Chapter 111
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111
Every scene he saw was true, and every love he felt was true, so he doubted, but he overturned his doubts.
Cheng Yu interprets a lie with his true feelings. He does what he wants to do according to his own heart. He seriously likes Lin Anlan as a lover, so Lin Anlan really regards him as his lover.
After all, he was pushed to the corner of victory by the people he liked.
Lin Anlan knows that this is not appropriate, it is too irrational.
But he can't really hate him.
Reason tells him that he should stay away from Cheng Yu and the man who cheated him.
But his heart, but always can't help but think of him, think he has no big mistake.
All his mistakes come from liking himself and liking himself too much.
He has planted him in his heart. How could he hate him and blame him.
When reason can't restrain emotion, and the reluctance of heart breaks through the barrier of reason, Lin Anlan knows that Cheng Yu has become a special existence here.
An existence that he can't deal with rationally.
An existence that he knows the other party has made a mistake and is not willing to pursue.
Cheng Yu put all his eggs in one basket and went to the end. He knew it was the end for a long time, so when he left, he said, "you won't come back.".
He is so smart, so understand themselves, how can not know what he is doing is how dangerous and paranoid.
But Lin Anlan couldn't bear it, so he changed his direction and gave him a new way out of the dead end.
He is the only referee in his gamble. Only he can decide Cheng Yu's life and death. When he is willing to give Cheng Yu a way to live, Cheng Yu's death will be solved.
Lin Anlan sighed and said, "so you don't have to be too sad or afraid. I hate you. I didn't come back because I didn't think about it. I didn't pick you up because I was asleep that day. When I saw wechat, it was the next morning. You are very good. Even if I didn't stay with you in the end, you are also very good. I will remember that my first love was you. "
Cheng Yu listens quietly. He doesn't expect Lin Anlan to say this to him. He is open-minded, transparent, gentle and generous. He thinks Lin Anlan will blame him and hate him, but Lin Anlan wants to comfort him.
It is clear that he is the one who has been cheated by himself, but he is comforting him.
His An'an has always been the most gentle and kind person in the world.
He is like this, how can he give up on him.
"Well, since you don't hate me and think I'm good, why can't you stay with me?"
"It's good that we're finally together, isn't it?"
Lin Anlan blinked and did not speak.
For a long time, he whispered, "eat."
He lowered his head and drank porridge, and did not speak any more.
Cheng Yu looks at him and doesn't ask him any more.
A meal, two people eat is still harmonious, Lin Anlan finished the meal, washed the bowl, this just left Cheng Yu home.
Cheng Yu wanted to send him, but Lin Anlan refused, "you have a good rest, don't toss, I'll go back."
Cheng Yu had to reluctantly send him into the elevator, "you tomorrow, will come?"
Lin Anlan doesn't know. In fact, his coming here today is not in his plan.
If it wasn't for Xie Hui's sudden appearance that Cheng Yu was ill, and if it wasn't for his worry about Cheng Yu's sudden illness, he wouldn't be here at this time.
He did not answer.
Cheng Yu looked at him, "won't you come?"
"Say it again." Lin Anlan said helplessly.
Cheng Yu nodded and laughed, "I'll wait for you."
His eyes were shining in the corridor light, and he was staring at Lin Anlan.
Lin Anlan was seen by him only to feel his mind has no escape, he pressed the first floor, the elevator door slowly closed, Lin Anlan lowered his head, involuntarily exhaled a breath.
Cheng Yu watched the elevator start to go down, and then turned back to the room.
He sat on the sofa, thinking about what had just happened, just like a dream.
Lin Anlan came back, he said he didn't hate him, he didn't hate him, he also said, he is very good, he is his first love.
Cheng Yu can't believe it. Isn't he hated?
He has done so much, unexpectedly, has not been disgusted by Lin Anlan?
So, Lin Anlan also likes him.
The five months they spent together affected not only him but also Lin Anlan. Jiang Xu cheated him, and he was so disappointed that he didn't want to see him again.
But he cheated him, but he came to visit him.
In fact, he also cares about himself.
Cheng Yu felt for the first time that he might have been favored by fate.
He was born to death, a journey of death, but in the end, when the train arrived at the station, he accidentally drove to the distance he wanted to reach.
Lin Anlan, who has always been partial to Jiang Xu, for the first time, with complete memory, chose to be partial to himself and gave himself and Jiang Xu different results.
