was a strange mix of feelings that took over my heart, but thanks to Axitl at my side, I was able to push through my indecisiveness.
We reached the root after investigating through the darkness for a long time, we found lights that created threads that sometimes led to somewhere far away, and other times to nowhere, we called them "paths" and we began to use them to guide us, sometimes we found ourselves in dead ends, but ultimately, we reached an area with many paths converging together beautifully, generating a bright light amidst this endless and encompassing darkness. We reached the culmination of this light, and we found a heart-shaped crystal, inside of it, there was a small baby made… made of darkness.
It was our child, this child of pure obscurity so endless it seemed like glaring at the void itself was there, encompassing itself into the crystal… For a moment, I couldn't understand why it was there… but I quickly ended realizing the reason, the same way Axitl did, she explained to me, it seems that our child had been so lonely this entire time that despite its will to be freed, it also developed an incredible sense of loneliness and… fear, perhaps anxiety? It was a mix of many things, it was afraid of going out, of being unprotected, of not shelling itself inside this crystal.
I felt bad, a sudden guilty struck me, it made me feel destroyed, how could this little baby had gone through so much? Despite having been a giant monster back then, deep down, it was but a mere child that had yet to even develop mentally, if even, the only thing this creature ended developing was fear against everything, and endless senses of insecurity… But this creature was my child now… It metamorphosed into my child, my baby. I couldn't possibly ignore his fears, his feelings, or how it felt. As my child, I had to guide it to a brighter future. I had to hold its little hand and walk at its side, until it could finally walk by itself.
With Axitl, we hugged the crystal for several minutes, we told the child that everything would be okay, that we would be there for him or her… that we were there so it could be happy, so it could develop all the feelings it lacked, so it could experience love and compassion, comfort, and warmth…
Although for a moment, we didn't see any results, it ultimately responded, slowly moving towards us, and breaking the crystal into sparks of light. I felt a sudden happiness that it is very hard to describe, it felt as if I was about to cry tears of happiness… But just how many times have I cried now? Even after having grown and everything, even after having fought, I still had my human emotions, these emotions that drove and inspired my heart to move forward despite all the hardships I've gone through, the burdens I carry with my shoulders, and the terrible sins I've committed…
At the end, I am still a human, the essence of a human are emotions, empathy, love, compassion… I cannot live without them, and they make me as a person, although I often try to suppress them because I know that the worlds I visit are filled with corruption, in such moments like these, I cannot possibly reject them, my heart feels like it is about to explode due to all these feelings compressing themselves in the interior of my own self… Ahh, I wish I could suppress them more, but I cannot. I began to cry as Axitl caught our child, we embraced it with our love, with our compassion, with our warmth, and with our empathy, we told him that everything would be okay, and that we would be there for him… or her.
"Let's go home now…" Said Axitl.
"Come with us, there is a whole world outside waiting for you…" I said.
"Hm, a whole universe…" Said Axitl.
"So, don't be afraid… We'll hold your hand as long as you want, until you feel confident enough to walk by yourself." I said.
And then, I felt as if our connection only grew deeper with our child, as I felt its hear and its emotions, the beautiful emotions it had, which were all caged, but slowly, they all began to come out like a fountain, the baby was made of darkness yet it had a face, it had eyes but we couldn't see them, and these eyes started to cry sorrowfully but also… there was also a hint of happiness, of realization, and perhaps of relief… So many emotions mixed in my heart- no, in our hearts, that it impacted us greatly with the realization of everything.
We decided to slowly move outside, as our child slowly began to absorb all of the darkness into its core, slowly, until we found ourselves outside, as if time had not even passed, Gwendolyn looked at the two of us with surprise, wondering what had just transpired, the egg had disappeared and on Axitl's arms, there was a baby made of darkness. This darkness generated a powerful aura around, it might intimidate others, but it was our baby, so we didn't felt intimidated.
But that darkness began to slowly fade away, showing its truest form.