He gave him a way to live, a way that Cheng Yu never dared to look forward to, but he has been looking forward to every day for more than five months.
At this moment, he regained his courage and belief and decided to take the initiative.
He has never been disheartened, complacent, persistent and firm here.
Lin Anlan didn't give him anything, and he can walk alone on this lonely road for eight years with his own liking. Now, Lin Anlan gives him a way to live, an obvious partiality. Cheng Yu instantly seems to have his own armor and shield, and gets the entrance ticket of this love, and has no scruples any more.
In this world, the only person who can stop his love is Lin Anlan. Once Lin Anlan stops to stop him, he will have no other worries and give up.
Cheng Yu laughs slowly. The more he laughs, the happier he is.
He stood up and walked to his bedroom. Instead of taking medicine, he quietly stared at Lin Anlan's painting.
He kisses his index finger and middle finger, and then presses them on the face of the boy in the picture, "good night, good night."
"If you don't come to see me, I'll come to see you." He said gently, "I want to be with you."
Lin Anlan took the night back home, he entered the elevator, out of the elevator at the door to see waiting for him Jiang Xu.
"What are you doing here?" He was slightly surprised.
"I'll see you." Jiang Xu said, "we haven't seen each other for a long time. I miss you."
Lin Anlan looked at him and laughed. He opened the door and went in.
Jiang Xu followed him and asked him, "why did you come back so late?"
"I went out."
"Work?"
"Well, I took care of some personal matters by the way."
"What's personal?" Jiang Xu is curious.
Lin Anlan picked up the glass, took a glass of water, went to the sofa and sat down, "it has nothing to do with you."
Jiang Xu smell speech, some not very happy, "your business is not my business?"
"Is it?" Lin Anlan asked him, "I thought my business and yours had been separated a long time ago."
"Xiaolan, what do you mean?" Jiang Xu flustered way, "you, you have not forgiven me?"
"Forgive what?" Lin Anlan drank water, "forgive you for meeting Cheng Feng behind my back so many times, or forgive you for trying to let me cheat Cheng Yu's feelings? Forgive you for betraying my trust, or forgive you for not thinking about me at all? "
"I know I'm wrong." Jiang Xu approached him, "Xiaolan, it's time for you to calm down for such a long time, isn't it?"
"Do you think that no matter what you do, I will forgive you? I'll take it easy? " Lin Anlan asked him, "so you dare to say anything, dare to do anything, promise me can't do, don't promise me can do.". For so many years, our relationship is to make you think so? "
Jiang Xu Leng for a moment, he looked at Lin Anlan, he is familiar with, but familiar with Lin Anlan.
It's not like Lin Anlan before, it's more like Lin Anlan before he lost his memory.
He was suddenly stunned. "Have you... Recovered your memory?"
"Yes." Lin Anlan said frankly, "I have recovered my memory."
He looked at Jiang Xu, "do you want me to restore my memory?"
Jiang Xu nods. Of course, he wants Lin Anlan to recover his memory. Only when Lin Anlan recovers his memory, will he leave Cheng Yu and ignore him. He only treats him as a liar who has cheated him.
"Of course I want you to remember."
"Why? Because I will leave Cheng Yu after I recover my memory? Will I remember my relationship with you for more than ten years? Will it be in your favor? "
"No Jiang Xulian said, "I just don't want you to be cheated by Cheng Yu all the time. He's a liar. He's too good at pretending."
Lin an LAN sneered, "be modest, Jiang Xu. You'd better let me know more about how to dress up? You are so good at pretending that you have kept it from me for so many years. If it wasn't for my amnesia, I didn't know you had met Cheng Feng. You are really close to him. Even if he hasn't raised you for a day, you are thinking of him. "
"Ann, I know I'm wrong. I haven't seen him any more."
"It's a pity that you want to be reunited with him so much that you want me to cheat Cheng Yu. You have to recognize him. It's a pity that you don't go to see him?"
Jiang Xu said anxiously, "I was just talking nonsense. I didn't mean it. I didn't really want you to go."
"You are!" Lin Anlan said word by word, "you may be a moment of nonsense, but you are intentional. You really want me to go, otherwise I will appear beside Cheng Yu. When you see me and Cheng Yu together, why don't you come to me and persuade me to come back?"
"You think I went for you. You think I supported you. That's why you let me stay with Cheng Yu all the time, right?"
Jiang Xu wants to argue, but he can't say it. He's right. He really thinks so.
Lin Anlan looked at him disappointed, "you really don't know me at all."
"I know you." How can I not understand you
"What do you know about me?" Lin Anlan asked him, "if you know me a little and care about me a little, you won't say that! I don't think I would be willing to do such a thing for you! "
"Jiang Xu, what I hate most in my life is cheating. What I hate more than cheating is emotional cheating! I think you and I are the same, because you have suffered emotional injury, your mother left you without saying a word, leaving nothing, leaving you and other people, you left because of her, because she left, depressed, depraved, depressed, you know what it's like, how can you let me cheat others? Let others suffer from this kind of emotional pain? "
Jiang Xu was stunned and did not speak.
"Cheng Yu didn't feel sorry for you. Why did he suffer? Not get and lose, but at the beginning is false, never get, never lose! Don't you think about yourself now? You love your mother very much, but in the end, like her, you only hurt people with feelings, but what your mother hurt is you, and what you hurt is a completely innocent person without any mistakes, and no one who is sorry for you! "
"You want to hurt people and make me your knife, and then you say you know me? I am such a person in your heart who can use myself as a tool and hurt others at will? "
"You don't know me." Lin Anlan said in a deep voice, "you don't understand me, you don't care about me, and you don't love me."
"How can I not care about you?" Jiang Xu sat beside him, holding his arm and said, "of course I care about you. What I care about most is you. You are my best friend, the person I trust most. How can I not care about you, I care about you, and I like you."
Lin Anlan shook his head, "you don't care about me, you don't like me, maybe I'm really important to you, but you care more about yourself, you love yourself more."
"I didn't."
"You have." Lin Anlan said calmly, "there are many people who love me in the world. My parents love me very much, Cheng Yu loves me very much, and some of my fans love me very much. But you are not the only one. You don't love me as much as you say. You only love yourself. For you, everything about you is far more important than my happiness, anger, sadness and happiness, so you can say it. You don't care if I'm sad, So you think I'll do it, because you want me to do it. "
"No
Lin Anlan took his hand down, "it's like this."
He sighed, stood up and sat down on the other side, "Jiang Xu, for so many years, we have known each other for so many years. I accompanied you when your mother left, and you accompanied me when my parents left. We witnessed each other's growth and spent the low ebb again and again with each other."
"Once I thought we would be friends all our lives. We could trust each other and support each other forever. But in the end, for a father who never looked at you in the eye, you want me to be a knife to hurt people. Maybe that's the charm of time. Time will make the precious less precious and the precious less valuable, I'm no longer the one you think you should care about, so you're not afraid of me and don't care about my feelings. "
"Do you expect me to be a good brother and friend with you as if nothing has happened? How is that possible? " He laughed, "I have no trust in you, so we can only end here."
Jiang Xu looked at him in a daze, unbelievable.
"But don't worry, I'll put your wechat out of the blacklist after meeting you. When we meet in the future, we can also get along with our ordinary friends or colleagues. It's just that I can't talk to you like before, restrain you, remind you, just treat me as an ordinary friend. We can still meet and say hello to each other."
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111
Every scene he saw was true, and every love he felt was true, so he doubted, but he overturned his doubts.
Cheng Yu interprets a lie with his true feelings. He does what he wants to do according to his own heart. He seriously likes Lin Anlan as a lover, so Lin Anlan really regards him as his lover.
After all, he was pushed to the corner of victory by the people he liked.
Lin Anlan knows that this is not appropriate, it is too irrational.
But he can't really hate him.
Reason tells him that he should stay away from Cheng Yu and the man who cheated him.
But his heart, but always can't help but think of him, think he has no big mistake.
All his mistakes come from liking himself and liking himself too much.
He has planted him in his heart. How could he hate him and blame him.
When reason can't restrain emotion, and the reluctance of heart breaks through the barrier of reason, Lin Anlan knows that Cheng Yu has become a special existence here.
An existence that he can't deal with rationally.
An existence that he knows the other party has made a mistake and is not willing to pursue.
Cheng Yu put all his eggs in one basket and went to the end. He knew it was the end for a long time, so when he left, he said, "you won't come back.".
He is so smart, so understand themselves, how can not know what he is doing is how dangerous and paranoid.
But Lin Anlan couldn't bear it, so he changed his direction and gave him a new way out of the dead end.
He is the only referee in his gamble. Only he can decide Cheng Yu's life and death. When he is willing to give Cheng Yu a way to live, Cheng Yu's death will be solved.
Lin Anlan sighed and said, "so you don't have to be too sad or afraid. I hate you. I didn't come back because I didn't think about it. I didn't pick you up because I was asleep that day. When I saw wechat, it was the next morning. You are very good. Even if I didn't stay with you in the end, you are also very good. I will remember that my first love was you. "
Cheng Yu listens quietly. He doesn't expect Lin Anlan to say this to him. He is open-minded, transparent, gentle and generous. He thinks Lin Anlan will blame him and hate him, but Lin Anlan wants to comfort him.
It is clear that he is the one who has been cheated by himself, but he is comforting him.
His An'an has always been the most gentle and kind person in the world.
He is like this, how can he give up on him.
"Well, since you don't hate me and think I'm good, why can't you stay with me?"
"It's good that we're finally together, isn't it?"
Lin Anlan blinked and did not speak.
For a long time, he whispered, "eat."
He lowered his head and drank porridge, and did not speak any more.
Cheng Yu looks at him and doesn't ask him any more.
A meal, two people eat is still harmonious, Lin Anlan finished the meal, washed the bowl, this just left Cheng Yu home.
Cheng Yu wanted to send him, but Lin Anlan refused, "you have a good rest, don't toss, I'll go back."
Cheng Yu had to reluctantly send him into the elevator, "you tomorrow, will come?"
Lin Anlan doesn't know. In fact, his coming here today is not in his plan.
If it wasn't for Xie Hui's sudden appearance that Cheng Yu was ill, and if it wasn't for his worry about Cheng Yu's sudden illness, he wouldn't be here at this time.
He did not answer.
Cheng Yu looked at him, "won't you come?"
"Say it again." Lin Anlan said helplessly.
Cheng Yu nodded and laughed, "I'll wait for you."
His eyes were shining in the corridor light, and he was staring at Lin Anlan.
Lin Anlan was seen by him only to feel his mind has no escape, he pressed the first floor, the elevator door slowly closed, Lin Anlan lowered his head, involuntarily exhaled a breath.
Cheng Yu watched the elevator start to go down, and then turned back to the room.
He sat on the sofa, thinking about what had just happened, just like a dream.
Lin Anlan came back, he said he didn't hate him, he didn't hate him, he also said, he is very good, he is his first love.
Cheng Yu can't believe it. Isn't he hated?
He has done so much, unexpectedly, has not been disgusted by Lin Anlan?
So, Lin Anlan also likes him.
The five months they spent together affected not only him but also Lin Anlan. Jiang Xu cheated him, and he was so disappointed that he didn't want to see him again.
But he cheated him, but he came to visit him.
In fact, he also cares about himself.
Cheng Yu felt for the first time that he might have been favored by fate.
He was born to death, a journey of death, but in the end, when the train arrived at the station, he accidentally drove to the distance he wanted to reach.
Lin Anlan, who has always been partial to Jiang Xu, for the first time, with complete memory, chose to be partial to himself and gave himself and Jiang Xu different results.
He gave him a way to live, a way that Cheng Yu never dared to look forward to, but he has been looking forward to every day for more than five months.
At this moment, he regained his courage and belief and decided to take the initiative.
He has never been disheartened, complacent, persistent and firm here.
Lin Anlan didn't give him anything, and he can walk alone on this lonely road for eight years with his own liking. Now, Lin Anlan gives him a way to live, an obvious partiality. Cheng Yu instantly seems to have his own armor and shield, and gets the entrance ticket of this love, and has no scruples any more.
In this world, the only person who can stop his love is Lin Anlan. Once Lin Anlan stops to stop him, he will have no other worries and give up.
Cheng Yu laughs slowly. The more he laughs, the happier he is.
He stood up and walked to his bedroom. Instead of taking medicine, he quietly stared at Lin Anlan's painting.
He kisses his index finger and middle finger, and then presses them on the face of the boy in the picture, "good night, good night."
"If you don't come to see me, I'll come to see you." He said gently, "I want to be with you."
Lin Anlan took the night back home, he entered the elevator, out of the elevator at the door to see waiting for him Jiang Xu.
"What are you doing here?" He was slightly surprised.
"I'll see you." Jiang Xu said, "we haven't seen each other for a long time. I miss you."
Lin Anlan looked at him and laughed. He opened the door and went in.
Jiang Xu followed him and asked him, "why did you come back so late?"
"I went out."
"Work?"
"Well, I took care of some personal matters by the way."
"What's personal?" Jiang Xu is curious.
Lin Anlan picked up the glass, took a glass of water, went to the sofa and sat down, "it has nothing to do with you."
Jiang Xu smell speech, some not very happy, "your business is not my business?"
"Is it?" Lin Anlan asked him, "I thought my business and yours had been separated a long time ago."
"Xiaolan, what do you mean?" Jiang Xu flustered way, "you, you have not forgiven me?"
"Forgive what?" Lin Anlan drank water, "forgive you for meeting Cheng Feng behind my back so many times, or forgive you for trying to let me cheat Cheng Yu's feelings? Forgive you for betraying my trust, or forgive you for not thinking about me at all? "
"I know I'm wrong." Jiang Xu approached him, "Xiaolan, it's time for you to calm down for such a long time, isn't it?"
"Do you think that no matter what you do, I will forgive you? I'll take it easy? " Lin Anlan asked him, "so you dare to say anything, dare to do anything, promise me can't do, don't promise me can do.". For so many years, our relationship is to make you think so? "
Jiang Xu Leng for a moment, he looked at Lin Anlan, he is familiar with, but familiar with Lin Anlan.
It's not like Lin Anlan before, it's more like Lin Anlan before he lost his memory.
He was suddenly stunned. "Have you... Recovered your memory?"
"Yes." Lin Anlan said frankly, "I have recovered my memory."
He looked at Jiang Xu, "do you want me to restore my memory?"
Jiang Xu nods. Of course, he wants Lin Anlan to recover his memory. Only when Lin Anlan recovers his memory, will he leave Cheng Yu and ignore him. He only treats him as a liar who has cheated him.
"Of course I want you to remember."
"Why? Because I will leave Cheng Yu after I recover my memory? Will I remember my relationship with you for more than ten years? Will it be in your favor? "
"No Jiang Xulian said, "I just don't want you to be cheated by Cheng Yu all the time. He's a liar. He's too good at pretending."
Lin an LAN sneered, "be modest, Jiang Xu. You'd better let me know more about how to dress up? You are so good at pretending that you have kept it from me for so many years. If it wasn't for my amnesia, I didn't know you had met Cheng Feng. You are really close to him. Even if he hasn't raised you for a day, you are thinking of him. "
"Ann, I know I'm wrong. I haven't seen him any more."
"It's a pity that you want to be reunited with him so much that you want me to cheat Cheng Yu. You have to recognize him. It's a pity that you don't go to see him?"
Jiang Xu said anxiously, "I was just talking nonsense. I didn't mean it. I didn't really want you to go."
"You are!" Lin Anlan said word by word, "you may be a moment of nonsense, but you are intentional. You really want me to go, otherwise I will appear beside Cheng Yu. When you see me and Cheng Yu together, why don't you come to me and persuade me to come back?"
"You think I went for you. You think I supported you. That's why you let me stay with Cheng Yu all the time, right?"
Jiang Xu wants to argue, but he can't say it. He's right. He really thinks so.
Lin Anlan looked at him disappointed, "you really don't know me at all."
"I know you." How can I not understand you
"What do you know about me?" Lin Anlan asked him, "if you know me a little and care about me a little, you won't say that! I don't think I would be willing to do such a thing for you! "
"Jiang Xu, what I hate most in my life is cheating. What I hate more than cheating is emotional cheating! I think you and I are the same, because you have suffered emotional injury, your mother left you without saying a word, leaving nothing, leaving you and other people, you left because of her, because she left, depressed, depraved, depressed, you know what it's like, how can you let me cheat others? Let others suffer from this kind of emotional pain? "
Jiang Xu was stunned and did not speak.
"Cheng Yu didn't feel sorry for you. Why did he suffer? Not get and lose, but at the beginning is false, never get, never lose! Don't you think about yourself now? You love your mother very much, but in the end, like her, you only hurt people with feelings, but what your mother hurt is you, and what you hurt is a completely innocent person without any mistakes, and no one who is sorry for you! "
"You want to hurt people and make me your knife, and then you say you know me? I am such a person in your heart who can use myself as a tool and hurt others at will? "
"You don't know me." Lin Anlan said in a deep voice, "you don't understand me, you don't care about me, and you don't love me."
"How can I not care about you?" Jiang Xu sat beside him, holding his arm and said, "of course I care about you. What I care about most is you. You are my best friend, the person I trust most. How can I not care about you, I care about you, and I like you."
Lin Anlan shook his head, "you don't care about me, you don't like me, maybe I'm really important to you, but you care more about yourself, you love yourself more."
"I didn't."
"You have." Lin Anlan said calmly, "there are many people who love me in the world. My parents love me very much, Cheng Yu loves me very much, and some of my fans love me very much. But you are not the only one. You don't love me as much as you say. You only love yourself. For you, everything about you is far more important than my happiness, anger, sadness and happiness, so you can say it. You don't care if I'm sad, So you think I'll do it, because you want me to do it. "
"No
Lin Anlan took his hand down, "it's like this."
He sighed, stood up and sat down on the other side, "Jiang Xu, for so many years, we have known each other for so many years. I accompanied you when your mother left, and you accompanied me when my parents left. We witnessed each other's growth and spent the low ebb again and again with each other."
"Once I thought we would be friends all our lives. We could trust each other and support each other forever. But in the end, for a father who never looked at you in the eye, you want me to be a knife to hurt people. Maybe that's the charm of time. Time will make the precious less precious and the precious less valuable, I'm no longer the one you think you should care about, so you're not afraid of me and don't care about my feelings. "
"Do you expect me to be a good brother and friend with you as if nothing has happened? How is that possible? " He laughed, "I have no trust in you, so we can only end here."
Jiang Xu looked at him in a daze, unbelievable.
"But don't worry, I'll put your wechat out of the blacklist after meeting you. When we meet in the future, we can also get along with our ordinary friends or colleagues. It's just that I can't talk to you like before, restrain you, remind you, just treat me as an ordinary friend. We can still meet and say hello to each other."
111Every scene he saw was true, and every love he felt was true, so he doubted, but he overturned his doubts.Cheng Yu interprets a lie with his true feelings. He does what he wants to do according to his own heart. He seriously likes Lin Anlan as a lover, so Lin Anlan really regards him as his lover.After all, he was pushed to the corner of victory by the people he liked.Lin Anlan knows that this is not appropriate, it is too irrational.But he can't really hate him.Reason tells him that he should stay away from Cheng Yu and the man who cheated him.But his heart, but always can't help but think of him, think he has no big mistake.All his mistakes come from liking himself and liking himself too much.He has planted him in his heart. How could he hate him and blame him.When reason can't restrain emotion, and the reluctance of heart breaks through the barrier of reason, Lin Anlan knows that Cheng Yu has become a special existence here.An existence that he can't deal with rationally.An existence that he knows the other party has made a mistake and is not willing to pursue.Cheng Yu put all his eggs in one basket and went to the end. He knew it was the end for a long time, so when he left, he said, "you won't come back.".He is so smart, so understand themselves, how can not know what he is doing is how dangerous and paranoid.But Lin Anlan couldn't bear it, so he changed his direction and gave him a new way out of the dead end.He is the only referee in his gamble. Only he can decide Cheng Yu's life and death. When he is willing to give Cheng Yu a way to live, Cheng Yu's death will be solved.Lin Anlan sighed and said, "so you don't have to be too sad or afraid. I hate you. I didn't come back because I didn't think about it. I didn't pick you up because I was asleep that day. When I saw wechat, it was the next morning. You are very good. Even if I didn't stay with you in the end, you are also very good. I will remember that my first love was you. "Cheng Yu listens quietly. He doesn't expect Lin Anlan to say this to him. He is open-minded, transparent, gentle and generous. He thinks Lin Anlan will blame him and hate him, but Lin Anlan wants to comfort him.It is clear that he is the one who has been cheated by himself, but he is comforting him.His An'an has always been the most gentle and kind person in the world.He is like this, how can he give up on him."Well, since you don't hate me and think I'm good, why can't you stay with me?""It's good that we're finally together, isn't it?"Lin Anlan blinked and did not speak.For a long time, he whispered, "eat."He lowered his head and drank porridge, and did not speak any more.Cheng Yu looks at him and doesn't ask him any more.A meal, two people eat is still harmonious, Lin Anlan finished the meal, washed the bowl, this just left Cheng Yu home.Cheng Yu wanted to send him, but Lin Anlan refused, "you have a good rest, don't toss, I'll go back."Cheng Yu had to reluctantly send him into the elevator, "you tomorrow, will come?"Lin Anlan doesn't know. In fact, his coming here today is not in his plan.If it wasn't for Xie Hui's sudden appearance that Cheng Yu was ill, and if it wasn't for his worry about Cheng Yu's sudden illness, he wouldn't be here at this time.He did not answer.Cheng Yu looked at him, "won't you come?""Say it again." Lin Anlan said helplessly.Cheng Yu nodded and laughed, "I'll wait for you."His eyes were shining in the corridor light, and he was staring at Lin Anlan.Lin Anlan was seen by him only to feel his mind has no escape, he pressed the first floor, the elevator door slowly closed, Lin Anlan lowered his head, involuntarily exhaled a breath.Cheng Yu watched the elevator start to go down, and then turned back to the room.He sat on the sofa, thinking about what had just happened, just like a dream.Lin Anlan came back, he said he didn't hate him, he didn't hate him, he also said, he is very good, he is his first love.Cheng Yu can't believe it. Isn't he hated?He has done so much, unexpectedly, has not been disgusted by Lin Anlan?So, Lin Anlan also likes him.The five months they spent together affected not only him but also Lin Anlan. Jiang Xu cheated him, and he was so disappointed that he didn't want to see him again.But he cheated him, but he came to visit him.In fact, he also cares about himself.Cheng Yu felt for the first time that he might have been favored by fate.He was born to death, a journey of death, but in the end, when the train arrived at the station, he accidentally drove to the distance he wanted to reach.Lin Anlan, who has always been partial to Jiang Xu, for the first time, with complete memory, chose to be partial to himself and gave himself and Jiang Xu different results.He gave him a way to live, a way that Cheng Yu never dared to look forward to, but he has been looking forward to every day for more than five months.At this moment, he regained his courage and belief and decided to take the initiative.He has never been disheartened, complacent, persistent and firm here.Lin Anlan didn't give him anything, and he can walk alone on this lonely road for eight years with his own liking. Now, Lin Anlan gives him a way to live, an obvious partiality. Cheng Yu instantly seems to have his own armor and shield, and gets the entrance ticket of this love, and has no scruples any more.In this world, the only person who can stop his love is Lin Anlan. Once Lin Anlan stops to stop him, he will have no other worries and give up.Cheng Yu laughs slowly. The more he laughs, the happier he is.He stood up and walked to his bedroom. Instead of taking medicine, he quietly stared at Lin Anlan's painting.He kisses his index finger and middle finger, and then presses them on the face of the boy in the picture, "good night, good night.""If you don't come to see me, I'll come to see you." He said gently, "I want to be with you."Lin Anlan took the night back home, he entered the elevator, out of the elevator at the door to see waiting for him Jiang Xu."What are you doing here?" He was slightly surprised."I'll see you." Jiang Xu said, "we haven't seen each other for a long time. I miss you."Lin Anlan looked at him and laughed. He opened the door and went in.Jiang Xu followed him and asked him, "why did you come back so late?""I went out.""Work?""Well, I took care of some personal matters by the way.""What's personal?" Jiang Xu is curious.Lin Anlan picked up the glass, took a glass of water, went to the sofa and sat down, "it has nothing to do with you."Jiang Xu smell speech, some not very happy, "your business is not my business?""Is it?" Lin Anlan asked him, "I thought my business and yours had been separated a long time ago.""Xiaolan, what do you mean?" Jiang Xu flustered way, "you, you have not forgiven me?""Forgive what?" Lin Anlan drank water, "forgive you for meeting Cheng Feng behind my back so many times, or forgive you for trying to let me cheat Cheng Yu's feelings? Forgive you for betraying my trust, or forgive you for not thinking about me at all? ""I know I'm wrong." Jiang Xu approached him, "Xiaolan, it's time for you to calm down for such a long time, isn't it?""Do you think that no matter what you do, I will forgive you? I'll take it easy? " Lin Anlan asked him, "so you dare to say anything, dare to do anything, promise me can't do, don't promise me can do.". For so many years, our relationship is to make you think so? "Jiang Xu Leng for a moment, he looked at Lin Anlan, he is familiar with, but familiar with Lin Anlan.It's not like Lin Anlan before, it's more like Lin Anlan before he lost his memory.He was suddenly stunned. "Have you... Recovered your memory?""Yes." Lin Anlan said frankly, "I have recovered my memory."He looked at Jiang Xu, "do you want me to restore my memory?"Jiang Xu nods. Of course, he wants Lin Anlan to recover his memory. Only when Lin Anlan recovers his memory, will he leave Cheng Yu and ignore him. He only treats him as a liar who has cheated him."Of course I want you to remember.""Why? Because I will leave Cheng Yu after I recover my memory? Will I remember my relationship with you for more than ten years? Will it be in your favor? ""No Jiang Xulian said, "I just don't want you to be cheated by Cheng Yu all the time. He's a liar. He's too good at pretending."Lin an LAN sneered, "be modest, Jiang Xu. You'd better let me know more about how to dress up? You are so good at pretending that you have kept it from me for so many years. If it wasn't for my amnesia, I didn't know you had met Cheng Feng. You are really close to him. Even if he hasn't raised you for a day, you are thinking of him. ""Ann, I know I'm wrong. I haven't seen him any more.""It's a pity that you want to be reunited with him so much that you want me to cheat Cheng Yu. You have to recognize him. It's a pity that you don't go to see him?"Jiang Xu said anxiously, "I was just talking nonsense. I didn't mean it. I didn't really want you to go.""You are!" Lin Anlan said word by word, "you may be a moment of nonsense, but you are intentional. You really want me to go, otherwise I will appear beside Cheng Yu. When you see me and Cheng Yu together, why don't you come to me and persuade me to come back?""You think I went for you. You think I supported you. That's why you let me stay with Cheng Yu all the time, right?"Jiang Xu wants to argue, but he can't say it. He's right. He really thinks so.Lin Anlan looked at him disappointed, "you really don't know me at all.""I know you." How can I not understand you"What do you know about me?" Lin Anlan asked him, "if you know me a little and care about me a little, you won't say that! I don't think I would be willing to do such a thing for you! ""Jiang Xu, what I hate most in my life is cheating. What I hate more than cheating is emotional cheating! I think you and I are the same, because you have suffered emotional injury, your mother left you without saying a word, leaving nothing, leaving you and other people, you left because of her, because she left, depressed, depraved, depressed, you know what it's like, how can you let me cheat others? Let others suffer from this kind of emotional pain? "Jiang Xu was stunned and did not speak."Cheng Yu didn't feel sorry for you. Why did he suffer? Not get and lose, but at the beginning is false, never get, never lose! Don't you think about yourself now? You love your mother very much, but in the end, like her, you only hurt people with feelings, but what your mother hurt is you, and what you hurt is a completely innocent person without any mistakes, and no one who is sorry for you! ""You want to hurt people and make me your knife, and then you say you know me? I am such a person in your heart who can use myself as a tool and hurt others at will? ""You don't know me." Lin Anlan said in a deep voice, "you don't understand me, you don't care about me, and you don't love me.""How can I not care about you?" Jiang Xu sat beside him, holding his arm and said, "of course I care about you. What I care about most is you. You are my best friend, the person I trust most. How can I not care about you, I care about you, and I like you."Lin Anlan shook his head, "you don't care about me, you don't like me, maybe I'm really important to you, but you care more about yourself, you love yourself more.""I didn't.""You have." Lin Anlan said calmly, "there are many people who love me in the world. My parents love me very much, Cheng Yu loves me very much, and some of my fans love me very much. But you are not the only one. You don't love me as much as you say. You only love yourself. For you, everything about you is far more important than my happiness, anger, sadness and happiness, so you can say it. You don't care if I'm sad, So you think I'll do it, because you want me to do it. ""NoLin Anlan took his hand down, "it's like this."He sighed, stood up and sat down on the other side, "Jiang Xu, for so many years, we have known each other for so many years. I accompanied you when your mother left, and you accompanied me when my parents left. We witnessed each other's growth and spent the low ebb again and again with each other.""Once I thought we would be friends all our lives. We could trust each other and support each other forever. But in the end, for a father who never looked at you in the eye, you want me to be a knife to hurt people. Maybe that's the charm of time. Time will make the precious less precious and the precious less valuable, I'm no longer the one you think you should care about, so you're not afraid of me and don't care about my feelings. ""Do you expect me to be a good brother and friend with you as if nothing has happened? How is that possible? " He laughed, "I have no trust in you, so we can only end here."Jiang Xu looked at him in a daze, unbelievable."But don't worry, I'll put your wechat out of the blacklist after meeting you. When we meet in the future, we can also get along with our ordinary friends or colleagues. It's just that I can't talk to you like before, restrain you, remind you, just treat me as an ordinary friend. We can still meet and say hello to each other."
